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SHULD I GET THE BANGS BACK ON ?????

im dyin 4 a new hair style but im waitin 4 prom 2 b over b4 doin tt cos my hair-plan 4 prom needs a good bunch of hair . . . dang my bones are aching. ivr been up since last night. good night ANW !!! i meeting someone special tmr so i need to sleep now :o)



when when when is it my turn ?? *_*

Everything . .. n-nader looong entry ahead.

YOZAH ALOHA !


i just got up -.-

ive been havin one hell of a sleepin pattern. im like a newborn owl. i sleep when the sun comes up and i awake only when the sun sets -.-
my skin, needless to mention, is so fabulos lookin !

pimples are popping everywhere, eyebags are bulging, size of my eyes are smaller than they already are and i have . . . panda eyes.
for once in my life, i can actually spot a panda eye -.-

KK always asks me to triple check if her panda eyes r visible but all i see is a normal pair of eyes. other girlies also complain that the exams are givin them the panda eyes but again, all i c r pairs n pairs of normal lookin eyes.

sometimes they'll even tell me my panda eyes r showin but all i c . . . is my own normal pair of eyes. NO PANDAS R GRWOIN IN THERE R THEY ???

but today, i took a look in2 the mirror n my my ~

PANDA EYES !!!!!

STARING RIGHT BACK AT ME !!!!!!

AAAARGHHHZ ~! monsterous man.


anyway, i was so buzy last night.

despite my killer cramp, i had to clear KK's room.
we've been leavin one hell of a mess it's a killer to actually just see lest livin in there -.- we've only done the talkin " we'll clean we'll ckean. " but lazy us didnt quite got the zest to do it until yst, i came back from the airport, bought period-armour from guardian's, popped in my pills n started workin like wonderwoman.

threw all the paper-carriers, the wrappers, the tissue papers, the tags, the strands of hair, the cloths, the isolated bits of stationeries o u name it. i even changed KK's sheets tho the blanket's a lil out. i cant seem to spot the head n tail of the cover string ~!!!

threw dozens of clothes in2 the washing machine.
everything turned out fine.
i hung em up n went to the get the second batch of bedsheets n they were dirty so i thot i shuld higher the power of the machine.

i pressed wash 3 times, rinse 6 times. the sheets were big so i hoped that'll get em really clean n smell good. the machine said it'll be done after 42 minits so i went to have a shower. after that, watched some movies online. i got hungry so i decided to get some bread 2 eat. while walkin 2 e kitchen, i suddenly thot of those washing machines disasters in films. i was afraid it'd happen to me. so i quickly ran in2 the kitchen n there it was.

the bloody machine was rumbling at top speed !!!!!

as i got closer,,,,,,
fuck fuck fuck fuck damnit.

THE KITCHEN WAS MINI-FLOODED !!!!!!

i just cunt believe it !!!
of all things i just have to fail at such a simple task dont i !?
i quickly gave it an open circuit n cut off the water supply. i had to mop the floor zzz. when i opend the machine, fuck damnit.
the sheets were still soapy zzzz _l_.
so then i had to rewash em. this time, i played safe.
i clicked wash 2, rinse 1. ugh.

anyway. ha ha, im actually talkin kitchen here zzz -.-lll
told u im growin older :oP

so ANW ~!

prom's on wednesday. still quite a long time to go.
im only shopping for the clothes on sunday. i guess im a lil not so xcited againz i donno. im bored stiff. i aint got no one to meet . . .
now that KK's in BKK,
im literally dyin of boredom -.-
i spend my time watching movies online.
some old some chinese some korean some youtube n shit so lemme do some emotional release aye. n anyway it'been long since i last did a long entry so ye.

many things have been coming in2 my mind clearer now that im alone n aware.

KK's oways been tellin me that after O's, im gonna be like her.
no worries . . . just relaxed n there werent be any more of the school uniforms life. but i didnt even kno how it'd feel like back then. but now that O's r really officially over,,,,,
SCHOOL'S REALLY OFFICIALLY OUT 2 !!!
back then when u r bored, u can actually solve some math probs n read some texts but now, i dont even wna do tt ! it's not tt i H8 it. it's just there aint no more reasons 2 do tt get it ?

it's the official next phase of our lives.

this is the phase that we've always yearned for but now tt it's here,
im aktualli kinda missin the previous one :o(

at least goin to school's like a mission or somethin. i had a reason to wake up in the mornin . . now tt school's out, i dont hav a proper reason to wake up. i dont hav the reason to do anythin. i dont have a reason to sleep early. i dont have the reason to DO ANYTHING.

im actually only idling my time away.
now i can proprely define my life-cycle as " Idling Away. "

realli there aint nuffin i do. i only stare in2 the space.

n now tt there aint no more schoolin,
m i goin spend e rest of my life like this ??

ugh.
this is SOOOOooOoOoO not wot i was lookin 4ward 2 :o(


ppl are sayin " It's time to party ! "

but party ????
gosh. u dont really want to party for the rest of yr life right ???

i mean. get a grip.

partying everyday is as useless as a strand of fallen hair.
fine. weird xample but get the point. even sleepin's more exciting -.-

ok. i get it. im a total killjoy but hey. im speakin SENSE.

if i've thot tt partyin'd do me good, i'd've been doin tt right ?
but guess wat ??

I'M NOT


so ? point is . . . .. . . . ???????

beats me i aint got no idea. go figure it yrself.

i kno partyin sounds wild n exotic but nah . . .
doesnt do the works for me ;o)


ok next topic !

ha ha ha, im in an odd mood rght now, realli.

frankly, ive been quite disappointed in miself.
i culdnt even save a single bit of my money.
now im left w xactly 39 $ with 2 5-cent coins -.- and o yes ive been a lying bitch as well -.-

momsie called n asked if i dared to sleep alone. told her i def do. she asked what time i woke up today n i told her 11am. she asked if i've had my meals. told her i did. she asked what, i said ban-mien cos she knos i like it. she asked me if i still have sufficient money to buy food, i told her im still left with 200 god im such a bum. this is bad real bad. im useless. NO IM NOT EMO !!!! ha ha ha ha gosh. PS, all my entries are not written in the i-wna-end-my-life-so-bad-way. if u kno me, i dont have tt kinda manner in speakin.
i only joke. ha ha.

ok lah. i guess it's all for today. no pics. if not you'll get frightening nightmares for the rest of yr life !!!!

im not kidding either !
























jas thawat n i up there.
ha ha ha uncle thawat showin off his new winter clothes -.-
FUCKER !!!!! I ALSO WANT !!! ha ha ha. realli gd to talk 2 em again tho s2upid jas wasnt so keen 2 chat w me. fucker. he only want talk to ploy.
ha ha ha idiot.

ok GTG ~!
time to collect the clothes n hang up those big sheets.
dang naw tts somethin im so not lookin 4ward to :oP

fuck.

cramp :'o(

UPD8 later. m gna rest for a while or else i'm gna die. fuck fuck fuck.
i go eat medz first.

LOOOONG ENTRY.

WAAAWAAAWEEEEEEE ~!!!!!!!

NOW I KNO HAW JAW FEELS WHEN HE SAYS WAA WAA WEEEE IM SO HAPPY I DONT KNO I SHULD CRY OR LAUGH !!!!! ^^^^^

my blood's been goin stale for a long period of time.
a few weeks ago, i was :

5) stuck at home
12) gobbling story books in bed
14) just lazin around at home

and even if i had the time, i didnt hav

a) the energy
b) the mood
nor the
c) money to go shopping.

but just after O's, momsie rewarded me w a thousand bucks cos she said i shuld be having some emergency cash w me in case of emergencies ( bank only left w $1.01 -.- ) so i told myself i'm gna deposit it the moment i get it.

but alas, after i moved in to KK's there aint no sign of POSBs in sight !!! so i told myself
" it's ok, it's ok. u are fab at self control. just take care of yr $$$. dont anyhow spend. "
so i managed to keep to my words for 3 days, only spendin 200 on taxi fares and food fares. these are essentials so ok not much biggie but alas !!! yst at cotton on n esprit i've alr spent 300$ n today ??? merry christmas.
outta the 1K, im left w 57.80$
grrrrrrrrr
-.- _l_

i just dont understand why money, money y do u hav to be s0o0o0o0o0 bloody damn stubborn ???? why cant u remain as ive instructed ? y r u just so bloody obnoxious n abandon mi aaargz !?????? my mature armour importantz :

there i was buyin happily cos the staff was really fab ! she shud be given the star-awards or somethin. she was there recommendin n explainin n stuff i got so carried away. i initially thot i bought like a tonne of hair accessories but when i got back, that was all i have -.- it costed 125$. but im happy cos these clips are really mature-looking. ha ha ha, yes im tryin to make myself appear older if u havent realized. at least this is what i got as condolenses :
sori i pixelated my pin ^^
anw, girls check this shop out ! sure will foget your boyfriends one !!!!!!
well for a while at least :oP
it's all jewellica but the bad thing about jewellic accessoies's that these jewels drop out easily dont they ? so Surpassing's got this forever-free-unlimited service of planting those blings back eveytime it falls. cool aye !
i think i for sure every week purosely pluck out the jewels for therepeutic reasons lor. ha ha.
i got momsie this :
and this for meself :
this can be used for normal bun or the classik air-stewardess french-twist. bloody elegantze.

some of the hair-ties that i like . .
teeny tiny pink ribbon-hair-tie.
tiny flower-printed band.
anyway, KK's worse than me !!!!!!

ha ha ha, that crazy shopaholic spent $330 on
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A BEAR FACTORY -.-

HA HA HA HA HA !
but i must say it's a real cute shop !!!
u get to choose little hollow bears and then stuff them full of cottons to make them puffy before making a wish in 2 pieces of hearts n sealin it in to the bears' bodies. i wished for KK n Í's dieting plan to b successful FYI. the bears are like babies in the sense that once they're " born. " ( hollow bodies stuffed full of cotton. ) we get to buy clothes for them before givin em a baby shower ( brushin their fur under strong fan. ) n then givin em names ( KK named em PiPi and Beilo for her sis n bro. ). ha ha, they even issue a birth cert lol !!
KK was too shy to do it so she asked LaLa to prepare the whole procedure :o)

KK goin krazy over bear-clothes.
this is how the cotton's stuffed in2 e hollow body.

after the bears are up in size, they're then dressed w the clothes you've decided u want em to wear.

wickedly naked ~!! stupid bears. they look so gloriously naked -.-

LaLa dressin the bears. yes, thats the bears' dressing room -.- ^^

n LaLa, the staff's real humorous lol.

n ta-daaah ! KK plays happy-family :oD

after the baby shower, we'll have to register their births.

C THEY EVEN HAVE SUCH CUTE KEYBOARDS !!!! HA HA HA.

TA-DAAAAH. THE PARENTS.
ta-daaah the certz !
now, let us all enjoy their love story . .

THE STORY OF BEARLY-LOVE.

they both shared the same love for sports. went for trainings and competitions together. they both could share their wins and loses cos they both knew how they'd feel in each others' shoes. but as years passed by and the medals became a world-wide display, something within them blossomed too. unsure if it's what they think it is, they took it slow. but they knew deep within em tt they might be needin a big house to store their medals shuld somethin happen.


they were still as close until finally, one day . . . .
both ended up goin home together after a year-end dinner. undeniably, both knew how they felt abut each other but unlike any others, their love was comfortable. there was no need to conceal anything. both culd talk on and on and still feel as tho they havent even opend their mouths. they didnt brand themselves as " boyfriend girlfriend. " cos they both kno how they feel about each other. w\o any silly delays,

they both got hitched.
this pic may not seem happy but as u kno, the bride n the groom are most shy on their wedding night :oP

not soon later, they flew over to hawaii for their honeymoon. they spent blissful time together, estatic that both are finally officially each others'

so anw. they slept n the end. they're half naked. can c right ????
babies' on the way. let's c aft 9 mnths what happens ^^

anywayz !!! back to o borin human life.

THIS IS A REAL CUTE CAP !!!

even tho i kno i aint much of a sports-girl but think of the harm the sun is gonna do to my already-bad hair if i have to play basketball all of a sudden !!! i might even accompany my bros to play golf n visit the zoo so i need all the protection i can get. whats more is i might even be encouraged to take up sports waddaya think !? wicked aye !? as u all kno, i m a mad-cyclist. i jog i run i cycle i play sports like a . . . . . .. PRO.

some tees from MNG. it's a lil biker style in reality. pic not sharp enuf.

KK n I dining cos stomachs spoke to us o well.
this is a really cute place BTW !!!

its settin is of olden china days. v heart-warming. even the workers are dressed as olden maidens how much more cuter can they get !!!?? the only spoiler is their cutleries. dont match at all. they're a bit too modernized for this setting but o well. no biggie . .

ta-daah c wot i told u !
there there. c the workers !!!? so cute aye !!!! so short n oldie cute lookin :oP
er stupid idiot. the worker is not the girl above in black hor. there. is the one at the far far end. the pose a bit gangstaish one. HA HA HA.

look. this is the olden big g8. ha ha, even the color's accur8.
and look at the latch too. arty man.

tryin be healthy.
FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE NOPE I AINT COMPLAININ ABT ME FEELIN FOOL DOPE !

okay ~! ANW i guess thats all. it's already 9.03am. ive spent my whole night doin this entry. i fell asleep for awhile at 4 am tho brr -.-

cunt w8 2 wear em ! tho its a different style from what i always wear. no more messy alr. now is as neat as a neat girl. thats me yo. well new me at least. ive always kno there ws this neat blood in me. im neat yo. thnk u. er lame. er watev. anyway.

heres my lousy short clip cos i was asked 2 choose a new bear suddenly zzzz.

i got this off utube. it's the xact same procedure, steps but different location.

KK IS THE NEW LEAD IN NEW MOON HA HA HA HA HA HA !!!!!!

pitiful rob-fans :oP
im a die-hard team jacob so my heart's still intact no worries :oP

anyway, just a quick UPD8 here.
i m goin 2 prom afterall. . . THE ZEST IS FINALLY BACK MADERFUKERZ !!!! ok pardon the french i just felt like shoutin out loud :oP
i m goin 2 be shoppin 4 a dress alone tmr while i wait 4 KK 2 finish her school. i'm only left w 500 $ out of the 1000 $ momsie gave me on nov 11th -.-

i dont know why $$$ hav 2 be so damn stubborn to flow right thru my fingers :oS it's like they're on a mission to flee or somethin n i can only watch helplessly. dont even hav the chance to kiss em GB -.-

anywayz, ive decided 2 go cos moomsie said she doesnt want me to be regretful of my hasty decision. the main reason y i didtnt wna go initially wuz cuz i've waited so longlingly 4 i till i've gone numb, secondily, 'm evading the whole damn occasion cos im still stuck in this fat body o mine -.- but i dont want to be tellin my kids that i skipped my prom altogether just cuz i looked fat.
y'kno haw shallow tt sounds ?
i shuldnt beso shallow wallow yellow -.-
" well mommie didnt go cuz well u c mommie was fat. "
sounds pathetic even to my own ears _l_
just this night to remember the whole thing i guess . . no biggie no biggie.

i've alr asked my guardian 2 book me a ticket back to BKK on 24th ; a few hours after prom ^^^^

yoooooookay ~!!

today went to buy some lousy shirts. got really cute PJs frm cotton on body but it's useless realli. im like wearing prettily for my soft toys -,- _l_
got a dress from esprit which is mature i guess. this is reserved for dining with mom's friends. they xpect me to be v girlie mirlie lilly -.- realli im loud, violent n im macho HA HA HA HA HA ! n i have to pretend to be damn feminie so sod it. just one dress. no biggie miggie . . anw i really do look much mature in it. w my hair up i'll look 20ish. w my hair loosely curled i'll be my age - 19. HA HA HA ! only a few months away i might s well start tellin e whole worl i m 19 ^^^^

anyway ~! i guess i m goin 2 sleep now. have to wake up at 7.30 tmr to accompany KK to thai embassy so by-byez !

PS, mom asked me to buy a full year's ticket HA HA HA HA. my dear ol ridiculous mom :=)
cant w8 to see her :o)