Juicy site.

2012-01-28T12:09:00.002+08:00

a few pics from my 21st via the phone.

heya !!

2012-01-28T12:03:00.001+08:00

ok I'm sorry it's been quite I while since my last UPD8 here. I was too BZ with god knows what. the night after zouk I was just resting, and the day before school I was rushing like mad for my assignment. turns out I'm a dag late for submission anyway. which goes to say, 20% deduction fuck my life. and guess what !?? I just saw the notes the lecturer gave which stated the formats for submission and I fuckin didn't do it that way. know what... I'm prepared to retake this sem fuck me.

pictures !!!!

went to the zoo with sunny shafiqa and nurul. met up with aloysius after that and sunny me and A watched the girl w the dragon tattoo like finally !!!! the original was way better tho.

and we can fade into darkness

2012-01-24T08:36:00.002+08:00

we talked, we walked
we drunk, we swayed
we hugged, we spoke

tonight i truly understood the meaning of " our bodies clicked. " not in the sensual way but ugh. im still a virgin FYI HA HA HA

you held me tight and we just walked
you held me tight we just clicked
you held me tight and i felt safe ( kinda. )
you held me close and i finally let loose. ( a little. )

hand in hand we simply stayed

if i were still young, tonight would have been almost perfect. but i ain't the foolish teenager that worships love and believes it with all her might no more.

i am now the different me.

you forcing me to look into your eyes, i, being afraid just turned away
you saying how you like me hugging you from the back, i, just shying away eventually
you, looking right into me and singing out
you whispering god knows what into my ears

and all the while i just felt strangely calm

we walked out hand in hand, and into a condo that were unknown to us and just chilled at the pool. there we just laid. it was all great...

but somehow i'm just sorry..

i'm just too darn afraid to love.

-

okay hi guys !!!! i just got back from an amazing night out ! pictures later, i need to think thru a lot of stuff man.

i left my smashbox foundation in BKK so i had to borrow my aunt's l'oreal lol. fuck it's good !!! ima go buy it when i can !!!

was contemplating on if i shuld let my hair loose..

but decided against it.

i've got this lovely top for almost half a year with the tag still intact but yesterday was the first time i showed it off LOL. nice !????

end product.

close up of make up. i was just spamming all the colors on my face lol.

with jolin !

with them guyzzzz.

i just realized mr whitie's quite a hottie fuck !!!

them faggots.

the game i still cant master zzz.

out on the dance floor where i pretty much just stood. HA HA HA HA. i lousy @ dancing lah fuck.

the view of the early mornin..

mr jase was waiting for me to get back lol, not as sweetas it sounds he just didnt have the keys to enter the house LOL.

good bye !!!

mobile uploads !

2012-01-22T20:01:00.001+08:00

well u guessed right I have absolute no life im here in macdonald's stealing their wifi LOL :X

ha ha ha the internet @ home was pretty amazing juz now ( pics from the previous entry were all taken w my cam. ) but it juz deteriorated man. so here's me doin mobile uploads chiao !

almost 21.

2012-01-22T14:22:00.003+08:00

YOOOOO !!!

ok, happy new year's eve ! met up with all of my old friends last night albeit for a short time. brought jase to my school ( cus we were heading out later. ) and when i entered the class shafiqa handed me a little parcel and i was like, " why for CNY ah !!! " cos they're all malays and im the only chinese lol.. ha ha ha but then they were all like, " eh, not today ah ?? " so then they went to check my FB and then i knew it was for my birthday LOL :X

ha ha ha, i was honestly shocked and touched man. it's been ages since i last celebrated my birthday, hence, needless to say, received any birthday gifts ( aside from moms and KK. ) from others so i was juz goddamn flabbergasted XD and utterly touched -sniff sniff-

ANW ! after school shafiqa and i headed to town for lunch\dinner where i met aloysius & his friend, farah and lawrence & jerome HA HA HA yes it's in chronological order fuck me -..-

ANW !!!! shant type too much i needa help jase get ready for his school.

EXCITED 4 TMR NIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a strong sense of nostalgia

2012-01-20T14:47:00.001+08:00

one taken in bei jing ( somewhere in nov last year. ) B4 heading out to shisha, the other taken a week ago in singapore, after heavy drinking and finally goin' to bed ~~

me mish eu sobz

meet

2012-01-19T13:52:00.001+08:00

last night wiv my loves ~~ and hi to today's first time wearing a long pants\ new pants\the only pair I have kekekeke.

pictures

2012-01-18T15:00:00.001+08:00

lovin phone blogging !!

2012-01-18T13:43:00.001+08:00

the connection here from the lecture theatre so fuckin strong I abso luv uploading pics lah wooooo !!! next time will sync pics taken from the cam and upload it here yokies ! shit y m I speaking like a kid. too much English today lahxxxxx

HOLY..........

2012-01-17T14:36:00.001+08:00

crap meat im so fuckin bored in math class here i m trying out all the apps i greedily downloaded by never touched.

so here's blogger's turn ! and dang it's pretty neat mate !!!! i know i know. im missing important formulae blah blah blah but fuck it man. math is jut really....,, brain frying. whatever that means. just popped outta my boring little brain.

dang i kinda regret takin management. shoulda gone lax and simply take arts or int design man im fucking drowning here need to look for tutor PRONTO !!!

paper is in 2 days. yes. u read that right. TWO. fuck me, fuck my life, shit on my soul.

_|_

:O

2012-01-10T18:32:00.001+08:00

holy crap today's the first time i'm actually home right away after school since school started a week ago LOL XD XD XD

i'm just really tired these few days even tho i already got 9h of sleep last night D:

must have been my brains, they're totally fried man. math why art thou so heartless...........

ANW, i went to my formspring ( my first time using since i last created an account there LOL. ) to answer a few questions so ask me more !!!!!!!!!!!

don't have to leave a name. be anonymous. ha ha ha cos im like such a loser got no one ask me questions HA HA HA.

ok. gonna go for dinner now ciaoz ~~~

my FS :

http://www.formspring.me/joyzyhanzy

long time !

2012-01-09T23:36:00.002+08:00

HELLOW BELLOW !!!!!

ok it has been TOO LONG since i last did an entry.... i dont even remember what my last entry is.
i've been too BZ so sorry XD XD XD

right now i just got back after meeting aloysius. fuck me war horse is fuckin good !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUST WATCH !!!!!!!!!!

fuck lah. too good already i fuckin love it..

anyway, long story short, KK was here in SG for a short while ( she already left for japan this morning. ) so i was BZ like a bird crashin over @ her's XD

met janelle ah pok to study 2 days ago but too much math was killing us so we went for a drink and shisha with CP after that.
met KK and her friends late into the night and drank more at karaoke. fuck. went back to KK's at 5am and opened a blue label. fuck. woke up the next day ( yesterday. ) at 12pm and i fucking went to the *bucks near her's to fucking study my math fuck me -..-

went for shisha at night again and i only got back at 3am this mornin. was feeling really queasy but nothing came out HA HA HA sorry i just love sharing everything here so i went to bed right away and had a fucking good sleep. no disturbance or anything.

got up this morning at 930 and went for school. fuck. math class. was so fuckin tired i really almost died. or no, i already died. grrrrrr.

sorry im too layZ to type well cos im really sleepy now. i keep makin spelling mistakes cos my brains already long dead lol.

oh yea ! today's pon's special day so here is ( a third time. ) wishin u a fantastic 18th !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lalalala

hair hair go away ~~~

2012-01-06T10:50:00.000+08:00

hello world !!!!

i finished bathing a little L8 this morning so i rushed like a mad cow making up and what not and well, guess what. i got ready to leave the place but when i looked at the time it was only

ten freaking 30 -..-

DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

so then i got my laptop on my lap to start typing when i looked down and fuck !!!!!!!

2 HAIRY LEGS STARED BACK @ ME -..-

so then i got the hair removal cream and started removing the ugly hairzzz. no pain no nothing, v quick. my second time using it LOL. i still RMB the first. HA HA HA HA HA. almost 6 years ago alr i think.. during my sec1 days.... ah well.

ANW ! what was the point of this entry !!?

oh yeah !!!! i met jan the bimbi last night and i was carrying so much stuff i decided to get a fuckin' backpack to carry all my school stuff.

bloody hell all the books r so fuckin heavy !!! *__*

and i only had a single textbook & a tiny file on me bloody hell. so here i am, dressed in very boyish clothes, socks and a fuckin adidas backpack. HA HA HA HA. i havent used backpack since...... oh i dont even remmember. sec school days probably !!? while i was trying it on i felt kinda shy. ha ha ha feels so young and stuff XD

ANW, we went for AP and a study session @ Trung Nguyen the vietnamese coffee place.

i think i got no time to type alr. gotta go. m gonna continue studying later so byebye.

2 the new studious me !!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. theres a tale behind me being studious. will share w u guys when im free ~~~~~

the day KK arrives ~~~

2012-01-05T10:02:00.003+08:00

WOOOOHOOOOOO !!!!!

ok. abrupt morning shout out but KK's back here in SG for a short getaway !!!!!!!!!!!!

HA HA HA, i know i have school and shit not but my school ends so early ! and guess what !! i was just lookin' thru my timetable last night when i noticed that i fucking have classes on SATURDAYS !

fuckity fuck fuck fuck !!! why is life so unfair !!!

sigh and it starts\ends at the same time. what a killjoy. starting right in the middle of when people are starting to feel the Saturday Fever.

whatever tat is. i swear i've seen it somewhere :|

ok. i suppose that is all. juz givin y'all a shout-out and sticking to my resolutions of writing frequently.
kekekeke see ! joycy can do it ! takin things one @ a time man.

i was shopping alone after school yesterday but i wasn't in the mood to shop for the usual stuff AKA cosmetics, clothes, accessories and what have u. i went to get some " mini furnitures. " instead.

ha ha ha, i've collected 2 super cool pencil holders ( u will DROP when u see this. fucking unique. ) , 2 lanterny lamps and a print on canvas ( what is it called !!! ) thing. and some others which i cant be bothered to RMB.

oh oh !!!! and a hair removal cream. HA HA HA not for my head lah. im sick of my shaving routine cos im not the most diligent person when it comes to the epilators :| sometimes im quite scared of pain too :'D

fuck my neck is aching so im gonna go. school's in a few hours im just waiting till it's 10am to start making up. ciao ciao ~~~!!!

ANGRY.

2012-01-04T00:15:00.004+08:00

i know i'm not supposed to feel the way i am now but really, i am just so goddamn disappointed >=[

i know i dont stand anywhere near your radar but please. fucking hell. just fuck fuck fuck. im so fucking pissed ugh.
im surprised i can even feel this way >=|

-

anyway !!! just got back after meeting aloy & farah !!!! ha ha ha yes aloy is hittin on her and it feels really odd to be the one in-between. my first time doing this and IDK man. feels odd. like i don't belong......... HA HA HA HA !!! next time ask him go alone lah fuck. needa give them two space to talk to each other. i was just tagging along at the back and fuckin hell. the feeling is so.......weird cos ive never been put into that situation B4. but ha ha ha very fun lah.

did my nails. time to show a little love to my old wrinkly as a raisin body. but 5 minutes after the mani, all of the beautifully painted nails got fucked up. thank god the feet are guai.

holland v.

2012-01-03T01:07:00.005+08:00

YO YO YO YO YO !!!!!!!!!!!!!

ME IS BACK FROM A GR8 NIGHT OUT W ALOYSIUS !

and yes, ive got pictures ! ha ha just a few but thing is, i've learnt so much about my feelings today. i thought i liked him but turns out, he's so much more on the friends' side i feel so at ease and calm when im around him. funny. funny how i always feel.

anywayz !!!!! first day @ school tmr !!!!!!!

XCITED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cnt c face best.

( let's take a memory of this !! honestly, IDK what fuck memory. i fuckinf left my phone AND my EZlink card cos i was L8 and rushing ( wots new. ) like a mad cow -..-

weF

weR

yeah.

PS : PLEASE TUNE THE VOLUME OF UR SPEAKERS TO THE MAX COS ALL OF MY LATEST TRACKS ARE SLOW AND VERY VERY VERY SOFT.
MUST LISTEN !!!!! V V V V V V V V V V NAIZE :'o))))))

IMW - dated Dec 8th.

2012-01-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

" Here I lie thousands of kilometers away,
going back to the time you stood just a few inches.
Somehow I'm still standing on the same ground every time it comes to you.

The few inches away are just mere digits marking the distance between us ;
what I felt for you stood millions of inches away.
The distance so far it's almost non-existent.
The non-existance in which you existed, close to me, close to my dreams, close to my hope, close to my reach.

There in the non-existence we both existed.
A place so sweet, so real, so happy and altogether so unreachable.

A place I dream of everyday but inevitably get jerked rudely awake by reality that stood only an inch away from my face -
You stand just too damn far away..
From me, from my dreams, from my hope, from my everything.

The inch of an inch that never existed in your kilometer. "

-

there goes my first new year post !! for new year, since everyone else is doing resolutions, i will begin by not doing one cos i never stick to my plans\desires anyway XD

anyhow, i do promise more entries to my online diary.
it is\feels really pathetic looking at my archives. as the year droops to a lower line, so does the amount my entries.
so yes, here's to more entires, more words, more thoughts.....

HAPPY 2012 EVERY1 !!!!!!!!!!!

uhm yeah i believe ive already wished u guys that once but ugh, what gives XD XD XD

my sore throat is so much better it's bloody amazing :O :O

u really can't look down on chinese medicines, gotta give it to the watermelons man.

the spray im taking now is made of watermelon powder..... i think !? cos the brand's name... i think !?? is called " xi gua shuang. " yeah.

anyway, i just got up from a nap so im feeling super groggy and my mind's not functioning very well. wuld luv 2 upload pictures but internet's too goddamn slow !!!

fuck me my aunt suggested i go cut my hair short again !!!!! and im really convinced fuck me. i know short hair and i arent entirely besties but hey man, in the spirit of new year, new changes wont harm.. right !!!!?

fuckity fuck fuck fuck. i will UPD8 when i have short hair. cos man it's just i really abhore my current hair ( looks like a fuckin butch i hate thin hair :'o( it's just so frail and limpy now. ) and thats why i pretty much just bun it up everyfuckinday -..-

if i cut it off however, i get to stop harming my hair by tugging at it really tightly with rubber bands and what not. shit.

will UPD8 soon.

new year bayB !!

2012-01-01T05:08:00.000+08:00

happy 2012 guys !!!!!!!

ha ha ha holy shit i just got home with terrible sore throat im doomed. ive never gotten pians this bad :'(

all thanks to the pack of maltese i sneakily bit on last night grr.

anyway ! i basically begun my 2012 with things\people i would never meet AKA..... aloysius.

ha ha, i was meetincheese and he called aloy and yadee deedah, we went over to his workplace and yadee deedah, after that went to look for KW and her church friends to countdown. it was fun !!

so, sick girl is gonna rest now.

PS, no pics of aloy. IDK why everytime im with him i lose all the courage to ask for a pic ha ha ha ha.

warning : wordy !!!!

2011-12-30T15:16:00.012+08:00

YOWZAHHHHHHH !!!

TOO LONG.

too long since i last did an entry..... WHAZZUP !!

i think i've already lost 85KG with all the walkings i've been doing these days.

i kid u not.

ever since i got here i been shopping\walking like a mad fuck and my legs feel really really sore now. i think i will get hit with early bone deficiencies if i continue this stupid walking-in-lousy-shoes thing. ugh. so here i am, dedicating my quiet 30th friday to a home-day and just blog it out. sadly i didn't bring my camera out ( sigh when u r alone, u pretty much have to carry all the shitz urself. jason faster come back lah. ) so i was only using my phone to take lousy shots but not so much either cos no one to help the poor helpless needy girl take 'em !!!! le sigh........

ANW !!! school's starting, which is something im really really absofuckinglutely looking forward to i even went stationery shopping TWICE ugh fuck me -..-

i've spent a little over the budget so hanzy has gotta control !!!!!! but then again, i need good pen to actually set myself in2 the world of........... knowledge. eh !???? kekekekeke.

i feel different. IDK, i've went out on my own for two and a half day ( second time i was out but QY the fucker came to meet me so. HA HA HA since she's calling me bitch, i will fucker her. the world revolves around the word " fair. " biatch. ) and IDK man. when i was out alone i just felt really peaceful.

ha ha ha ha aint it odd. the girl who was hands down afraid of being alone now winds up enjoying the solitude -..-

first time i was out was the other time i was here in SG ( who knew shopping alone culd be so dang therapeutic !?? i ended up with maxi dresses and a tiffany ! ) second time i was out, i 4got why. the third time i was out ( yesterday. ) was...... guess what !!!!!

i was craving for KFC's cheese fries.

but school's workshop just ended and i hate hanging in the area i once, literally, grew up in ( H8 bumping into people when im ugly. there. ) so i took the tube all the way down to...... cityfuckinhall.

HA HA HA HA ! funny the place KK always brought me ( but i disliked. ) would also wind up being the place i find peace in.

-..- life.

so then i went to the KFC and had my fries fucking hell. ha ha ha, feels really good man. im learning to be indie again.

being too dependent on people = bad bad bad.

IDK. when im alone, i feel so fuckin spiritual it's almost amazing :O it's @ times when u r solo do u start contacting the spiritual side of u.

the feeling of enlightenment is rather......enlightening to be blunt -..-

kekekeke. enough talkin bout em. i will UPD8, spiritually, when i am spiritual enough to be typing spiritually. XD XD XD

hokays ! let's c...... what have i got to UPD8 on !?? aaaaaah yes !!!! my plans !!!!

so. my initial plan was to go back to BKK uhm, dec 10. but i was too carried away in yangon i decided to extend it a little to 17th but due to some last minit issues ( aka SCHOOL. ) i decided to only go back to the land of happiness on the 25th, the night of xmas but alas !!!!! due to some last minit issues ( aka SCHOOL. ) i decided to postpone it to 28th but uhm, well, there goes my plans again cos due to another last minit isssues ( aka NOT SCHOOL. kekekeke. ) i decided to go back on the 30th but ugh. too tired to think back what happened and now, officially, i will only go back during CNY !

ha ha ha, what a chunk of shit. made me type and think so much -..-

i was so desper8 to go back to BKK cos all my stuff are in there !!!!! fuck me my make ups my bags my bed sheets my shoes my perfumes my fucking everything !!! see ! one time i decided to pack light ends up the one time i fucking regret packing light _l_

which is why i miss the old me's packing. just throw everything into my luggage cos u never know when u r gonna need them !!! i may be going to a stupid place but i will most def bring everything ( aka most random things. ) there cos u never know when u need them !!!! it may be a kampong place u r goin to but who knows u might meet a charming farmer there and u will need that gorgeous dress u got !?? not to mention that necklace shoved somewhere.........somewhere !??? and and and the nail polishes !!! how the fuch wuld u know which color would suit u that day !?

hence, concluded in the story, BRING EVERYTHING.

i've also been scolded by KK and my mom for my packing style XD XD the junk packer is what i'd like to confess here. ugh. layZ 2 type.

anyway ! ending off with 2 of my latest life motto !

a) everything happens for a reason.

living by this has made me less harsh on my expectations\emotions. now if something doesn't turn out the way i hoped, i shift my thoughts on the good side aka nothing HA HA HA HA nah im just teasing. like Mr Shoes is not in my class but it's meant to be maybe becos........................... hmm. IDK i havent really thot of it. HA HA HA. nah, maybe becos if he were to be in my class, i wont be myself then. u know. everything is something. shit. what does that even mean !?????

b) fuck me i 4got what's b.

pictures !!!!!!!!!!

in the sea of beautiful people......how do u know he\she is yours ??? :O !!

continue tmr. internet speed too dang slow.

pa......

2011-12-26T16:51:00.001+08:00

i wish i had a dad too.

i wish i had a picture with my dad too.

i wish my dad'd've still been here... but truth is, he is long long long gone.

a figure in my life i never knew, never hugged, never said " i love you. " to.

also the figure i yearn to see and just be with........

to the dad i never had.

sorry for the emo outburst. just saw carms' pictures of her finally reuniting w her daddykins. sigh, life is such a lime. of all the things i can have, i don't embrace. of all the things i can never in my lifetime have, i yearn with all the fibres im made of.

to my father, i am just a daughter. to the daughter, he is the hero.

less than three ~

2011-12-25T02:40:00.000+08:00

holy shot i was so close to thinking i'd lost my rise-andshine blog for good -..-
ugh, these computer stuffs really are a bitch. gotta do what it takes ASAP !!

ANW !!! had my orientation yesterday and it left me so bloody tired i fuckin' slept @ 8 bloody hell.
here's what i typed last night in another blogger account. copy and paste is really shiok.

HOLY CRAP MEAT ORIENTATION WUZ FUNNNNNNNNN

ha ha ha i never imagined myself saying it would be fun but there goes !!! thats loser jois to ya.

anyway ! i think i luv SIM !! IDK if it's too early to proclaim my love to a building i know nothing about but IDK man, once i feel like i like it, i will like it. same goes to human beings. i fall in luv really fast ( like there's this one im constantly checking out during orientation. let's call him Mr Shoes for remembrance's sake. ) but i fall out of love thrice as quick. which is whats really sad. when i love, i love big, i love deep, i love with all the love i can give. but once i don't like it anymore, that's it. bye bye. sayo-nara. zai jian. i wouldn't even know u existed. the bad bad thing about madam me. hence, another summary about me :

when i fall, i fall hard.

but when i don't, i get out fast.

SIGHHHHHH.

speaking of le monsieur shoes, IDK man. the first thing that attracted me to him were, duh, like the name imlies, his shoes. we were wearing the same kinds except different color and ha ha ha i feel like a mofo infatuated little kid typing this fuck me.

let's change sub.

SIGH. sad thing is we r from different classes so i won't get 2 c him anymore le cryyyyyyy

ok. so ! guess what !!!! im sosososososo disappointed w my timetable !!!!!

my classes start at 12 ( yes !!!! a mofo 12 !!!!!! ugh. ) and ends at bloody 3.

it's so bloody short !!!! the make up i'd be applying impeccably can only be used for 3 freaking hours !!!! ugh !!!!

im so sad. and 12 is such a bad time to start.... basically everything.

who could imagine walking out into the scorching sun that is at its best burning state !??

ur newly shampooed manes will inevitably get greasy, the powder you lovingly patted on to your face will no doubt get blotchy and the eye-liner you carefully stroked on will most definitely smudge !!! ugh ugh ugh !!! why is is so unfair !??

le sigh..................

but since classes start so late, i already have an agenda to fill up. since it starts at 12, i can leave the place at 11. i will wake up at 8, finish swimming at 9 ( meaning not just swimming ahem ahem. meaning bathe, relax, laze around... oh, the goods. ) and i will start applying my make up while letting my hair dry. by the time i finish, it'll prob be 10ish, i can go double check if what i wore made sense and then finally head out. such such pleasures of the time.

ok. i need to shit. sorry for the abrupt end :|

and it just gets better..

2011-12-19T13:39:00.001+08:00

FUCK ME TODAY JUZ COULDN'T GET ANY BETTER !!!!!!!!!

from late last night singing the crap outta karaoke to finally eating a burger in yangon @ 365 to walking back home ( yes. w-a-l-k. ) to havin breakfast at this myanmar restaurant to coming back home but to a locked gate to first time climbing a gate to stepping on wet grass to the greatest view ( more on this. ) to bathing to sending moms off the airport to lunch to finally, home, now, tying, blogging and fucking listening to my new favourite track fuck me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really love it love it love it when i discover a new track that i love. yummmmmmmz !!!!!

will put it in to my playlist later.

ciao.

later.

MM's seriously openin up..

2011-12-17T02:57:00.002+08:00

HOLY CRAP BLOGGER IS NO LONGER BANNED IN THE GOLDEN LAND OF BURMESES !!!!! :O !

ha ha ha hooray to advancements ! soon we'll see all the fast food chains rushing in like tsunami XD

anyway, le fattie is havin her usual honey star while listening to darling micheal jackson ( fave track now : keep your head up. his album is le fantastikkkko !! )

i've been here in burma for almost .......... um.... i was here on the....... wait. lemme go check my calender. fuck i've been here since the 3rd this month !!!!! which makes it.. officially the 15th day here ! shit ha ha ha ha i was only planning for a week tops but nothin's ever permanent with joycy aint ? XP

latest news is i've been accepted in SIM ( management course. ) and i was supposed to be all happy about it but victor recommended me some international unis in thailand and i was planning on enrolling in them incase i get rejected by SIM but tralalala ~~~ i got accepted. so. ugh. never mind.

i was again, planning for my life in a hostel ( check in2 a hostel for the first yr, look for potential rommies to rent an apartment wiv. ) but guess what !!! lastest news is, moms already rented an apartment in singapore so there goes my dreams again. which... y'know what ? is making me more devoted to the saying " expectations are just planned disappointment. " so all i'm doing now is taking a day as it is, eating one honey star as it is, drinking milk as it is, and shitting my smelly poop as it is ( jase insisted on adding it that sik fuk. ) kekek. jase is also all about good news too. which is why im a happy bird basically. both of my bros ( and myself. ) are once again on the future instead of wasting our time.. jawwie bro's already happily in australia, joycy me is already ( almost. ) a uni student ( ahem !!!! maturity calls !!! ) and jase's already accepted in australian international ( without sittin for the entrance exam fuck me !!!!!!!! ) so so so so so so so happy mexxxxx !

i have got no mood to type anymore AKA creative juices just ran out ( jase's idea. again. ) his english is better than mine now so fuck me.

PS/ ive gotten rid of my Cbox the chat box so leave comments instead shukran !

PICTURES !!!!!! jase & PPD ~

2011-12-01T07:43:00.002+08:00

loves !

2011-11-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

the other day my momsie dear surprised me with a bag of goodies.

and inside held the secret way to my........ make-up-hood. ahem.

but my absolute favorite inevitably goes to......

tra
la
la
la
la
laaaaaaaa !!

le alexandre zouari brush !!!!!!!!!!!
ok, if u know me well, u'd know that im a die hard AZ fan but it's just i've never got the $$$ to buy any of their god-amazing-gawjuz hair pieces :''''o(((((

ending off with a really pretty powder case ~~

KK.

2011-11-25T01:18:00.003+08:00

hooya !!!!

i am finally back after a month of disappearance ahem ! ha ha ha honestly i dont remember much of my trip except the past week when i was with my darling girl KK ! it's been half a year ( i think !? ) since we last saw each other and honestly we been planning to go places but nothin ever really works out... until now !

ha ha, IDK man, i just feel really peaceful when im with her. like i can be the crazy person that i am and also spill my complicated heart out without having to say too much and she'd be there summarizing and understanding. honestly tho i was kinda pissed the last few days cos i had to leave so quick ! nana's visa was expiring and i had to accompany her back to BKK which of cos means i had to leave KK, leave bei jing. somewhere which i was startin to get used to. anyway. shant say much. im really tired ~~~~

even my heart's tired. im debating on if i shld get my hair extensions out now. it's all rolled into a disgusting heap of mess it's fkin disgusting.

im not the kinda person to say " i love you. " but really, KK, i absofuckinglutely love you :'o)

oh. and im like shaelessly saying that cos blogger is like banned in china so she wouldn't be able to see it anyway HA HA HA HA. im such a failure. -..-

Life.........

2011-10-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

ok it's been too long since i last wrote anything smart here XD

anywayza, this is me joycy reporting live from BKK ( after fleeing to PTY to escape the flood. ) and ugh. IDK, life has happened so much in the past few days i don't even know what i think or feel anymore. i'm taking day for day and nothin for granted. my life is changing, or.. I am changing - yet again.

anyway, i've learnt something about myself today ( while leaving pattaya. )

i said i've been accustomed to changes and the movings in my life, i said i can adapt to changes easily and don't mourn over any differences but there is this tiny period where i lose myself and feel a bigass sense of loss once i leave a place which i've juz gotten used to. my english is sounding rough. blame it on the break.

anyway, all i wanted to say was :

even the strongest fall.

here're the piczzzz i've gotten over the past few days !? weeks !???? le sigh.

i've squeezed dry every drip of my energy into resizing n editing the picz so yes, u may steal them ;o)

finally. wordz.

2011-10-18T04:35:00.001+08:00

ok. this is late. but here i am. typing.

it's ben too long since i last did a proper entry !!!! :O i've never, in ma life, been this BZ it's crazy !
i've been spending so much time with proy i don't even know where to start -..-

ha ha ha, anywayz, point of this entry was to note down that i, myint myint maw @ joys han wang guo huai,
bloody fell asleep in the cinema today ( 17th oct 2011. ) !!!!

we were watching spy kidz, it was good it was funny but i was so sleepy i couldn't even hang on till the climax ( the kids getting their own cool gadgets. i think. ) i had to slouch down low allllll the way till my head was comfortably leaning on the back of the seat. see. timez like these i wish i had a man to lean on and be my makeshift pillow. y'know. for the sake of my neck coz after the show my neck was so sore it almost rolled off my head -..-

soza. what's new ??

hmm............... hmmmmmmmmmmmm

well nothing much has changed in me, but it feels like i'm becoming less bothered by everything i feel. ugh. it doesn't even make sense cuz i don't even know what i'm feeling these days. life's going on the fast lane i can't even pause to get a breather. so nope i haven't done any thinkings lately. agh well. my eyes are tired i shall go now.

dinner&ice-sk8 w proy n her sibs tomorrow night i need to sleep.

bye.

SK8 !!

2011-10-18T02:40:00.000+08:00

ok. picture entry. again. but but but tonight has gotta be the best i've had since... well, forever !!!

a ha ha, proy n i both got ourselves a new eye-candy ( yumm yumm !! ) and argh. it was crazy. her mr taylor lautner is really taylor lautner-esque. whereas for my mr skinny, well, he's just plain skinny with a really gorgeous head. the eyes the nose the lips and agh !!! the dimples !!!!!!!!

it was funny how we " met. " tho really. pon was showing me this side-way-skate thingamajig when i saw this dude charging straight towards me from the corner of my eyes. it's really funny come to think of it. i don't even know why i saw him since i was concentrating on the side-skate thingeh.

but anyhow !! this dude was charging straight towards me and i didn't know how to skate backwards so all i was doing was " oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit. " till ka-bammmmmm !!!!! i was skating backwards and mr dude\skinny was like i think. holding on to my shoulder and i dont know what how when but we just both fell -..-

surprisingly it wasn't all that painful. mustave been the adrenalin\beer kicking in but i was really chill. hiak hiak hiak albeit with a wet pants. like a wet-peed-pants -..- he was like " sorry ! " or somehwere along that line. my mind was like racing up the mountain cuz it was all so bloody sudden and i was caught really fuckin unexpected -..- and pon thot i was oh-shitting cuz i was gonna fall from learning the side-skate thing -..-

anywayzah !

mr skinny disappeared. ok i shuld stop callin him mr skinny here cuz it might ruin my impression of him hiak hiak but anyway, mr dude disappeared after the great fall and i soon forgot about the whole thing until quite awhile later where i was skating alone and he ( so handsome !!!!!! ) ( now that i was alright and not shaky from the fall. ) came up to me and was " hey, i am sorry. " and stupid me just said " it's ok ! :D " and skated away.

.......... FUCKING SKATED AWAY.
UGH !!!!! i really H8 myself sometimes.

i should have at least added " are u all right ? " or whatever right !????? le sigh ~

anywayz. i saw him looking at pon skating past him so i think he's gay !????? ugh IDK.

anywayz ! we all went for mcdonald's since that was the only place that was open after midnight and ola ola ! mr dude came in a while later !!!!! ha ha ha ha !!! proy and the rest were like persuading me to get a pic with him and due to the high i went along w it ( even tho i chickend out once. or twice. or thrice ugh fuck me !!! ) a ha ha ha, while i was BZ chickening out it all felt like a deja vu. the thing with prom night and taking a pic. no, running after him to request for a pic w him. and then soon after that i was like ugh fukkit. what have i got to lose eh !? so yupsie daisy ! that's probably it ! SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

but the last bits of mr dude was really quite disappointing. instead of turning back to him to say bye or whatever, i walked dead ahead without even turning back or smiling. shit me.

anyway. thats it. useless guy rants XD

picktures !

Bowling.

2011-10-15T05:25:00.001+08:00

YOOHEE ~!

ok, i just got back from a great night of beef, bowling, and oh, cars 2 !! hehe, cars wuz pretty ok but i still ( highly. ) recommend real steel man that was one hella good one ;o)

anywayz ! met up with proy's family for lunch @ kor-khun, this super cheap ass but fuckin' delicious beef place that everyone in my family adores. ADORES. ha ha ha, to a a beef lover like me, KK's heaven. where can u get great beef at cheap rates !?? WHERE ? ugh. anyway. pics.

heres me and moi darling ~!! this precious has been in kor-khun's fish tank since the first time i went there. IDK if it's me or if it's juz really me but he seems to remember me !!! everytime i walk to the bigass fish tank, he swims straight at me and we'll make crazy eye contact and i turn in2 a fish.

ma dear lady !

here's simple me cuz IDK what i should do w my face since the place's not air-conditioned and it was still in the afternoon ugh.

tell me. WHO. WHO could resist !????

ha ha ha i've realized throughout these few days where i spent ma dayz n nightz w proy that she's a really great cook !!!!

so here's a pic of masterchef swimmin in the oil.

after a heavy lunch we made our way down to esplande's to bowl or kaloriezzzz away.

( nana's camera. )

meet proy's lil sis denise !

n proy's lil bro pon !

here's to....... us XD

of cuz, after the load of shit we burnt off, we had to relax at the theatres :P

PS. yes. i know. ive gained like a mofo tonne of weight. ugh.

Taylor Lautner BayB ~!!!!

2011-10-12T02:31:00.013+08:00

today marks the last of my 10days ( or so XD ) here in darling little singapore ~!!
ha ha ha, ok, i was all " darling singapore. " cuz this time round it was a much much much better " experience. " i had cuz koh wei my dearest was spending her time with me unselfishly !!!! ha ha ha, unselfishly, vocabs where art thou ???? ok. when im excited my englsh goes blah so bare with me. anywayzah, here's KW the sweets sending me to the airport ~!!!! picture entry.

i wuz rushing like a mad cow ( what's new. ) so i was bare-ass faced with really hideous clothes and refused to show my true colors. ahem. ( until i made up and changed in the toilet. which u will see. later. )

bye naw ~!!!

A first for everything.

2011-10-10T03:28:00.003+08:00

the day i wanted to be left alone

the day i went out to orchard and shopped solo

the day i honestly enjoyed the freedom and solitude i bathed myself in

the day i listened to people around me talk, walk and laugh instead of my iPod

the day i finally got the tiff & co. necklace i been eyeing on

the day i truly had fun

~~

2011-10-09T00:47:00.001+08:00

ola ~!!!

okay here's me sitting really uncomfortably on the hard solid cold marble floor with a gleeful expression pasted all over my face.

i just finished talking to moms ( or rather, she talked and i mm-ed. somethin's up w my hormones these days. ) and she said she's planning a big ( china. ) trip for the fam ( minus my 2 darling brothers cuz they're schools r startin. ) to hong kong-china ( guang zhou moi lurve, bei jing ( this is just me solo really. to go visit my love KK who's currently studying there. ), zhang jia jie ( the scenic background of the movie avatar. ) and i forgot. a ha ha. oh !!! right right, gui lin ( some scenic places again. )
so while excitedly listening to the plans, my mind inevitably goes to the well, inevitable XD

HOW.

HOW can joycy hannie go traveling to these gorgeous places without a great camera in hand !??

i know i know, i just got my new camera a few months ago but that was chosen ( and bought to me by my darling grans. )
on a rash and based purely on bad decision.

KK recommended olympus pen ep2 but it was so bloody expensive i settled with my canon ( a few hundreds cheaper. ) before i bought it tho my mom was telling me to think carefully cos she doesn't want me moping around crying over split milk after i bought the canon. however, being the soft-hearted ( ahem. ) gurrl that i wuz, i decided to go with canon cos family business wasn't going so well then. and now, amigo, NOW, I REGRET.

there. i said it.

ugh. but it's ok. i will not buy a new cam. i will not buy a new cam. i will not buy a new cam. i will not buy a new cam.
now i shall chant that till i fall asleep.

so, i've been talking about how i'm on a journey to search for the " old. " me.. one who was so cheerful and on-the-go, on who was so carefree she wouldn't care if the world threw a hundred rotten blueberries ( um, my fave now. ) at her cos she had the power to bounce back instantly, one who smiled so much more than she frowned, true, one who cried more then but was all smiles once the tears sat dry. now i'm just a complete opposite of the old joys. i now do. not. live life.
i scowl thrice too often, i no longer l-i-v-e, i am the pessimistic polly i once so negatively believed in. however, i shame-facedly admit my quest for the old me amounts to..... well,
nada.

i look back at pictures, read my old entries to get back in tune with how i thought about every thing back then but sadly to suffice, i just can't seem to reach out to the past.

i've been doing a lot of thinkings and i've come to a conclusion. no. scratch that. i've come to a realization that i cannot go back to the old me anymore. every one has their moments in their life and i, sadly, has passed mine. the peak of my sad little life is gone, now replaced with what i'd like to call as, boring-lonely-funless days. ok, i know, not a very creative name but what gives.

my moments of scouting for cute boys and dolling up like no tomorrow came quickly and died down rather quickly too.
the old me whom used to say ( found in earlier entries. ) " OMG the ppl here dress so simply just normal tees and jeans. " has in fact, become the " now. " me.
i no longer have the goal and zest to pretty myself up now. which is, really, tragikk.

anyway, having said those chunks, the realization is, i can never go back. but that's not that.
i've grown. i've evolved. i've.... i've..... i've moved on. the thing is to embrace the new me with the love i once was showered with shamlessly, to accept the new me with open arms and just to live with it.

everyone changes, don't they ?

my change just came all too quickly.

here's a sad little picture ( from ma phone. ) i got last night on a dinner date @ billy bombers w' KW.

i know, i don't even bring my camera out anymore let alone snap pics.

450

2011-10-05T21:55:00.000+08:00

viohaha !

this is me reporting live from majura singapura ~!!!

hehe ive been here for almost a week ? wait lemme go check my calender. oh wait, i've been here for only five days XD this time round i'm living in poverty. ha ha ha i gave all my USD notes to my aunt just so i won't go to the money changer gleefully to magically tranform them into darling little SGD notes that would satisfy me to no ends kekeke.
sigh but with these lousy rates nothing much comes up anyway x'(

anyway ! i've applied to SIM ( yep just ONE school. ) so hopefully i get to be a student soon. ha ha ha i was telling koh wei the other day i wanted to save $$$$ to get me a decent bike here in SG so i could travel to school with it instead of takin public transports and risk bumpin into people HA HA my dream bike ducati that one er, can wait abit longer lah hor. i think i'll just settle with a low key honda. ha ha ha if my first bike were to be a ducati, my next few ( BMW, fcking nice. ) no hope alr. ha ha ha go slow, go slow XD

niways ! nothin much to write, just a quick UPD8 XD

and no pics of,,,,, wel, me. ha ha ha ha i've become a fucking balloon no mood take pics. and my card reader also left in myanmar so bleah. my english fckin lousy here dont even ask. yawn.

niwayzzz ending with some pics ( not of me. )

my new luvvs !!! ok i havent exactly tried them on yet but judging from what i've seen, it's love ~~ HA HA HA HA. ok thats crap. koh wei n i've been patronizing sephora these past few days and every time we go there, we find something absolutely amazing n to-die-for lol. i got the sugar lip treatment in honey too but dont have a pic of it cuz im like using it now XD the estee lauder( for my aunt. ) n la tweez ( for KK. ) one's bought from the plane XD

studious ( ahem. ) me's been reading loadzzzz too lol. ha ha cosmo ( UK edition, top. ) is bought from the thailand's airpot while i was in transit to SG hence the bigass Bh 395 ~~ PS, cosmo rokkz !!!! ugh i sound like a kid =o|

my new wallets !!!!
since my " salad. " wallet from hong kong was stolen, i've been keepin an eye out for a suitable replacement but none came in sight.. until i was in thailand's airpot ( again for transit to SG. ) shopping that i came across the benetton ( above left. ) one. the folli follie ( above right. ) coin pouch is bought in flight XD i love the airport n airplane.. or rather, shopping there XD XD everything's so new n cheap XD and who could forgot ?? airplane food ? IDK why but i abso adore airplae food. or rather, thailand's ariplane food. it just tastes abso good.

nothing of any significance but here's my ( temp. ) myanmar driving license !!!!!! gagaga.

ciaoz.

* yawn *

2011-07-27T03:03:00.002+08:00

ALOHA !!!!!

ok, im left w only 27% but battery but WTH i'll do a speed entry XD

so im sitting on this really uncomfortable chair in this humid kitchen ( int. connc. 's faster here XD )

im too tired to think ( and type. ) cuz i been uploading pics to the previous 2 entries, editing pics like no tommorrow so i'll juz leave u with pics to today where i met farah GCM ~!!!! and yes she's still lookin as sweet n angelic as ever ~~~~ XD

ta ta.

( yes im learning to act cute HA HA HA it's a survival skill in photograpgy XD )

be back tmr !!! ciao ciao ~!!

(~____~)zzz

2011-07-25T23:53:00.003+08:00

HULLOW !!!!

blog revamp under construction but still alive and breathing !!!

short note, turn up the volume on your speakers cuz this season's playlist carefully selected by yours truly features amazing ladies such as adele, in michaelson, jewel n many other voices that cry out to the angels up above !!!! ok. i dont know what that means. i cant think of a better metaphor XD

so so so so !

i just got back from orchard tired ~~~~ 've been hitting the town continuously since i was here ! but the crowds are always the same !!!!! as crowded as the weekends XO

the sales are almost ending ( from what i've seen.. ) which means......

joyzhanzy gta storp shawpeeing !!!!

ugh. ha ha ha, ANW. itz been ages since i last caught a movie ( not too keen on elabor8ing myanmar's theatres. ) !!!! watched harry pothead last night ( i know. im ancient. IDK how long it's been airing alr -..- ) and dang it wuz ahhhhhmazing !!!! emma looks jaw-droppingly gorgeous X'( i was gorging at her throughout the show cuz it was in 3D lol and boy i would love to see a pimple on her XD it'd make me feel a tweeny bit better XD

so so so so.

i've been lookin at MDIS ( yes again. ) and SIM lately, MDIS said she ( i think the sch is a she ????? ha ha ha. IDK. ) can accept me again but somehow im still more keen on SIM !! the people in SIM are much more matured and grown up IMO... which is something i like.. and MDIS is a lil too....... warm... for me. ha ha ha i was like walkin from blocks to blocks and fekkkkk it was blardy humid -..-

so ANW, i'll be applying to both, pray SIM accepts me t hehehehhehehe then i'd be closer to IMW.

HA HA HA HA HA HA !!!!!!!!

im not kidding !!! i dont know why i still have feelings for him i must be crazy. i dont even know him but here i am acting like a ......... fucking wife _|_

something about him just captures me. it really is true what they say...

" It's always the one you least expect to fall for,
that you fall for the hardest. "

but of cuz i havent been liking him... diligently. im on n off. when i spot a macho dude across me i'll be in luve w him for 3 days.. until the awe dies away and then i'll go back to IMW like.. uhm, 1 week later XD #juzsayin XD

something about him is just.... captivating.

he's weirdly good looking.

he's.... reservedly friendly.

he's..... coldly warm.

ha ha ha i really m crazy WTF. i shuld name this entry " IMW. " instead lol XD but let's just dedicate this one entry to him so my weird affection for him can die off.

so yeh. it's funny. i dont feel like talkin about him already. im just in luv with the fantasy i've built around him. i don't even know him, i dont even know how he sound like for goodness's sake XD so yeh. there goes. i'll try to die down the flame XD

ok. im gonna go continue turning this blog into a comfortable and simple space.

that's how i roll these days. my styles are gonners.

im all for comfort and simplicity naw XD

ciao ciao ~~~~

oh yeah, be a kind sweet soul and help out the needy by leaving a tag to show that some kind sweet soul is out there in this cold wide world's reading this site of mine !! ha ha ha ha, dont have to type anything special, really. just leave " ...... " or spacings will do.

HA HA HA, YES IM THAT PATHETIC WTF XD

ok B4 i begin uploading picas, look at the diff. between long.... and short hair !!!!! totally luvs it !!! the long hair looks wet cuz i juz showered XD

BB.

444.

2011-07-22T14:31:00.002+08:00

YOZ !!!!

OMG it took soooo much metal damage to get back into this old blog of mine ! *__*

i've been missing from this page for almost a year ( i guess !?? ) even my blog link in my laptop is completely gone from the " history. " i had to wreck my brains trying to remember which email i used to register for this blog acc and of cuz, who needs to remind me of the password !??? LOL X}

ANW !

i wuz deciding against opening a new blog but rise-andshine is my life's collection.. but it is too messy, the template is all off, my tagboard is bombarded with malicious robots\virus ( i guess !?? ) and the whole appearance of my blog juz lacks the vibe of..... liveliness.

but then again, EVERYTHING about me is compiled here in this tiny space entry by entry, words by words, thoughts by thoughts, tears by tears, joy by joy, e v e r y t h i n g that has accompanied me throughout my teenage days so i'm like, sod it ! i should still go back to RnS. but of coz, i need a revamp. PRONTO.

i won't be blogging as frequently as i used to simply becoz myanamr, my old sweet country, BANNED BLOGGER !!!!!!!!! ugh. so yeah, i suppose u can look forward to a few entries ( meaning less than 3. ) before i head back home !

oh yeah im in SG now if u haven't noticed ! ha ha ha, my arrival here is really low-key cuz im too ugly now lah !!!! scared people know then want a picutre and autograph * cough cough *

ha ha, ANW, i'm everything internet free fo now. no more FB, no more nothing and ugh. im tired......

i've been here for almost 5 days now and throughout these 5 days, it's been non-stop shopping but the really great thing is i get so tired from the walking the choosing that once i hit the sack i pretty much just, well, die. XD

so, what's new !??

the current me is spotting a really out of shape and style and character hair, is dangerously obese ( holy mother i gained 8KG DONT LAUGH !!!!!! ) and is really lifeless. the glow is her eyes has completely dimmed ( according to my aunt. ha ha ha she said i look like a kampong girl now cuz i've been staying in myanamr for almost half a year alr. " your overall just looks really moutain-girl ! you eyes have no more " light and life. " to it ! u don't have the air u used to possess ! u have really turned into a moutain tortoise. "

GAHHHHHHHHHHHH SOBBBBBBBBBBBBB CRYYYYYYYYYYYYY

XD

but hey ! im still me oki ! im still the same ol joys anyone has ever known and that is ?????????

D O W N R I G H T L A Y Z M A D A F A KA Z !!!!!!!!

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.

ok. i'm done with this entry. here the few pictures i've got recently.

byes !!!!

~J.

oh yeh ! HOORAY TO MY 444th ENTRY !!!!!!!!

(o^____________________^o)

be back for more ~!

2010-10-18T15:30:00.001+08:00

aloohoo ~!!!

hi. im feelin so bloody nauseous IDK from the breakfast or from the fact that i just feel so nauseous.

i'm leavin tai wan in approx 2 days !!!
there goes my touristy life....nowhere IS ever permanent but ive been thinkin and guess wat !??? this life suits me fine... :O

i adapt to changes easily and quickly too ! but once the hint of permanency starts surfacing, i start feelin dizzy with nausea and the feeling of familiarity and what not and i just long to get out of that pit of resemblance and yearn for a new start.

IDK................ like now, i long to get out and go back to BKK. and sooner or later, trust me, i will yearn for a break off BKK.

life,,,,,,,,,,as we kno it ;)

sosososo. as expected, the plans i thot were once fixed........are EVER CHANGIN !!

i might not be goin back to SG afterall... since mom's conditions are GR8 now, things are startin to pick up.
im super excited about a piece of her news actually !!!!!!! HEHEHEHHE. hopefully it works.. then i will live happily ever after.....HA HA HA HA ! i will start to talk like a real adult and woohoo !!! it's part of my dreams too actually !!! but hush hush now ;) things arent confirmed so let's keep our elegant fingers crossed shall we ? ;) ;) ( ha ha ha, elegant my burmese arse :P )

so ye, where wuz i ???? ahhhh,,, the not being able to go back to SG.

well, mom's schedule are really tight ass now and she was thinkin maybe we shuld only visit SG next year.

cuz SG IS a wasted trip, wasted time and wasted time. the reason for goin there is only to see mrs chan and to stay in marina bay sands only. nothin work-based. and now that mom's business are pickin up, she's got to be in vietnam to discuss some stuff and time IS REALLY JAMMED. n we still have to get our burmese asses to china's world expo -..-

so SG's kiss GB.
im kinda xcited for china !!! cuz most of the family'll b goin !!!!! a family " reunion. " long at last....... PS, family = mom jaw jase grans uncle and.......ME. ha ha ha, such little people :P

so ye my point..... ? i forgot. just i wont be in SG.

THINGS 2 DO WHEN IN BKK :

1) get a thai home tutor. ( HIGH PRIORITY ! i have to master languages ! thai's always been important but i never really saw its importance to my life...until now. i also have to start pickin up vietnamese. hi ! )

2) start throwin away things that are not impt ( LOW PRIORITY. BUT. to a new joys ~!! )

3) get a new hair style. ( HP ! to a new joys ~!! )

4) start noting down mom's schedule and follow her. " 偷師學法. " LOL. ( SHP ! super high prio. )

5) erm... i shall giv it a rest. too many stuff always gets me down so cheers !!!!!!

to the new us,

to the new beginnings,

to the new we ;)

FML. FO REAL.

2010-10-12T23:27:00.006+08:00

AAARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y IS LIFE SO SO SO SO UNFAIR ?????????????????????

LOOK WAT I MISSED OUT W MOM IN HK.

yes mom, r u cryin or laughin ?? cos im CRYING !!!!!!!!! >(

wat lousy photgraphy skills. sigh. if I were there, every objects will be a MASTERPIECE !!!!

ANW, i sure hope the alexandre zouari is for ME. i luv AZ :'(

even DJM got a handbag :'o(

the world expo. seeing these pics actually makes me feel like goin thr :P

the great britain's <3

she's been having walks along the 湖 in e mornin n eve lol :P

2 ladies ready 2 take down the great wall in their sports gears lol ! :P
PS, if I were thr, this stupid pic will not hav that stupid blob of a finger -..-

taken 2day in the aiport.

i never knew i would say this but YES !!!!! THE WORLD IS A CRUEL PLACE !!!!!!!!
people r out there havin fun w their lives n here i m............EDITING PICTURES =..-
someone shoot me alr ???????????????????????

UGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes mom. this is an entry dedicated to u. at least now i can start using ur old bags freely........ er.........right ????????
ha ha ha ! ok... she's gna ask me take this entry down if she reads my blog lol :P

" 國懷，我們不可以跟別人比. 千萬不要. "

" joys, we cannot compete with others. dont ever compete. "

which is true, ha ha, see. here i am using stupid road side bags n guess wat !?????

I M CONTENTED !!!!!!!!!!!

( lie. u know how much i want a chanel :'o((((((((((((( )

HA HA HA. ok. i have 2 go now. DJM is back in TW. which means.....i have to start goin 2 sch :'o(

ANW !!!! im glad mom is on the road to recovery. this is a dream come true... i guess miracles do happen eh ???

to all those who r facing family troubles, trust me, it'll get better in no time ;) HANG IN THERE HERO !!

evrything seems to be going ok ATM.. jaw's started studying in SG, jason's doing well at the chan's, mom's getting so much better, gran's also better knowing mom's better.... sigh...... this is naturel high :P

PS, if u r wonderin, i got these pics off DJM's camera.

i shall end w a pic of me.. i havent been takin any proper pictures lately cuz i havent been out at all cuz i dont have any $$. this pic was taken so long ago, like 2 weeks ?? when i got my hair done and went crazy at ximendin. i took pics of the clothes i bought but havent the mood to upload em cuz i think the clothes r ugly :'o( sigh........... but here r some of the ones that r acceptable.

GOOD NIGH !
cya next entry ~

B & W @ 4am.

2010-10-10T04:50:00.001+08:00

except this. thought i would add this ( taken in SG. ) 2 make it complete..

PS ! how's my header picture !?????

to all the girlies, get ur breats checked !!!!!!! and help in any way u can !

GN !

quickie.

2010-10-09T20:25:00.001+08:00

ever since i last signed up 4 twitter, i ave been 2 layZ 2 UPD8 my lousy blog..

duncha find twitter so convenient !?????? i can giv an UPD8 on my life via mobile fone ( which is basically w me everywhere i go. i have free internet service via my phone line :P ) and i dont have to type and type uselessly about pointless words. since twitter has a words limit, i cant hit the max so i always hav to think of whats more impt to broadcast n to cut my spellings in2 short meaningless spellings :P

so i was thinkin, since i dont have anything interesting to UPD8 on these few days, i'll just UPD8 on the topic regardin my twitter UPD8 wen i get home. sounds gr8 aint ??????

HA HA HA.

ive turned in2 a boring and lifeless granny sigh............

ANW. GTG. badminton. BB.

GG ~.

2010-10-05T17:14:00.004+08:00

i had so many words and thoughts i wanted to jot down on the bus ride home..

but now that i AM home, the words and thoughts have all dissolved and melted into my desire to be free, to not do anything, not think of anything, but to dedicate my life, my soul, my attention, and my desire...

to watch gossip girl.

SO BYE !!!!! HA ! HA ! HA !!!!!!

be back for more ;o)

meanwhile, if u have forgotten me, this is how i look :

HA HA HA HA HA !!!!!!!!

ok. juz teasin :P

i love blake ( serena. ) but i havent found a pic of her that i absolutely adore so keep searchin !!!!

all the girls are so gorgeous. love em all !!!!!!!! blake and jessica ( forgot her name. oh !!! vanessa ! ) are my top faves tho :'o) oh how culd i 4get lily ??? she's simply stunning :'o(

BYE !!!!!!! dont waste my time... HA HA.

2010-09-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

WAZZUP WAZZUP WAZZUB !!!????

ok. time aint on ma side. i just got back from xi men ( again. ) and i have to go edit my pictures within uhm, 30 minits ????

so. BYE. UPD8 later. i went to xi men din ( 西門町. ) last night after french class and spent like nobody's biznez. i kinda regret it cuz when i was walkin around just now i spotted so many more stores that sell so much more prettier clothes :'o( i have to save up again :'o( uncle gave me 1K about 4 days ago and i finished it flat last night so im keepin my mouth shut about my situation or else he's gna be flabbergasted again.. he alr gave me anther 10K when grace was here in TP, which was abt 1 week ago.... sigh. life without $$$ just SUCKS.

end of story.

2010-09-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

hello !

it's been almighty ages since i last touched blogger :O !

so here i am w a quick UPD8 !

i did my hair, but sadly this time it sux so bad wakin up early in the mornin n knowin i have a bad hair day ( and will, for the rest of my life. ) SUCKS.

it's such a dread ! i cant tie\bun it up either cuz it just looks odd !
like a hive for the bees, the flies the maggots the worms and the eew !

sigh........

hopefully the perms will come loose soon. i've been washin my hair daily in hope of achieving something less poodly.. sigh...

ANW ! today's driving lesson was suckass !!!!!!!!!1111!!!!

i can manage R (reverse. ) and D ( IDK what it stands for but i call it Distance. LOL !!!! noob. if not it should be drive ????? i have absolutely no idea cuz they teach in chinese =..= )

so today, i was managing fine ( reversing and driving forward in L shape. ) until the instructor left the car and told me to practice on my own for a while ( cuz if i dont manage that, i wouldnt get to drive out into the park. ) so i was doin ok until all of a sudden, a bad turn resulted in everything ging haywire. and i went off tracks. for 30 minitues. it was fuckin embarrassing !!!!!!! there were approx 5 cars in my area,, which goes to say, once i clogged uo the space, pretty much all the others get dragged in as well :'o( dang. im motified, really. so i was losing hope when finally, someone's instructor came to me and helped me get back into the track. i suck at directions. when instructor said left, i went right. i keep gettin confused with 左 ( L. ) 右 ( R. ) and there was once i told the taxi driver " 轉左. " and he said " 是轉右！轉左我們就裝牆啦！ "

t he he he ! emergency brake for the instructor ( ME !!!!! MWA HA HA HA HA~ )

the rearview mirror ( if it's what it's called ?_? ) always gets me confused no doubt..

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

ANW. im tired. im drained. im super exhausted. so im uploadin a few pics ( quite long ago actually. the night i did my hair. hmm, monday ?? )

this is how stiff my hair is =..=

( ignore e last button. bloody hell obnoxious =.= )

right eye is bigger than left cuz my falsies to the left dropped @.@

a fifth of my hair is straightened as u can c -..- on the line with momsie<3

yesterday in class ;

MON BREAKFAST !!! this is bloody yummy ~!

today :

the hair looks bloody hell messy right !???? but guess what it was at its bad !!! so now u know pretty well how much of a freak show my hair is now >(

w an addition of an egg :P

this is currently my fave BF.. consists of soy milk, egg and toasted\roasted pita bread + lettuce + raisins + tomatoes + IDK what the rest of them ingredients r called =.=

GOOD NIGHT !!!!! droping dead tired :'o(

( almost. ) new hair !

2010-09-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

HARLOW !!!!!! omigood im fighting the extreme urge to shit for this entry :oS

..... so.

wat did i want to say ??????

oyes !!!!! im dying my hair now ! i'm goin...... ahem........

JEWELRY ASH ~!!!!!!!!!

it's my first time using this brand so IDK how the color's gna turn out... but since it's a japanese brand i figure the color's gna be jappoish.. bright n wat not so why not risk the chance of tryin !??

after-all my hair is goin on a roller coaster ride now :oP

if u like my hair, lemme introduce u to my stylist. she's an internationally known hair artist from myanmar no less ! during her free time she likes cutting her own hair.. a snip here a snip there..

she's none other than...............

ME MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!

WA HA HA HA HA HA !!!!!

ok ok. no more jokes.

IM GONNA B TAKIN DRIVING LESSONS NOW WOOHOOOOOO ~!!!!!!!!!!

ok. u might have known i v much detested the idea of driving in the past :oP i v much preferred being driven by a tall muscular man.. where all i have to do is lean back and enjoy the ride but for now, my lean-back-and-enjoy theory has all gone down the drain. bleh.... :X

mostly cuz my uncle said tt at least if i knew how to drive, momsie wouldnt have to wait for the driver in myanmar to comeback from wherever he was to drive her out. long story short, IM NOW THE DRIVER !!!! not the girl relaxing and cam-whoring at the back !!!! :O

so yeh. come to think of it if i know how to drive, it'd save A LOT of troubles !!!!

i dont ever have to walk to 7-11 !!!! or i dont ever have to be squeezed in the tubes !!!! i dont ever have to spend time waiting relentlessly for a bloody bus !!!! ha ha ha ha !!! ok ima talkin as if im buying a car ahhh but u get e drift ;o)

and and and ! i now know how to ride the motorbike !!!! well, a teensy bit :oP

im a newbie but guess wat yo ! i learnt it by MYSELF mua ha ha ha !!!!!

im such an einstein :o)

oki doki. so so so. hmmmmm,,,, lets c.

i just got back from a v cool trip. we went to this area where all artsy people lived. i met a musician from mexico and we had coffee :o) u know wat i feel so much like a translator !!!!!!!!! i should probly consider takin up this job. i now know one tiny spanish. it's " hola ! "

pronounced without the h. so ... ola ~!

he said mexicans speak spanish and also portuguese. portuguese is a little like spanish so im considering takin that up as well.. afterall learning languages is so much fun !!!! it's better thank sittin there killing my brain cells over digits and signs !!!!!!! ugh.

today i was L8 for class. i arrived an hr late and only studied for a mere 45 minutes B4 class ended zzz -..-

the surprising this is, i didnt even hear all THR33 of my alarms ring -..-

i was havin a dream about myanmar -..-

oki. i gotsa go. pics up later. ciao ~!

Self entry #3.

2010-09-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

why has a hopeless romantic stopped believing in love ?

all these 19 years i've waited.

... yet the prince i have always coaxed myself asleep with never appears. even when i thought he did, he proved otherwise. year by year the lust of falling in love so poignant dispersed with time. even though there may be times i believed my prince was just a little shy, i blame him for being so.. though truth is, the problem lies with me--every problems romance could ever surface.--

i am a coward.

i'm afraid of falling hard. i'm afraid of the impossibilities. i'm afraid of reading too much into a mild situation--which i always do.-- and i am afraid i may not be the one he was looking for after all..

truth remains, i am a die-hard traditional. i want my prince to be the prince i grow old with, to be the prince who share EVERY single moments with me--be it tough or silly.-- , to be the prince who i wake up to, to be the prince i kiss good night to, to be the prince who my heart flutter wildly for, to be the prince who loves me more than i do him. fortunately or unfortunately, when you are as die-hard traditional as i am, you basically remain hopeful of the " right. " prince for the rest of your life.... and when none appears, you settle for a substitute.

what others' call my " expectations. " is just promises of security. this i've learnt through experiences. my " expectations. " are so high and unattainable it always act as a barrier to possible loves. if my great big ego were to have shrunk just an inch, i sometimes imagine myself living the romantic life with a temporary prince. where the world sees love so lightly. scratch that. the word is not love after all. the word is sex and relationships. the whole screw it and over with it just doesn't work on me. i am a hopeless romantic. every thing i want starts with hugs and ends with kisses and fireworks and palace and all the love in the world and passions and affections and what not.. these i say, are totally not out there. i rarely see these happening anyway !

anyway.

im sleepy.

2010-09-16T18:36:00.001+08:00

im in a rush so i'll just leave u with e pics.. grace's arrivin at 6.45pm n i havent even started changing OR making up so BB !

was doin a paint last night ( at 1am. ) ..

i dont have $$$ le !!! so this was my breakfast :P i alr ate the rice roll so :P

my current addict. even tho im losin like crazy it's still a part of my schedule to deposit my $$$ in2 te vault 2 prevent other players from winnin em -..-

i was takin this pic when a van drove right beside me n we looked at each other and i was smiling like a fool ( cuz i was takin this pic. ) and had no time to react so awkward !!! thank god the pic turned out acceptable @.@

the embarraded me continued cam whoring but in a different direction from the van driver :P

do i count as a vampy cuz i " glitter. " under e sun as well ????? X__X

got tired after awhile.. ive gained alot of weight TYVM. hint : take a look at my double neck @.@

guess wot yes !!!! i got poked by the darn needle again !!!!

they thot it'd be fun to imprint me w a " watch. " darnit it was so painful !! esp the part where the tape was strongly glued to my skin..

nurse told me to look away from the needle in case i faint =.= like m i tt much of a weakling ?? sigh.....

ANW, i cant RMB if i've posted ystd's pics so here's one of me arriving early n eating my favorite favorite rice roll \ TW's sushi <3 i had a lot of time applying make up properly too ^^

oyes. if u're curious, i was gettin my blood tested. i dont even know the type of my blood can u believe it !???

so ANW, im apparently an O =..=

so pls remember, im O blooded. donate me some of ur Os when i'm in major crisis !!! like MENSE !????? HA HA HA !!!

ok wat a weak attempt at jokin... au revoir !!!!!! ( pronounced " or-voir. " not or-re-vior. " ha ha ye i used to pronounced it tt way laugh at me.. )

2010-09-14T23:28:00.001+08:00

zokiez !!!!

good evenin y'all ! i've just finished editing the pics for today so yep, here goes !

oyea. praise me. i was the earliest in class today, arriving at 8am, i dont kno how i managed tt and guess wot !? today was my teacher's turn to be L8 ! ha ha ha she got there at 8.30 !!! LOL ! looks like luck is on my side but let's not busk in this glory cuz karma bites n B4 u know it, it's gna be my turn to be L8 again n tt aint somethin i like yo ! so oki. that's probly all !!!!!!!

nothin much to UPD8 on,,, still have to take a bath after this entry im on a time rush..

woke up so early this mornin ( 5.50am. ) i had ample time applying make up properly and also cam-whore a little :P

how the world looks like wehn u lazy pigs r still snuggling in beds :oP

( wuz gettin a little sleepy by then... PS lousy fail hair.. thineed it too much im regretin now =C )

better pics of the flags in the sch ! search for yo country !

i look like im on a liquid diet but trust me im not !!!!! im on the journey of tryin different drinks every day.. PS the passion fruit's a disgrace. it's so sweet :S

was eating my roll -..-

B4. after gettin home. it was so humid outside walkin was an absolute torture :O

bought this dress\long dress while i was in KS.. i like it !!! havent had the chance 2 wear it yet tho :\

( guess what pudding H8s me now -..- every time she sees me whip out my camera, she snorts ( yes she can :O ) and runs away B4 i have the chance to even grab her -..0 i've turned violent now in order to take a pic w here... )

hair's growin out pretty fast,,,

the mags i got a few days ago but im so BZ i havent got the time read them :O !!!! plus they're in chinese so i'm tryin to avoid em AFAP.. ( as far as pos. ) ^^

zahzahzah im gna have to struggle to pass thru this :'o(

NIGHTY BITES !

oyea !!! i've created a twitter account ! ha ha, noob tryin to be cool here.. i just dont like spammin my FB shout-outs w my random thots so i thot of creatin a twit acc lol,,, i dont know how tt works yet tho ! my username is joyzhanzy i think, i cant rmb it if's s or z....

2010-09-14T00:09:00.003+08:00

2day, fortunately i finally managed to get my lazy bum off the bed but unfortunately i also forgot to bring my camera out hence..... no pics !!!! so ima gna b uploadin the last pics i took ( on sat.. )

en route to breakfast no i wasnt flyon i was on e bike..

came back home n got ready for my first french class !!!!!

hair curl fail -..- i need time tik tok tik tok..

god french isnt as EZ as i thot !!!!!!

2010-09-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

as expected, i was shamelessly L8 for class today. awkward awkward it's my second time L8 this week and it sicks me really :'o( ANW, i was in such a rush i forgot to appy my eyeliner until i was alr out chasin after e bus =.@ so here goes ~

en route... yep lazy eyes.......... n ugly hair...

mon breakfast !!! look at how well designed the takeaways from 7-11 here r !!!! :O

ends of hair looks better.. at least the color isnt just one tone -..-

halfway cam-whoring, my attention got grasped by a passing living thing n dang !!!!! my heart hasnt beat so fast in YEARS !!!!!!! i kno snappin pics of passer bys is a crime but it is a beautiful crime non ?? :P

immediately i spot a smile =.@

back home ~

WC-in w KW darlin ~!!

uh-oh..

2010-09-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

GR8 GR8 GR8 GR8 !!!!!

I GOT CHEATED BY MY HAIR DYE !!! :@ :@ :@ :@

w stripes of ash blonde that turned orangy after almost a yr ( cant rmb clearly.. )

the box clearly printed JEWELRY ASH but guess wat color they gave me ?????

a boring copper -..-

when my aunt saw the color in mandarin, it clearly stated copper.

translation fail, really.

now the ash blonde stripes in my hair r all gone. my pile of hair is like crap... boring and crappy and ugly and boring... sigh !!!!!!!! shuld i W8 for mommie 2 bring me 2 HK to change the color or shuld i do it myself ?????? im in a holpess dilemma :o(

ANW, my hairstyle isnt even fully completed =.=

sigh..... it's so l8 im def gna b L8 4 sch tmr again..

sigh.... turst myself to be so excited of the outcome :'o(((((((((((((((

2010-09-11T11:01:00.000+08:00

So what now ?

Acceptance is key, I say.

For a person who cannot, an absolutely no-no, tolerate people who are too " sticky. " AND whiney, now that's a pretty lot for me to accept all in AND to ALSO suppress the raging volcano DYING to erupt deep within my pit of anger and frustrations. Twice i erupted though.. Ah well. You can't just change a habit of 18 years now can ye ?

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ANYWAYZ on a lighter note !!!!!!

I AM SO DARN ANGRY !!!!!!!!!!!
argh. how i long for solo moments where i don't have to give a toss about what others want and want and want. nope this ain't a picture entry so stop skimming through my words of wisdom arigatoe ! oki. like i said, i should just keep cool and take in all the whininess+stickiness ewwwwwwwww ok ok gotsa stop ! the more i think of it the more i get agitated. like i said, i work better solo.

so !!!!!

Class lesson 4.

2010-09-09T20:16:00.002+08:00

oki doki !
ive decided i'd take a pic of me EVERY DAY of my classes. weather im in the bus or class or whatnot to c how i've grown :oP
even if it's my ugly day i'll just upload it to be honest :o)

哈哈！！

since i was rushin like a mad cow today, i absent-mindedly forgot to bring my camera ( and textbook and pencil case. ) out so im posting pictures of yesterday's.
dont laugh at ALL of my morning faces in this and future entries as well oki !!!! we must embrace ourselves w love ~~~~~~~
哈哈哈哈！！！！

the morning view of this bridge :o) i'll get a better pic tmr !!!

MY PRETTY JAPANESE CLASSM8 !!!!!
omigood she's so pretty n flawless she doesnt need ANY editings !!!!!!!!!! and i sit opposite her :oP
i always sneak a peek at her lol :oP she's called Niroku, 23 this yr and sorry but this cutie's gettin married next year
w her love of 7 years.. awww ~~~~ shucks broke u guys heart dint i ??? :oP

me me. i've cut my fringe a little shorter now.
i bought the sheers so now im thinning my hair by miself ~ looks ok to me but everyone's askin me if i needed a trip 2 e salon =.=
IT LOOKS OK DOESNT IT ????????? bruises my heart rlly...
seems like my hair cutting talents are only recognized by myself :oP
leave me a msg on what u think of my fringe and hair !!! does it need work ??? :'o(

in the bus en route to the tube station. my fringe rocks here. so many " holes. " but no choice. ive been going fringeless for so long now i cant adjust back as quick as i presumed :o|

( i was havin the odd-eye day. the left is smaller than the right -..- )

me on the bike !!! check out the horns on my helmet !! cute much ????? :oD

IDK wat this pose is really ^^ but i like cuz for once my eyes look ( kinda. ) big :oP ( thanks to forcing it to open wide =.- )

2010-09-07T20:06:00.000+08:00

HARLOWWWWW !!!!!!!!!

IM BACK IN TAI PEI !!!!

ok. truth is, i was back 1 and a half day ago but i was sooo busy i didnt have the time AND chance to go online.. school's started and guess what it feels like high school all over ( even tho im attending mandarin classes in a uni.. ) !! :O

i have to get up at 5.30 in the mornin !!!!!! and leave house by 6.30 or ima gna get rotten late -..-

i'll be goin to school alone tmr, my first trip out alone here in tai wan :oP

school starts at 8am and these days ive started applying make ups again so i need more time for my beauty makeover lol :oP

i'm a mini professional now !!! ha ha ha unlike the past where i only needed a mere 15 minutes to get my make up done :oP now i need close to 40 minutes :oP

i've started adding new ingredients to my new make up kits namely : mattifying cream, eye shadows ( yes in SG no much ppl put on those thingamajgs but here in TW is the opposite !!!! :O ) panda eye concealer and brightener and brow wax.

i've decided to go back to bobbi brown..

newly discovered brand chic choc !!!!! affordable and good ! i recommend the eye shadows and the eye make up remover !!!!!!! the eye make up remover is SOOOOOO gd it's unbelievable !!!!!! :O

my neutral colors. im startin off w colors more dull cuz im a newbie :oP n no, the pink is the blush :o) the yellow looks really yellow in here but on skin it's au naturel, like the color of ur skin tone except glittery :oP this is my self-customized kit. u can buy the cover ( only around 200 TW$, approx 10ish SGD ??? pardon my math. ) and then add in any palettes u like :o) each palettes cost only 550 TWD, approx 20SGD ??? pardon my math. the eye make up remover's arnd 300TWD if my memory doesnt fail me :oP approx er.... im lazy to use my mathy brains ! -..-

new brushes !!!!!!!! pouch was given by CC.. pink so isnt me.. is KK. HA HA HA !

new kits !!!! wahtever BB cream i dont use anymore..

check out my new cute mushroom !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 !!!!

without make up : ( warning !!!!!!!!!!! ) keeps ur eyes far far far far away from e monitor !!!!!!!!

w make up :

i enjoy making up now lol cuz alllll my flaws are covered stroke after stroke :oP

my skin condition is extremely hopeless now but with the aids of cosmetic appliances, i transfrom from a rotten apple to a waxy red one instantly LOL -..-

ok so so so ! waitaminit !

im gettin called downstairs for dinner -..-

i'll probly UPD8 tmr cuz i have to sleep early tonight else ima gna be a L8 egg !

im soooo tired i havent caught enuf sleeps lately..... sigh.......... yawn...........

Royal Canines ~

2010-08-31T00:05:00.001+08:00

ok good evenin' !!!!

i just got off the bath and it's rainin oh so heavily !!!!! and it's so cold brrr !!!!
IDK from the rain or from the air conditioning in ma room but really, im super duper excited for the typhoon stages ha ha !

look, it's joycy tryna be the weather forecast here yo ! ^^

ok so ! for today, since i have nothin better to do besides wait for drowsiness to kick in, i've decided to do an entry on my dream dog, the royal canines, the men's best friends.

i have been big on dogs since young but i ever really had the opportunity to fully have one that could accompany me
all the time ( eg : studying full time in singapore, eg : only a month or so of break in thailand slash myanmar. )
so every time i ask momsie if i could get a dog when i was back in thailand, i was denied the chance mainly cuz no one would look after it cuz no one'll be in thailand's home permanently to look after my always-wanted-doggie. so when i found out jaw got charlie in myanmar, i was smitten and totally in luv w him merely by hearing his name, and seeing his pics up in jaw's blog.

so anyway, long story short, i will be getting a dog, someday........

and i plan to get it once i stay alone which i estimate should be in a yr or so. bleah. long...... i'll be checkin into a dorm when i start school here in tai wan and im hoping, really badly, they allow pets :'o(

if i cant wait a year, the other choce :

we're moving in to a bigger house ( but IDK when. ) so uncle said he'll buy one for me ( my type of dog is BIG. huge ass BIG. so we currently dont have the space to provide him. ) but the thing is, selfish or not, but i dont really fancy the idea of people sharing my dog :'o( im the possesive owner here. i want him to belong to ME, solely ME.
where everywhere i go, he follows, not the other way round. but of cuz my family is counted in HA HA !

strangers ? no.

family ? BIG FAAT YES !

ok so so. point is, christine already has a puppy ( name's pudding and it's a she and she's really tiny. but i luv her nonetheless. ) and she's requesting i get a female dog so it wouldt hump slash do her precious pudding and blah blah blah... and she's also requesting i get a smaller dog -..- so which leaves me no choice, but to reject my uncle's offer, v sadly.

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my dream dog is beautifully big and sexily demure.

he's a husky.

" Siberian Huskies are highly intelligent, because of their intelligence, they can easily become bored and may stop listening to commands. Also due in part to their intelligence, Huskies tend to be very observant on the actions of people around them and have been known to mimic common household activities such as turning on lights with their paws and opening doors with their canines. Huskies are good family pets, but must have a patient and devoted owner. " -wiki.

( patient and devoted owner ??? eg : me. )

ye, sexy beast, really. awwwwwww im so in luv everytime i think of him :'o)))))))))))))))))))))))))

ok i didnt really know anything of ( siberian. ) huskies back then..
i only saw him when i was in the dog's park ( yes they have it here.. where dogs of all types roam and play around in a big ass field, where lovers of dogs or dogs of lovers meet and have fun all together. ) initially all i saw were browns and blacks and whites and they were ALL PUNY. there were terriers, havanese, sheep dogs, maltese ( quite cute !!! ), poodle ( i was in luv w them when i was in the primary school age lol :oP ), puli, bull dogs, shih tzu, hounds ( quite cute !!! they trimmed its furs so beautifully they ended up looking like rich doggies with ribbons on their furs :oP ) and these long dogs IDK what u call em, hot dogs ????? or sausages ???? hmm... ?__? but there was only on pomeranian ( charlie's breed <3 )

ANW, all i could think of was " cute. " when i saw those tiny canines, but..... a gust of wind carried my attention to a royal canine standing not more than 3 feet from me.

i instantly feel in love.........

.................w the great ol husky..

oh my ~

it was really luv at first sight, he is so so so so beautiful !!!!!!!!

instead of looking like a canine, he looks more like a wolf.

god he is BEAUTIFUL !!!!!!!!!!!!

after that all the doggies i saw werent really thr.. it kinda feels like love, really.

where once u set ur heart out on a certain guy, the rest of the guys mean nothin.

u're looking, but u aint really SEEING u ged wad i mean ???????

yehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~~~~~~~

thats exactly how it is for me now...

ANWUZZZZZZ !!!!!!!!!

that's it ! that's how i decided i WOULD get a husky !!!!

my mind was drowning itself w names i would get for my baby,,

i wanted it to be fierce. but still not sooo threatening.. and def not GIRLY bleh =X

i was thinkin of starry... i kno it sounds kinda girlish but that was exactly what i felt when i first saw him.
i was lost........ in the stars ( in this case starts = his eyes duh :oP )

i'm plannin a trip to the book shop for dog's names. ANW, if i have to get a bitch, i'll name her starry.
if it's a he, i'd prolly go simple and simply name his Husk. ( prounced : haar-ss-ker. exaggerate the SK :o) so it'd sound 2-syllable ^^.... kinda like the sssssss in Snake and Ker in cake :o) )

if it aint husk, i'd prolly give him a french slash spanish name !!!!!!!!

ha ha ha, cuz i'm having french and spanish classes now woooohoooooo ~!!!!!

french class starts on the 4th next month, spanish starts later in the month ^^

french is for self interest, for the beauty in the language and for the romance of the city ( i can be a poet no ?? HA ! HA ! )

whereas for spanish, the tutor said i should consider it or german cuz the markets there are opening up so i ended up deciding on spanish ^^

it's gonna feel funny cus the rest of the students ( all around 18-25 i'm supposing.. ) are taking the languages for business or havin tuitions for schools' 2nd language where i, am there for interests and travels bleh =X

aside from that, my " school. " is starting in about 3-4 days !!!!!!! there's gonna be a change in my studying plan here in tai wan so i'll UPD8 u when all's confirmed and good. so i'm currently learning mandarin in the university :o)

EXCITED !!!!!!!!!!!!!

endin off w some recent pics of myself ( of cuzz !! bleh :oP )

w a g.retriever called kevin. i'd like one if not for the fact that their furs drop like dandruffs -..- taken in the park. i wouldave uploaded more pics of the cutesy doggies if i'd brought along my camera :'o( i just finished my dance class so the funny outfit. as for the noob shoes, my vans was too heavy so i settled w my badminton shoe LOL :oP it's soooo light i feel like im flying when i walk !!!!!!!! i swear !!!

checkout our helmets !!!!
mines the cow w the carrot horns and tail :oP C's the SBSP thingy ( i have no idea what his name is. patrick ?? pinky ??? smiley ?? ?___? ) and JR's the strawberry w a fake leaf :oP
-

GN !!!!!!
UPD8 soon !!!!!

2010-08-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

HI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omigosh,, ive been absent for so long ive lost count !! >.<''

pardon me. all the while i was away, i was tending to my chinese blog HA HA HA NI HAO NI HAO. ok. so rise and shine, me is back with brand new tracks ^^ ha ha ha, ok. so so so. where shall i start ????

hmmmm, let's see. i just got back from the beach which's left me feeling really worn out ( snorkeling and bumping into underwater rocks surprisingly havent left me fully dead :O ) that's somethin special about tai wan i guess. the beach is just a few kilometres away ( ? honestly, im a suck ass at distance or anyhitng to do w digits. even time -..- brrr. ) but the ride feels really short, u dont have to take the plane nor do u have to endure muscles aching long hours of car rides, u just sit and admire the view and B4 u even kno it, viola ~!!!!! the waves say hello !

so, ima gna start off w tai wan 4 today.

what i've always thot of as a myth is proven a fact during my 3 weeks here. ( 3 weeks ?? i thot it was my 1st when i was alr here on my 2nd. i proudly told my uncle i was in TW for a week alr when he asked me how long it was since i was here, only of cuz, to be told flatly tt it was actually my 2nd week. so this probly is the third now.. )

so so so. what myth fact myth ??????

THE FOODS OF CUZZZZZZZ !!!!!!!!!!!

when i told whoev asked me where i would be going next, they'd excitedly exclaim " OMG THE FOOD THERE DAMN NICE !!!!!!! " and i'd be " really ? " w an unconvinced face cuz really, my kinda food is more beefs and pastas and breads and a little of spicy ban mien but wow wow wow. am i dead wrong !!!!!!!!!!!!

honestly, throughout my stay here i have not for ONCE been upset with my food orders !!!!!!!!!!

walk in to any cafes, be it restaurant slash rad side ?????

贊！

but of cuz of cuz, little miss joys here is being smart about her useless indulgence ^^

instead of putting on the pounds, i've dropped ^^^^^^^

HA HA HA HA.

gotta thank the shocking amounts of walkings i do here.... and of cuz, my hip hop dance classes yes laugh. hip hop dance my burmese arse. im dancing like a horse. -..-

aniwuzzzzzzzzz, where was i ???? ahhhhh yes. foods. yummy yummy yummy foods.

in conclusion, the foods here, be it asian slash western, taste superb. really, im impressed :O

so next.

the service here is also 超贊！

oki. im layZ enuf to type out so ima do summary.

im making a decision here now that involves the state of my subsequent years living on earth.........

i need suggestions suggestions suggestions but where do i get em really ????

if i go a wrong path, that'd be dooms day for me for the rest of the year...

howev, if i do it right, i'd b so happy i'd fly.

this matter involves the state of my.................. HAIR.

SHOULD I CUT IT !????????????

OR SHULD I LET IT GROW LIKE REPUNZEL ???????

SIGH.........................................................................

im thinkin of goin short..... if it's short,

it's :

if it's long, it's :

2010-08-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JOYCY REPORTING LIVE FROM TAI PEI, TAI WAN, DA JIA HAO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HA HA HA. ok. it's been eons since i last touch me blog but right after this second, mi will be able to UPD8 24\7 ! cuz we've finally found a techy guy who managed to handle obnoxious macbooks :oP

anywuzzzzzzzzz, me is doin gr8 ! im as tanned as a bug so i think thats the reason why im gettin so many odd looks -..- TW is a great place and no im not just copy paste-ing ha ha ha ! the thing is in here u feel so alive ! the service here is rock ass ! u dont get moodless buggers servicing u lousily. everyone here is so joyous ! oki. im doin w this entry cuz ME IS GOIN TO CYCLE !!!!!! yes night cyclng is a part of my ( dieting. ) lifestlye now ^^

LISA FTW WHOOP WHOOP !!!!!!!!!

2010-07-23T00:47:00.003+08:00

WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( pardon my french. ahem.)

.. but my left eye is a complete freak show and guess wat !! i dont even know wat caused it *_- !!!!!

im convinced a bloody bug bit me while i was sleepin but all em adults are claiming otherwise -..- they said it's cuz my bod is too heaty ?_?

trust us to be chinese -..-

we keep coming up with funny reasons but i mean hello !!!! how could a bloody swollen eye be linked to my body being too heaty ?? well apparently they say the heat travelled from my tummy\toes and sneakily crept all the way up to my poor eye.. in some cases it goes up to the nose ?_?

frankly ?????????

i'm still stickin to my bug-bit-me theory. it's easier to accept.. plus, that way i don't have to drink funny assortments they're makin me swallow -..- im doin a quick entry cuz this might be my last. i'm leaving BKK to go TW tomorrow at 13 oclock.. YES. W MY BLOODY SWOLLEN EYE HOLY BUG.

ANW, im goin to the doc's now to cure my disease.. wish me luck arigato go go go. i'll be uploadin the subsequent pictures to phuket trip b-low. if not i'm gonna have to work on BOTH phuket and tai wan and that's somethin i dont quite njoy TYVM. so bye bye !!!!!!

finally away from people who have such childish thoughts i swear they'll never grow. pray tell me how old u REALLY are -..- sigh..

my eye still fine in here. taken before my lazy nap t he he..

2010-07-19T23:49:00.004+08:00

HOWDY !!!!!!!

HOWDY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GUESS WAT IM OFFICIALLY A CHOCOLATE ! >.<'''' ( forgettin the flavor of cuz :oP )

im as tanned as a beef, as a dark chocolate, as dark as . . . as . . . as . . . . POO boo hoo hoo hooo hooooooo !!!!!!!!!

HA HA HA. this is mi last night here in phuket so im doin an emotional rant here sobs sobs. i'm so in love with living here, where nothing bothers me ( even wearing a full bikini omgeez !!!!! lame.. HA HA !!!!!!! ) where i wake up at 8ish in the morning feeling so hyped with fantastic moods just seeing the waves crash against the sand aaaaargh !!!!!!!!! i've been telling my mom that unless he can buy me a house here in phuket or any beaches, i aint gonna marry him HA HA HA HA HA !!! this must be the first priority after having super broad shoulders LOL ^^ !!!!!! ok. now aint the time to discuss priorities watsoev. im makin use of the internet time. christine wanted to use facebook so i applied for a 24hr i-service and it's already costing me 700 so here i am typing nonsense :oP see. i am such a great $$saver$$.

let's c... i'll be leaving phuket tmr PM. then leaving BKK for TW on the 23rd. life is taking a turn and im enjoying it. lousy moods like i had in SG are already kilometers away :o) mom's condition is improving amazingly well ^^ she doesnt need her pills to sleep anymore. as for me, i've grown 5kgs fatter but seems like i'm still enjoying my food like i've always enjoyed. HA HA HA ! so don't be surprised if u see me grown amazingly well like a tsunami overnight ok.

right about now im in my rosy red dress with a freshly plucked orchid stuck in my ear listening to eva cassidy and being lovingly caressed by the salty wind, with the sound of distant waves rolling and ahhhh.... pure bliss :o)

ANW i'll UPD8 more later. gotsa go do ma packing. dang. i feel so sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad if only time could take a u-turn and allow me another chance.......................

en route !!!!!!! heart beating 10000000% quicker LOL -..-

gawjuz christine ;o) she hardly needs any editing i swear !!!!!!!!!!

told C it's always been my dream to laze around on the fluffy clouds. she said i'd fall cuz it's all made of water droplets.. sigh... i feel like a stupid bimbo and she's only 12 !!!!!!! :O all thx to me not payin attention in science grr.

my face's suffering frm wat i call the camera phobia. so hence this pic -..- 1hr flight seemed like eternity i swear !!!!!! :@

welcome to phuket indeed !!!!!! sry this shot is suckass..

C n momsie.

ma pretty princess ;o)

finally reached e hotel !!!!!!

yummmmm instant mood-lifer ^^

3 gorgeous women ;o)

C n her mommie.

C n momsie.

ma mom w ma jacket cuz she didnt bring hers lol !!!!!! it was pretty chilly @ night !! :O

i magically turned more human looking by night..

me lovely mom :o)

n GOOD NIGHT !!!!!!!!! while waiting 4 hair to dry n while waitin to fall asleep LOL.

ANW, here's a sneak peek at the following days taken via WC. UPD8 again when me is back in BKK ! GN !!!!!!

2010-07-12T03:41:00.047+08:00

“ For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others;
for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness;
and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone. ’'

-

weehee !!!

hi KK !!!!!!!!!!! this is an entry goin out to thank you for your time in my life and to celebrate our future years together ! cheers !!!!!!!! believe it or not but i think i love u :oP

HA HA HA !!!! ok. go watch ur football and sleep early !
really hope we can see each other soon ! life without you feels empty sigh........ no one understands me the way you do and no one knows the way we like to sing and take flattering angles of our beautiful faces ha ha ha. i really miss u !!!!!!!!!! ok enuf of emotional rants. :o) take care of urself in SG and don't ever fall when met with setbacks ! i recently learnt to be a fighter. ha ha. so we must be fighters, not runners oki doki !!!!!!!! ( shuld probably tattoo that. ha ha ha. ) <3 <3 <3
heres e last pic we took tgt :o)

hi rise and shine ! it's me droppin a quickie ! i'll be off to phuket tomorro so i'll be back with loadsa picts of the beach aightie bitey ! since i have no picts to UPD8 on, i'll just go randomly.

brought christine and ming to watch prince of persia. i sat alone mua ha ha ha ha !!!!!! ANW e show is pretty gr8 ! i watched it twice LOL >.

here is me super edited cuz i was bare-faced :oP ive been bare faced 2 weeks now :O

3 days ago i went to stay w DJD and the gang at town in town apartment. so i'll end off w bits here n thr. i didnt take much picts cuz i feel ugly these days n no one knows how i want my picts to look like so... thre goes ~.

e view from window.

taken from the window !!!!

just woke up w a grumpy face and a sleepy bath -..-

pretty old school but im lovin the black against the white. e mirror esp.

bringing u a piece i did in the room. half way completed. cant think if a good color for the stars ATMo.

while waitin for hair to dryz.

ha ha ha ha ha look @ e geisha lips. i edited the color hence the shaky outline -..- layZ.

my healthy breakfast -..-

HA HA HA HA LOOK @ RULE 21 S CUTE !!!!!!!!! <3.

ANW !!! it's alr 3.30am here ima gna sleep ciaoz ! endin off w a new bikini i got today for phuket ^^ i got only 3 of em >C will get more in phuket cuz it's cheaper there :oP i think :o)

love this so much it's so indian-y !!!!!!!!!!!! yes im still in love w india :o)

woohoooooooo !!!!!!!!!

...

2010-06-30T18:51:00.005+08:00

Life as I once recognized is all tumbling downhill.

Strangers who hurt you don't succeed because what truly hurt are when the ones you know who shamelessly throw the feat of betrayal right at your face. Someone you've picked up from the streets, natured, given shelters, grown to love him as a part of family, and magically transformed him into a man he is today. But yet, what do you get for your gracious deeds ???

Life.

Once doesn't fill him. He has to do it twice.
Once we've suffered.. and now we have to embrace ourselves for another blow.
The hurt inflicted in his first attempt is only beginning to heal slowly when he delivers his fucking second attempt.
A dog who doesn't recognize his owner. That's what he is.

_l_ Faggot.

Swim a little swimm ~...

2010-06-15T15:30:00.002+08:00

ok ! B4 anyone of u lil nasty bastards go thinkin that joys han doesnt practice what she preaches,,,, yoolahhh ~!!!!!!

I WENT 4 A SWIM !!!!!!!!!

believe it or not, but i woke up at 6am ( after bring dragged i repeat, by jase the stupid hyper thingamajig. ) and i actually slept at 3am e previous night cuz i was BZ watching chris evan's movies -..-

but ANW !!! i didnt wanna disappoint my promises so i dragged my 1000 ton body outta the bed and the rush was so bad
i actually forgot my make up kits -..-

so in this ugly entry, u will be witnessing an even uglier me. chiao. lunch awaits me !

<3.

karma bites. look at jase !!!!! ha !!! drag me outta bed somemore !!!!!! he couldnt even lift his tiny ounce of energy to swim in the end LOL !!!!!

en route ! my face was too ugly i had to seek help from the geeky specs.

so did thawat. LOL !!!!! see. i possess a weapon so powerful people of all nations seek my help -..-

wee weeed ~!!! he didnt even dare take off his clothes in fear of being caught in cam LOL -..-

- for chris evans. for chris evans. for chris evans. - i was practically chantin this 2 myself e whole time 2 motivate me 2 swim LOL !!!!!

sigh....................... look what love does to silly girls..

wiew ~!!!! hercules with small nipples and str8 pits HA HA HA !!!!!

complain complain complain.. of the cold. i personally LUV cold. i H8 warm weathers.

AND LOOK @ MY PANORAMIC SHOTS YO !!!!!!!!

taken by jase the noob ^. LOOK AT ME ! IM PRACTICALLY A HORSE !!!! _l_

my " artsy. " shot of the drops of water and uhm.. a lil of his arm pit hairs HA HA HA !!!!!!

my pitiful toes.. thanks to the stupid new shoes _l_

didnt have the time to blow dry my hair either.. -..- slow pokes or slow pokes..

honestly speaking, the swim wasnt one of the reasons i dragged myself outta bed. the reason was,

THE BREAKFAST !!!!!!!!!!

( YUMMY ~!!!!!!!!!! )

somethin's wrong w my cam i think. look at the lousy colors. i look like a sick kid >:o(

my cuppa strong black to keep me thru . . .. . . the breakfast.

LOL !!!!

after breakfast, 老娘 still want satisfied so i went to the deli's to get some croissants LOL !! dont laugh !!!! ^^

en route home !!!!!!

look at my " snake bite. " _l_

THANKS TO THE STUPID EGGS !!!!!! who knew the oil would " burst. " so bad -..-

us singing in the car LOL -..-

and here's me home w grans n AYM !!!!!!!!

humid weathers call for a fruit fest. durians !! are all mine mwa ha ha ha ah !!!!!!!! what can u do w pregnant girls -..- _l_

ending w a pic of me in the car. i didnt have the tme to pluck my pits so there goes a butterfly HA ! HA !!