sirocco and baby welfies

Joe's back in yangon again. yay for blog, boo for moi T_T

everytime he's away, I'm ungratefully awarded with so much free time I just gotta find something to do to fill it up. I was supposed to be back with them (Joe and his 2 sis) today too but since all the offices are still closed in yangon till 22nd april, I'm left with no choice but to re-extend my visa and continue staying here till then. mom's finally in BKK now with me and she seems to be getting better everyday! she even danced for Saoirse today 😂

so anyhoo. brought Joe's sissies to Sirocco last night. mom stayed home to look after the baby. idk why I'm even going to bars since I can't drink 😂

ok. I just put lil Shisha to bed. don't want wate precious time (before she wakes up)  typing. I'll just upload some pics. too lazy to edit. moodless to come up with nice colors and feels😳

it's been super long since I last put on make up. ha ha last night was the first time since... idk, almost 3 months ??

little baby kept looking at me and smiling. maybe she finally knows the mother is actually pretty after all lah 😂

boss unfazed. photo taken by my mom aka Shisha's granny. HA HA HA still can't get used to calling her that, or anyone anything. everyone I know has been promoted one level up 😂😂😂

series of welfies 

bored boss is bored

fine I'll entertain u ya peasant 

is that where I'm supposed to look?

hmm, interesting 

hey I actually do look pretty cute!

I've never seen myself this happy before, hehehehehe I guess daddy's genes are... weirdly okay ??

oh yay, score to my toothless smiles !!

hmm, daddy's armpits smells different today 😍

eghhh it's like I'm looking at myself 😖

PS my current weight is now 75kg O..O

shopping ? what shopping ?? I can't buy new clothes cos resembling a wide bucket's too easy a task and neither can I wear my old clothes cos well, I don't wanna end up looking like satay😭

went to asiatique to have dinner

food food glorious food

Joe's foie gras

sis's pork ribs

sis's spag

and my charcoal burger !!!! zomg this is so effing good I miss it so much feed me omm nommm nom 

love at first sight indeed 😍

so after being dragged around town by the stupid taxi, we finally got home to a sleeping baby.

oh my darling ❤️❤️❤️

baby naming

how will my baby look like ? finally, I'm pondering over this useless question becos apparently, children are the most beautiful in their parents' eyes 😍

I know I can't hope for a Kendall Jenner with Joe's and my genes but all I want for my baby is to be happy, free and loved.

 Hence, the name Saoirse He. freedom in Irish. obviously it's gonna be tough letting her fly and soar for I'll be chained with worry the day she's born but that's exactly what I want her to do and feel. to live life a free spirit, a happy and contended soul. where everywhere she go, she'll smell the fragrance in the flowers, feel the warmth in the sun and the whispers in the breeze.

so one day I was just sitting and probing my brain for some inspirations on her nickname when KK gave me a very good one that I absolutely love.... Shisha !!!

ha ha ha ha ha freedom in shisha 😁😁 I was thinking sha sha sounds.... not my baby at all and nothing seems to go well with Saoirse until KK said Shisha ! ha ha so there goes my names ! all settled !! 

now goes the tiresome part : the Chinese name. her last name's gonna be 何 and the 字牌 for her generation is 邦.

邦 omg 邦！how to heck can a name sound girly with the bang there !!!?

haiz. I guess she's gonna be a second me with a macho sounding Chinese name but s'kay. I actually quite like my brute chinese name 😁😁😁

so Joe's finally, finally, finally coming to bangkok tmw after 18 days of separation !!! to be honest, the first few weeks were pretty easy on me. but as days dwelled on without him by my pregnant side, I started throwing tantrums and soaking in self pity.

 I know there r many other pregnant women who have it tougher than me but sometimes I just can't help but feel so alone in this pregnancy. my mom lacks manpower and I'm 100% supportive of Joe leaving me to help her out but sometimes I just feel so robbed of a pillar. and as you all know, I'm very dependent on him. there are times where I feel my baby is all I have but thank god for me being me, I get out of sad thoughts pretty swiftly. there are many pregnant women whom had to go thru everything alone aka my dear mother. and my dear grans. it saddens me that they are all they had to depend on for every occasions, for more than half their lives. losing their husband at such a young age and choosing not to remarry. it's really tough I've come to realize cos sometimes, a presence is enough to make u feel safe. u don't have to be all lovey dovey, but a presence of a pillar with the gestures as simple as getting u a cuppa water or asking u if you're hungry is enough to make you feel comforted, safe and loved even.

hence, the next time a man comes into my mom's life, I will try not to be too tough on him. after all, it's my mom's life, not mine. it's just that when u love a person, you want the best for him/her so all the jerks better come armored ha ha ha JK 😜

OK. that's it for today. my eyes are super strained cos I've been too preoccupied with completing Joe's V-day present, ha ha ha having no money sucks lah. this is the first time I'm giving him a V-day present and it costs only 120 + 65 baht !!! ha ha ha but it's really cute and I love it. handmade somemore leh ehem 😁😁

my knight ☺️☺️☺️

and 

cos I know he'll be the best dad to my kids :'-) inside joke : still got papa no. 2,3,4,5 😝😝😝

2 nights ago I was feeling emo while looking thru old pics where I got more motivated to name my girl after freedom. 

mommy and me. love this pic so much !!!! gonna take one with my girl too and hopefully I'll turn out as beautiful as my mom here where no photoshop existed bank then !!! 😭

very ugly me here but I love this pic so much. that laugh. that freedom.

clearly, I was a happy kid. hence, my little Saoirse shall be the second me :-) 

and that's pretty much it !!! bye bye !! so hungry now but no food at home. I shall start eating properly tmr when Joe's mama will be here with home cooked meals :-)

24th water library

ok pardon the super backlog ha ha ha. these days I'm so busy with nothing I totally forgot about me having a blog to pass time on. so on my actual birthday, I decided for joe to treat me to a meal at water library ! I was deciding between author's lounge ( which is just high tea. ) and water library. but decided with WL in the end cos it's in central embassy which I've been meaning to visit as well. furthermore, there's still Valentine's for author's lounge so what's the rush eh XP

sadly, water library's foods failed to impress me. I should've stuck to my guts feeling and went to Paul's when I saw it in central embassy too. but or bee quack lah. foods were mehhhhh.

anw, at least we've tried it albeit coming back again in the future or not.

it's been super long since I last dolled up. ha ha ha gimme some credits I was even wearing fake eye lashes here okay !! ha ha ha ha super kua zhang hor. I had on the dress I got I think don't know how many years ago alr but I was in sec 2+2 years older than cohort = 16 years old HA HA HA. the twirly red dress I got in SG for new year with mom and aunt xin. this was the only decent stress that fitted me in my wardrobe o__o as for my feet, well, I had on my haivanas 😂😂😂😂 I didn't bring any heels with me this trip keke. another reason why I didn't choose author's lounge.

super revealing this dress cutting. I didn't bring along my tape also, evidently -_______-

half my date. the other half is his sister ha ha ha.

foie gras pate cos Joe loves them liverzz

and Joe's liver main again.

and me and the SIL's set meals. I thought it would be cheaper to get sets cos wa. a lot mah but FAIL ! don't get sets ! just order a plate of what you'd really like. sets include idk what shits that doesn't taste superb. I was just eating for the sake for it being delivered on my table, not becos I like the dishes urgh. mine are the boring looking dishes cos what to do, pregnant woman. I chose for the SIL cos I knew they'd turn out pretty in pics HA HA HA.

see, example : hers 

and mine simple cos I'm in the mushroom soup phase right now kekeke.

hers : lamb. I don't believe in eating lambs aka eating myself 😳

I had lobster spaghetti for my main which was probably the nicest in the set.

yeah... I thought I'd be presented with big ass shelled lobsters too -_____-

and our desserts which was probably the most photogenic amongst all.

and peppermint tea.

that's it for food !!!

with the birthday girl ☺️☺️☺️

didn't get much pics. come home then kaboom ! oh yea, due to the fact that we aint got no doughs to go shopping, we left after dinner and headed to.... chinatown. ha ha ha, had a bowl of noodles and bought them gao-lee and came home. 

❤️ mi amor

swim and me style

sometimes it feels like I'm singing do u wanna build a snowman wiv my baby. especially when I don't feel any of her movements for a long long time and I'll be rubbing my stomach singing do u wanna build a snowman ?? *still no nudges* , we used to be best buddies, *still silence* , but now we're not, I wish u would tell me why ???? *still greeted with stillness* it doesn't have to be a snowman, *nothing*. okay bye...

ha ha ha seriously baby, give me some movements or I'll be at my wits end thinking if you're still safe n sound ! T_T 

anyway it's been quite a while since I last wrote here. i'm currently using this voice activation message or whatever it's called to type from this paragraph onwards! It's really really fun and convenient OMG (pronounced oh am gee) I absolutely love it I don't have to worry about anymore typos who whoop!

so my sister-in-law and I we went swimming today. I admit it's rather difficult to swim without Joe by my side supporting my big tummy sad face. finally had a bow bowl of good carbonara today at Me Style Resaurant after our swim. finally feels like I'm eating human food again! it's been so long since we had a proper meal. everyday we're just munching on snacks and convenient food boxes from 7-11 sad face. i'll just let the pictures talk bye!