if only ..

hi ! i am back yo. see like i said the whole studyin thang is will and never gonna werk out when KK and lisa meet. i had a 3 hours sleep only before draggin myself outta bed. met KK over @ jurong east EC and i must say, i had damn little food today ! ... well not until night anyway :oP

watched The Days. whoa this is good too ! ha ha, i like lah. it can make you cry too. i like it cos it's an insight to the gangstas lives. very realistic and IS happening in our daily life. singaporean gang$ta$ i mean. pardon the dollar $ign. it just looks more gang$ta$-ish. ha ha ha ! it's all about brotherhood. there's this real blooded brothers and i'll just tell you the story cos it's nice and i just feel like typing. so anyway. the elder brother is in the gang while the 2nd bro is those blur king chicken type. so blah blah blah, i dont feel like typing anymore. i quite sleepy already what a surprize. but anyway. the main thang is that elder bro loves his younger bro very, very, much. you can just see it from his actions. in the end he died. why did he die ? cos he wanted to protect his brother. ye sorry lah. tell you the story already. but anyway ! the nice part is that this gangsta brother likes a girl that's this little good girl ( but she's also from a gang blooded family. ) so it's sweet. ha ha ! go watch lah. anywayz ! we went over to IMM today. i am such an angel today !! i only had fries, oreo mc, chicken meat ballz and thats it !!! and i didnt even buy any clothes !!!! there was this eye candy tho. it looked so good on me. HA ! HA ! clothes hardly ever look good on me these days due to the weight am gainin' but i this one is totally stunnin on me but i wasnt that keen, i dont kno why, it's just .... i donno. like not too keen like i stated above i sirpoze. so i didnt buy. KK bought it cos it is really damn nice. i also didnt hav the money to buy. KK is treating me to any 40 $, which means i can buy anything for 40. the shirt was 43 and i just dont see why it shuld cost a 43 cos it looks 20ish so i didnt geddit. im still on the lookout for something really gasping breath taking traffic stopping dee dee dah. oki doki. went to crystal jade for dinner thats when i started eating. ha ha ! wasnt hungry but just ate anyhow. then it waz rainin like mad so got on the taxi cab home. i am very sleepy now so pictures will be up tomorro. fuck fuck. tomorrow . . . is the last day of holiday ( _v_ ) this is upside down. it's supposed to look devastatedly sad.

i look bloodless white cos i was facing the mornin sun.

peaceful me with jan's gift last year :o)

eh heh heh, i think i wanted to suck the mornin air into my unhealthy chunk of body.

a pic after me is done and ready to go out !

on the way to meet KK.

the gd thing about wearing this is that i can eat as much as i like as u can see, the shirt can be xtended to look bloody bloated.

the days time ! hehe ! just typing : the days. give me a rush of satisfaction. i donno why..

eat. i realized i never take good picture when we r eating. it's mainly bcoz we will be BZ eating and talking to even bother playin with our cameras.

buyin undergarments. bought some for school.

i didnt ged this cos KK knew i never wear clothes like these so even if i buy it, it'll be locked away in the closet-cell. but i think i will still buy them. i mean, who kbows when formal occasions might come up right. especially in myanmar, i cant be havin dinner with mom's friends with half of my boobs touching the rice right. ha ha ! the thot makes me giggle tho.

first time seein so many mbzillion people. and i am so proud of this piece. i think it kinda define the fast pace life we're livin on. only arty people understand what im talkin about. HA ! HA ! HA !

yawn . .

i hav been up hexic-ing. and body iz achin' like krazy so bye. am meetin KK tomorrow to study over @ national library which i promise wont happen. and i donno why but am havin this really strong feelin' that we gonna be eating the hot pot again brr. alrighty. i feel like a sheet of crumpled + re-used ova and ova again flimsy paper. i think i am floating. and haiz. if dreams can rewind . . . yawn .

from this ..

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LTIH. lisa trainin in hexic.

lisa trainin'.

dont kno who this song is by but it's damn nice !


i named it under duffy too cos when i downloaded it off limewire when i was still in bukit timah, it was named under duffy but i didnt really listened to it until just now when i was massive clearing my files in the computer but anyway, she doesn't sound very duffy-ish so it's under 12345321 now :oP i went yahooing on the song but i cant find the singer still. closest i found was under keisha white. but her lyrics for this isn't up so i cant be sure. so i went i-meem and found this. and it's under unknown. but anyway.

here're the pictures, very few and unsigniportant ( unsignificant+unimportant=unsigniportant ! :oD ) ,
for the previous days ! i cant even remember what happened xactly cos it's bin how many days already. i wore one outfit twice cos i didnt had time to find new pieces. 1st day met KK in the evenin at bugis's crystal jade for dinner before buying the underwater camera ja neh neh recommended. KK got the blu one. and then we discovered a new shop that's really good. it's more of a cake shop but whoa it tastes fab ! i will tell u the name nex time. i've been there twice already but i keep forgetting to remember to notice the shop's name. but anywayz ! second day we went swimming already. ha ha ! took a few picas with the new camera. after that KK treated me to BaliThai over @ west mall. third day we met over at jurong east to have KFC then went over to bugis to study actually but we went to catch a show instead. we caught meet dave. ye i thot it waznt nice thats why didnt watch it ASA it came out. but this is a really good show ! ha ha tho there really isnt any story to remember by, it's boody damn hilarious ! one of the days i forgot which, we caught money no enuf. it was fuckin good ! ok maybe not fuckin but it waz good ! i thot it waz juz another one of singaporean shows again so it waz gonna be bad but then there really weren't anymore movies to watch so watched it in the end and i must say it's great ! funny and sad. it's a show based on every singaporeans' lifestyles. must watch !! can cry and can laugh. meet dave too ! cant cry there tho. ha ha ! oki doki. this is all ! by the way !!!! i kno the cheat for hexic already !!!!!! ok not cheat lah. last time i didnt even bother to read the instructions but just now when i was playing with KK, i bothered to read and the fucking bombs !!!! last time when there's a bomb right, i'd be so anxious i start clicking everywhere so of cos i died lah. but actually it's like you click once, the bomb goes off one time. you click twice, goes off 2 times. you dont click ? it doesnt go off. eazy peasy lemon squeezy much !? ok ok, i go leaw. i till playing kno. ha ha.
what a faithful hexican i am hor i kno lah :oP

as always, a pic after gettin' ready.
grily doesnt seem very happi.
testin' 8 9 10.
all she does is eat right.
which obviously shows in her body. ha ha ha ! eh look @ my stomach. this was after crystal jade. ha ha dont think my shirt color can block my stoamch. i didnt kno at first but KK and i almost died of laughter when we saw it. :oD
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oh my !!! i just spotted the limo on her nose now !!!! ha ha ha, i edited way too quick i didnt notice it.
gotta love this !! look @ the bubbles ! very detailed !
i look very bad here but never mind, i think it's nice. the water picture i mean.


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MUST BUY !!!! details cant be seen sharp here. but it's grey and it's fuggin nize. it costs 63 $ so i culdn't buy it. i only left 2 pitiful dollars leh ha ha ! but i will be gettin it !! cos this is the kinda pencil skirt that is chic and not too officy.
eat again.




i havent been to the singapore one yet leh how kam-pong. most likely goin on chinese moon cake fest.

aaar.

爱吃死！可以一辈子都吃！哈 哈 哈 ..


haiz . . no money again.
but donno wot i only 2 $ !
and 2 $ only !
okay doesnt tell a story
bye bye.
- pictures are not fully upd8ed ! -

The fall of the hexic sensation.

yo !!!! ha ha ha, first thing to start off is that i am no longer the hexic queen !!! ha ha ha, this mornin after i got outta the bath room, kitty and i went on hexic and she was so fast like a leisurely strolling rocket ! you kno how fast rockets are right !! ha ha ! i was like only 3 digits when she was already at 4 digits. ha ha ! the queen of hexic is kitty y'all ! all hail and bow wow to the new queen ! ha ha ha. what a joke. i was the champion for a simple 1 day only lor. after kitty's eyes got tired, ja neh neh came one on one with me. ha ha ! ours was pretty close so we hav to play once more without the entrance of cookies lol :oP

see wot i mean ? :oP

KK piked me up today and i really think i am improving on my punctuality !!! just as i got outta the lift, i saw the taxi cab stop in time :o) this is the feeling of satisfactory i guess. ha ha like when i put in the effort, i get it. haiz ! if only i am this keen on studies (o+.+o) recently i been comin up with new smilies but i dont even kno what they tell. ha ha ! i guess this is called

bashful cos the o and o looks like cheeks but anyway ! we went to sim lim square to correct her iphone that got locked cos itchy hands went to upgrade itunes so the little phone locked itself up, refusing to unlock but anyway guess who i saw @ the shop !!! ha ha ok no one xcept my primary skool friends kno him. i saw nigel, again ! the other time was when i was trying to be a mom by buying groceries on my own but then we didnt talk cos i was going up the escalator while he was goin down so it was just eyebrows raise and " eh hi ! " . today when i was sitting down, a really familiar lookin guy walked past me a few times but i culdnt tell and i also didnt quite pay attention cos i was in a way-deep-trance. so then when we were done, i turned back and nigle was just behind me .. so the cycle of eye brows raize shiet repeated itself again. ha ha. we went over to bugis street, a part of bugis street to eat the hot pot again !!!! ha ha ha, i forgot what it's called but it's directly translated into english. we were so starved on the way to SL but we were so stuffed on the way back to SL again !! we ate and ate it was totally crazy ! people will not fail to shoot glances over @ our table cos it's just us girls eating the whole pile of food. ha ha ! see this is what u call " live your life. " :oD in the end i was so stuffed it hurt to laugh. not literally. it was really-seriously-truly. it just hurt so much i culdnt budge. but anyway !! today's plan was to swim one. but laziness lah. led its way to the hot pots but in order to keep ourselves guilt-free, we went back to the pool to " swim " ha ha ! which plainly said, was just to dip till night. we didnt take picas in there cos the swimming guards said no photography. today we were too tired to pose also so we just talked. after swimming, guess what the 2 eating queens did after their big fat swim !!!!!!!!?? well you got it right of cos they went to eat again ! ha ! ha ! ha ! what a life. i only wanted to eat my little chicken pie initially but it ended up with a zinger meal (-.=) ha ha this says winks-guiltily. but anywayz !!!!!!! bye bye {v}[^_^]{v} ha ha ha this is a robot saying peace gleefully ! :o)

PS : i cant upload pictures my internet bin really bad.

Hail and Bow Wow to Lis Hexic Zang !

YO !!!!!!!!!!!

HA HA HA HA !

I AM SO HAPPY NOW !
OK first thing first.

this stupid MSN guy challenged me to bloody chess !!!! obviously i would lose right. but he still had to poke fun of my noob-at-chess fact by going " ha ha you're dead. " and when i said " oh no im dead. " , instead of saying it's ok try harder, he had the chess-ish cheeks to say " u knw that ure dead. "

!!!!!!!!

never mind. so the 2nd time he challenged me, i tried harder - - - - - by blocking his every move !!!! ha ha ha, but of coz i still died in the end lah. i really am not a chess person lor. i only know how to play it from jasone. ha ha ! that pope taught me how to play board games. so anyway. i told mr ches to invite me to bejeweled instead and that little chess head didnt kno how to play !!!! haaaa ! chess wanna act so big now dont know how to play . ha ha ha ! so i tried hexic and fuck !!! i am such a naturel tru born precious one-and-only gifted genius @ hexic ! ha ha ha ! i kept winning him and guess what !!!!? that little fucker quit the game on me (-.-')


but anyway !!!! please call me queen of hexic now, i don't really mind. at all. HA ! HA ! HA ! this is zang lisa's new found talent. so i hav to keep werkin on it who knows when the ability to hexic wuld be useful in future, right ? like hexic-ing to earn big bucks or somethin right. hmmm .. i wont be givin up so soon on my new found talent no ! hexic here i come everyday !!! ha ha ! chess head versus THE latest hexic queen. mm-hmm, sounds very fun right. and hehe, i am not against lester the molester. he's still a net friend to me. but when challenges come, we get a little carried away y'kno . . so.

my first defeat !!!!

second thing i am damn happy about !!!!!!
( it's too late to. ) Apologize plays in the background.


Hi Joyce,
I am writing to say I am sorry. I did not know you were thinking of me as the way you were. I am so sorry about everything. Since I was from a different background, I could not understand you earlier. But now I feel I have been to harsh on you given the way you have been brought up.

I guess we should not have gone to this stage. I was expecting too much of you. But do believe that I was so because I see the potential in you I want you to live up to it so much. After talking to Ms Queenie, I had a better understanding of you and I feel that I must apologize to you.

Please do know that I am acting the way I am because I really care for you so much. I have no obligation to care for you at all, yet I still do. I do not want to see you go astray. I just want to see you moving on the right track.

Since this is the first time standing on your own feet, there are still so many things you need to learn. You take your time to learn things slowly. I shall not push you hard from now on. I shall just be a guide if you need me, will just stand by you.

Since I have heavy workload in school, I might not have been as patient. I hope you would understand that.

Please approach me anytime you need any help. I will be more than happy to help you out if I can.

One more thing, your mother loves you all a lot, please try to study harder for her.

Best wishes,
Sandi

truth is, i didnt really feel the " ye imma champion ! " kinda feelin when i first received the letter. i felt kinda touched to be brutally honest. well a little history lesson about sandi. she's actually my cousin's girlfriend whom i used to like. like as in like as a person lah, not as a special person.we used to hang out once together, the air show day, and she was a real angel to buy me a tee from there as i dont know what but she bought me one anyway. i liked her and we talked a few times and i even dreamt shamelessly the day they wed and we shall be cousins till the end and have endless fun but all dreams were shattered ever since she became my guardian. she changed. somehow. and yadee deedah, i no longer felt like she was the one i wanna be friends with anymore. actually i forgot what i was trying to say. i think is that she's a nice person actually but it's like, everything turned bad ever since she was made a guardian and not just a friend. i still feel friends are the best. you treat each other as and how u like. but when you're promoted to a bigger position like say, a best friend, it gets a lil tough cos u might go unhappy when your best friend spends more time on others instead of u. like this case, since sandi became my guardian, she has to hav that adultish behaviour to rule me which i disliked so. so yep. i am photo copying a few copies of the sacred letter. ha ha ha ! i m not teasing. i just want to keep a few copies cos sincere letters come once in a yellow moon. the last time i got a really nice and sincere letter was from a myanmar girl i used to be in the same school with but seldom talked with. she knew i went back to myanamr and she wrote me an awfully nice letter. the only sentence i remember is



" you are so smart i admire you. you're the girl that has it all, you get to go to singapore to study. i respect you and i hope i will always be a friend to you. i will always look up to you as the sister. come visit me when you're back the next time ! "



i liked that letter so much i carried it around. but one fucking day, when we were eating outside, i was reading the letter again but i didnt put it back in my pocket. i just left that letter on the table and left the shop. i asked my uncle to get it back for me but it waz too late. but anyway, the point is, i keep meaningful letters and read them to remind myself of my life. after reading the myanmar girl's letter, it felt weird tho cos the way they think of me is so different from the real me. they think im that smart intelligent girl staying in singapore who gets like what, distinctions for every papers she sits ? but actually, im jut the girl who studies in singapore. thats that. im not smart and i play too much. ok nevr mind. i am still happy all the same! :oD

and i waz joking about the apologize thingy playin in the background. i m not that mean. ha ha ! oki doki. i shall be hexicing now ! goodbye chesshead !!! :o)