HE HE HE !!!

WOT IS UP W ME !!!!?

IVE BEEN THINKIN OF GOIN BALD FOR 2 DAYS NOW -.-


PATHETIC !!!
my ear hole's gone -.- i thot of changing the stud to somethin smaller and nicer BUT WHO KNEW IT'D CLOSE SO SOON !!!!?

PATHETIC !!! GOT BLOOD SOME MORE BLOODY HELL !!


PATHETIC !! antiseptic.


PATHETIC !!!


clearing room day. yummy, my room smelt of dettol mixed with herbal essence and dove after this. and the smell's still lingering there, i like :oP

@ NIGHT.

jason and i doing facial masks tgt. ha ha, his picts are lookin gloomy cos he wuz afraid the mask'd fall out if he smiled -.-

BEFORE.

DURING :

i look like an ugly piece of i dont kno wot here but jaz insisted i put this up cos he looks good, or so he claims -.-

AFTER.

THE NEXT DAY !!!

after watchin hungover w jan. gosh, if u ask me, i think this show shuld be rated a lil above NC 16 :oP

act cool for a while :oP

Realization.

i have been givin it a thot while i was shitting just now . . .

I DONT WNA SUCCEED IN FUTURE ANYMORE !!!!!!
^^

why can't i live my life even if i don't succeed and make mega bucks !!!!?
i can still be contented and have money, even if not so much. i dont wna have extra $$$$ to buy my own bags and clothes. all i want is money sufficient to get 2 houses and the rest to my children to live comfortably.

i dont need money for myself cos errrrr. my husband'll have to take care of that.
HA HA HA HA !!!!
i only want enuf cash to buy houses, baby clothes, and everything my children and a pet dog'll ever need. i only wanna stay home and paint. or even do the gardening.

i've thot about it all.

i dont wna work my ass off just to content my materialistic world. i want to live peacefully and very happily, where i can see my plants grow from puny seeds to beautiful flowers and from beautiful flowers to sweet fruits. where i can paint nothing but everything . . just splashes of colors and fingerprints.

i can even take up sewing !!!!

there're sooooooo many things i can do !!!!!

all without having to study my tired ass off for a bright future cos bright future ??

i dont want it.

i want something that no one has.

where it hasnt been planned.

not just graduate, job, filty rich, kids, die.

i want graduate,
relax,
laugh,
love,
marriage,
3 lovely kids,
paint,
garden,
bring children to school and ballet classes,
cook wonderful meals,
love family,
see children married
THEN die.

all these money and more money is gettin a little too cliche it's sick.

first, i will want to earn enough money for houses because one is for my family while another one is for my mother to live near me permanently and also for my brothers to drop by and have BBQs and late night gossips about their own families. AND ALSO FOR THEIR CHILDREN TO BUNK IN !!!!!

HOW LOVELY ~!!!

second, i will want money to travel all around the 3rd world countries. i will need 80% more money for this segment because i want to buy blankets and clothes for the children there. i am plannin to visit africa. and i will bring my children along cos the one thing i expect my children to have is compassion and a kind heart, just like my mother.

thirdly, i want money for a really fab house with swings ( HOW ROMANTIC !!! ) and a really beautiful garden where no gardeners are needed to tend it for me cos i will take up a class on gardening myself ( more money on this. ) and see the weeds are plucked out professionally and the trees grow healthily without the help of the woodpeckers.

lastly, i want money for my kids. where they can get everything they want.

yes. that's the map of my life.

lastly, er. i forgot i need a little more money to buy a lot of books to keep me accompanied and also some more to buy bikes and skates.

yes. that's what i want.

and i'll strive towards that :o)

the beauty in simplicity - that's what i need.

( PS/ MY CUTE SMILIES R BACK !!!!!!!
i had to take my time off resizing the stupid board until the
" Smilies. " option slowly appeared -.- and isnt my ninja cute !!!!!!? ^^ )


me in my future yrs lol !!!!!! mom during her younger days. but i highly doubt i'd look so sweet. i'll probly be doing some crazy twisted face -.-

Blew.

G.I JOE ROCKZ !!!!!!!!

being a part of an interpol is just so amazing blazzzizn !!! pls boldly tell me i have some of these qualities ???
http://www.interpol.int/Public/ICPO/Recruitment/FundamentalCompetencies.asp

people who're dying to have a taste of what all these mega cool interpol ( International Criminal Police Organization. ) is all about shouldnt give this fab show a miss. they not only have these mega cool machines ( that i didn't know existed until now. ) but they also have these super cool scientific thingamajigs that're so cool i dont know what's cooler.

this is my fave after iron man ^^

HA HA HA !!

maybe G.I.J gna take over IM but i dunno. both are so thrillingly smart i'm lost for vocabs -.-

one thing's fosho.

i'm gonna take up martial arts and anything to do with some skills useful to get me recruited.

maybe kick-boxing ??

or even mini ninja stunts ??? ???

it's not gna be easy peasy, i know, cos mr t alr told me and the class that u need to have a squeaky clean history of urself before you can be recruited. the good news is, so far . . . . . .

I HAVENT BROKEN NO LAWS !!!!!

he he he he.

today's SG's national day celebration in school. tell u wot. even tho im not a singaporean, i really am proud of this country :o)

i sung the anthem and recited the pledge silently in my heart and sung ( with a very low pitched voice -.- ) along to

" u, my people, my home. our lives, defend and uphold. may the good we'll achieve, as one people, be shared with the worldddddd~! "

also, watching the slide shows made me realize that even tho there may be times i despise this school for chewing me out, i absolutely adore it at the same time. i don't know, there's this emotional attachment i have towards BV. and the friends. the teachers. the memories. the canteen food. the library. the super clear mirror that always shine me the flaws. the "haunted. " washrooms. the steps i took. the books i've used. the chairs and tables i've used and made a mark. the fans that never cool my seat. the dustbin full of food rappers . .. . oh you name it.

3 months.

3 months is all i have left with to savour these school moments before i'm officially out. PS, if ok, i really dont wna study anymore. im just not made for this. i love to learn new things but i simply hate studying ( unless im good @ it. ) with a passion.

i aint smart academically. but im street smart. very very street smart in fact. hence, i think it'll be the wisest thing if i just give up studying and launch my first step into the real world where my decisions can be heard and seen. i hate to bury my small wee puny tiny mini weak little brain into books. i love knowing more about facts and the analogy between good and evil, greed and compassion, love and hatred blah blah blah. becos i kno for sure, i can excel in things like those. not tests and tests and tests -.-
and just so u kno, i ain't fang-bian-pao-ing ( i donno how u say that in ENG -.- ) .

this is somethin i've felt ever since i entered into the world of knowledge -.-

oh never mind. becos whatever it is, i'm still stuck in school -.-

i really long to get out and start working w whoever willing to hire me . .. i'm thinking mom and kevin bro -.-

lisa smart :

" mom, I HAVE 6 MONTHS OF HOLIDAY AFTER MY EXAMS !!!!!! can u help me ask kevin bro if he's willing to teach me about business ?? "

mom elated :

" really ??? thats good, i'll ask him. the house now has become semi-office so you don't have to move around ! u can just stay at home and learn ! "

lisa over the moon :

" REALLY ???? GOODIE ! cos i dont want to work in SG. cos i can only get a job in KFC and the pay's very low, only 3.5 an hr. "

mom changing her mind :

" KFC ??? u shuld stay there and work !!! "

lisa beaten :

" WHY ?????? i dont want to stay here . . . i want to come back home . . "

mom funny :

" cos if u work in KFC, they'll teach u to be fast !!! ur actions are so slow but if u gain some experience in KFC, 你的动作就会很快了啊！！！ "

-.-

dearie ol mom is expecting me to stay in SG to work in some fast food chains so i can learn to be swift in my movements -.-

haven't anyone told her i can gain the speed by doing some martial arts ??????? ugh.

so the thing is, im dying for these long torturing Os to be over and then, i can kiss ma azz BB to SG !!!! for 6 months !!!!! woopeee. this is all gna be so fun. street wise lisa, here i come ~!!!!

ok. reality check :

i'm still stuck in my school uniform -.- ugh.

PS, i am dead broke. i havent bought my dear old bean curd this whole week :o( i need a tenner !!!!! should i offer the neighbours i could flower their gardens hmm ????? or even wash their cars ??? these are so much better for my brains than studying, really -.-

sigh sigh sigh big sigh, im still stuck in my school u -.-

the joy of discovering you,

i didn't know how to react.

i wanted to show u i care,

but all i could do was stare.

to know you have noted the presence,

now i linger for it to be present.
the sad thing is,
i never knew i could be such a schnook;

living in oblivion,

hoping it won't be short-lived.

day by day, i always delay;

until the day, u no longer play.

now, all i'm left with is emotions.

these waves that're threatening to flood

the whole entire nation fast.

now, all i can say is,
" now that i want you,
you're moving on. "

AGAIN.

ugh -.-

CIP.

from KK.

KK's place before reno.

underneath JX aunt's house while i was staying there.

chips before night keeps the nightmares away.

taken by KK out of the windows 21 levels high up.

goin ovr to her guardian's house, the day shes movin in to the new home.

shifting in !!!

sleepin over @ her's.

angie.