I don't know where my little bits and pieces of papers with my daily happenings has been. I only managed to find a Wednesday piece. so.

Wednesday , September 26th 2007.

i wanna go to bed now. update tmr. ciaoz.

When will you see me again ?

see y'all in exactly s i x days' time. brr i seriously wouldn't be enjoying much of the massive blogging on saturday or sunday lah wha lau eh.
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by the way, what does wha lau mean ah ? seriously. cos i say it despite not knowing what it means when i'm displeased just a little. na bay. haha, i like the word na bay outta all of those ccnccbnnnmmmaaazzzjjjkkkooo. it sounds grand. somehow =\

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urgh. this heartache is so difficult to accept. so difficult to endure every invisible pricks. i can't see the pain but i can feel it. why oh why. pjj ? tsk. what was i thinking ??
wogangangkekangtanefriendsterranghoukangjingtagaeneguoguninagnetestimonialwoxiaodewohaoxiangsezhaioverreactkeshiurgh.xiaobudelorlawoshizaishitaishangdaolorxiaxhikangjingtawojioyidingyaogaetayiguodachouling !!!!
yeh joys, start anew. it's 12.03 in the middle of the night and yeh baby ! a new day has just arrived ! what a good way to kick start my new fresh week. brr seriously, WHAT WAS I THINKING !? what the hell la seh. urgh. if only this is like the other private blogs then i'd be confessing everything =<
heart ol pretty heart i pity you so.

I bruise easily so be gentle when you handle me.

my heart feels so, i don't know how to describe what i'm feeling. i'm having such a bad nausea. it won't go away. my life time horror has just come looking back for me. i wanna cry i wanna scream i wanna tear when i see him hugging his girl cos she too was scared, just like me, just like farah. i so badly hoped i was in her shoes knowing i'll be safe under his tight hug reminding me somebody will still by my side when i'm scared. somebody that will assure me everything's gonna be okay cos i've got him. i hope this phobia of mine'd go away. it all started a few years ago in china. i witnessed 2 guys chasing a man with knives in their hands and they were repeatedly slashing and chopping him. not only that. they stomped on his head repeatedly even after he fell and was bleeding profusely, even when he couldn't stand up, even when it was totally obvious he has got no more energy and he's about to die. and when he was taken away in the truck, he just stood all alone in a pool of blood. he wasn't even IN the truck. he was just sitting all alone hugging himself sitting OUTSIDE the truck. i was just rooted there. i looked normal outside but inside, i was scared. i was dead scared. i couldn't express my feelings to anyone cos i only had my elder brother and uncle by my side. i couldn't tell them i needed to cool but i didn't had a chance to chill. and this feeling's just so raw. i never needed anyone to care for. but now, i want everyone. i wanna hug you for as long as it takes for me to cool but nobody's home with me. nobody. all by myself, i'm sitting here feeling really sick and scared of eveything i saw. i don't wanna be so alone. i wanna cry. i really feel lost and i feel omg, do i sound lonely ? cos i'm just so freaked out by the incident shiet i wanna die. I'M FUCKING SCARED ! urggggggggggh !
okay, farah and i were in the train with me singing jojo's version of beautiful girls cheerfully when i was interrupted by this man roaring at some guys. i looked up to see an indian man raising his voice at this smaller looking malay guy.

" you don't say like this to me ! "
" what !? i only tell you to sit right ! "
" you say ' you want to sit you sit la ! ' i tell you you don't rude to me ! "
" what ! i only tell you you want sit then you sit right !? "
" eh boy ! you don't be rude to me ! "
" i say you want sit . . "
" II SSAAYY YYOOUU DDOONN''TT BBEE RRUUDDEE TTOO MMEE ! " (double letterings stand for shouting at the top of his voice.)
" what's your problem siol !? "
SIOL.
before malay could say more, a punch landed on his face." why you punch me for ! " and then more punchings continued. malay didn't punch back at first but slowly, he returned all those tight fists. malay fell against the door. farah and i were totally rooted. my jaw touched the ground, literally. i was like shiet. bad seat. what if he punched us too if he wasn't suang ( cool in chinese. ) ? and throughout the whole journey home, i felt like a rotten prata. farah and i kept quiet the whole time. my heart still skipped and jumped real fast. i couldn't cool so i went to listen to some music to ease myself. finally, the train reached our destination. i only managed to gasp in about 2 big gulp of fresh air before the next train come. i wanted to skip it cos i needed fresh air but farah reminded me that was the last train. i felt like i was gonna throw up. i dropped at bukit batok mrt. exchanged big ass tight hug with farah and i left alone, dreading every steps i took. i just didn't wanna be left alone, especially with the state i was in. i was again, welcomed by a series of an unfortunate event. there weren't any buses left as it was already past midnight and the last bus was at 23 45 which was i forgot what bus. i felt lost for a few moment there so i ranged cheepeng to ask for help but he who wasn't the least bit helpful, told me i was screwed and screwed and still screwed. just when i was about to " break down " , i saw a cab at the traffic light. he indicated to me he could bring me home so i went home with him in his shining armour. and believe was hell good. that lead guy's a total cutie ! he's like a mixed guy.
*_* meltzzzzzz.
it's a musical sorta thang. one and a half thumb upzzz. we had our dinner at arab street, nasi goreng kampong and teh tarik bang or something. iced tarik. rice tasted great considering the fact that we didn't have anything except for some drinks. i had apple cranberry throughout the whole journey to the recital theatre to the end of the play. i was growling inside but sad to say, i was too overjoyed with something someguy i couldn't eat heavenly. well well well, this guy, this guy's a " pure white ang mor skater. " i was telling far that guy with the green cap looks so cute through the reflection while waiting for train. i was simply groping over his cuteness. he looked that kinda guy that doesn't go around groping at every girls that passes his way's assets or shietsoever. he looked so homeboy it attracts me. he just looked so . . . . so the type i like ! y'know ? that doesn't flirt should be what i'm tryna say. when we got into the train, mr skater was only a few feet away from us. and aunty tan told me tazaikangwomenliangchilor.i was happy like haha, but when i looked at him, he had sucha stern face i totally lost my interest or whatsoever.
" you know i don't mind going to changi airport. d'ya wanna stop now ? "
the obnoxious queen didn't know what was happening so i just left at city hall. and when we were out, far was like telling me to say goodbye to my mr cuteness cos tayizhizaikangzuowotahaisenazonggrindadanehgeworkeshiwobuyoukekangWONAMEBENGAH ! and he's the first ang mor that was attracted and paid attention but we just damn well-ly ignored !! urgh. i don't wish to blog anymore. i was just telling myself why i could be so silly. oh yes ! ahemahem, hey gyals and guys, the joke of the year ;
farah and i didn't wish to watch this random play at esplanade cos it was totally wasting our time but on the other hand, it was rude to just leave so when there was a pause in forever, i said " QUICK ! NOW !! GO !!! " just when i walked up and looked up after putting my cell phone back into my handbag, what happened ?
TAN FARAHLINA FELL DEAD FLAT LIKE A PANCAKE !! the whole place was like silenced and i didn't know what to do it was too sudden i could only ask if she was alright. farah was just, flat. haha, farah. it was great !
SO MUCH FOR TRYING TO AVOID THE WHOLE DARN PLAY DARL !

here're the many pictures =>

the artworks.
half way there.

" please do not take pictures. "

who made farah fall ?


after the play on the way to a'street.

i spotted this skateboard sign on at this bus-stop. and ;

shiet. this skateboard reminds me of him.

he made skating cool yo peoplez.


he may do a tripple flip.


he may run me over with that killer board . . .


but shiet ! i still like you !


eh eh eh !! that pose quite nice leh ! one more one more.

we put the patients at ease with our flying fingers.


yay time to break puasa !



nasi kampong.



i poke peoples' eyes.

it's now 4.40 in the morning and i was up since just nw busy uploading the pictures. dang i took like three hours just for this entry ?? i'm so slow =.=
oh yeh and real sorry for the bad editing of pictures. the original were so dark and i couldn't edit it brightly that well. buy me a new camera la dey. okay i wanna blog on forever but for the sake of my skin, g'night y'all.
sleep well =>
i'll go dream about mr skater. okay, i sound obsessed #.# zzzzzzzzzz

Early Morning.

okay i'm bored now. it's only 12.31 in the afternoon and I'M UP ! all ready ! minus the new set of clothes and make up. i've bathed i've applied all my lotion for my face for my limbs and now i'm merely sitting here typing. anyways ! i was awaken rudely by a " JIE !!! WAKE UP ALREADY ! NIGEL'S IN THE HOUSE ! " i thought it was " farah's in the house. " and then . . the voice got nearer to my ears and jason shoke me up reapeating his words. i shot up right away,
" where's he !? "
" in the house ! "
" in the room ? "
" no ! outside the room ! "
" where !? "
ol we sounded over exasperated. i have totally no idea why he's here. after a few weak and feeble attempts to chase both jason and nigel outta the room, i finally managed to grab my towel and facial scrub and sprang to the bathroom. and when i was appling my facial creme, nigel opened my wardrobe and uhm. saw my g-strings. LOL
which i have yet to use no worries. so fast forward, they're now in the park, whereas for me, i'm stuck here. but i'll join them later ! isn't it bloody hot right now !? and they wanted me to go alllllll the way to the park just " to talk. " brrr. it's only 12.37. why is the time crawling so slow !? or is it i'm typing slow -.-
i'll prolly leave the house at, i don't know. in the late evening. cos according to farah, even if we leave early, we'd be stuck with nothing-to-do and moreover, she's pua-sa-ing brr. =<
okay i guess i better make a move now ! it isn't good to treat a guess this way, is it ?

Late Entries.

Wednesday, September 19th 2007.

WE GOT OURSELVES THE TICKET TO THE PLAY " BELIEVE " !!!!

farah and i train-ed to chua chu kang's lot one's sistic outlet just to get ourselves the ticket to the play. haha, it all seemed like that kinda in-a-flash thang. like this minute, you're hoping you'd get the tickets in your hands and never let it go and the next minute, it's safely tugged in your under arms. we had a korean set lunch. it tastes just the same, yummy as usual =>
jaw came to meet us, he had kfc and i again, had another cheese fries !

t he yeah i know i'm sucha glutton huh.

ta-daaaaah !

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Thursday, September 20th 2007.

hello you !
omg, should i go get the lacoste bag or should i just save the money for some other uses !? i'm having such headache thinking over this. okay. lacoste bag's really really yummy and i'm sure i can make many uses outta it like to the beach ( but i already have three beach bags. ) , to study trips with pals ( which i don't. not a proper one anyway. ) and it can also be used for school !!! it's big in size and omg ! it's askdgiagkndnvm nice !!!!!!! it's in red white and green. hand bag. aaaaah, when i put it up my shoulder, it just totally wore me ! it and i looked so goegeous with each other !! it just somehow or rather reflects my personality. it's, oh nooo ! I WANT IT SO BAD !!!! and what's more is that it costs only 95 $ ! mom asked which i wanted. either guess ( which i chose. )

she said guess looks much more elegant than lacoste. lacoste's more casual whereas for guess, it's much more glamorous. but to me, lacoste's sucha big ass beauty !! this is how lacoste looks like ;
DONT YA JUST ADORE IT !?
if you do, omg we have such great tastes ! we can totally be friends !! now imagine the actual bag lookin 999 999 999 times better.
god, how can we resist !
RIGHT ?

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hey yo ~! i just got back from hardcore memorizing those cutesy chinese charcters with farah. starbucks was flooded so we went over to mac's where she did her malay and i did my chinese. i actually did my mathematic too. how can you not be proud of me. anyways ! we acutally revised alllllllllll our work till 9.30 odd at night and then we had our late dinner. AND I GOT MYSELF TWO SHAWLS !!!!! for just -
5 FIVE FIVE 5 5 5 FIVE5 DOLLARS.
each.
omg, girls you guys totally gotta go get 'em big and quick. it's only 5 dollars i couldn't resist it. it was practically calling out my name !! i have to get back to that shop one day and get all the other colors ! i got myself a black and a white one. bought some necessary stationaries and off we went to fill in our growling stomach with chicken baked rice.





yeap. that should sum my thursday up.

NOW.
hello. i hate sueezing my every entries into just a post alone. but i can't help it, my pc's under my guardian's care i can't believe i was ever so silly to think it was a better idea. tsk tsk. anyways ! it's only 21 37 but i seems like it's already 4 in the morning to me right now cos i still gotsa bathe and get ready for the big day tomorrow !! i'ma gonna catch the play with farah ! i can't wait hell no i can't. hope my hair'll turn out fine. perfectly fine =>
oh yeah, haha i forgot to mention about membership in bobbi brown. thanks farah => anyways i managed to get myself into the bobbi brown club haha. all you gotta do is spend above 200 $ and you'll be a member of bobbi brwon, attending make-up courses ! i forgot how again abut after you're the official member of BB, you gotta spend a few more pounds and you'll be a life time member. haha, yeah like life time. my god i don't think it'll work on my skin any more when i'm 90 odd. but still, here's how the grand card \ whatever looks like !

oh yes, i forgot to mention, suren gave me this lil lime " pencil box. " stating it can be used as a pencil box which i'ma gonna use as a make up bag. t haha. it's of a favourite design i loves. =>
D'YA SEE IT !?