heya !!

ok I'm sorry it's been quite I while since my last UPD8 here. I was too BZ with god knows what. the night after zouk I was just resting, and the day before school I was rushing like mad for my assignment. turns out I'm a dag late for submission anyway. which goes to say, 20% deduction fuck my life. and guess what !?? I just saw the notes the lecturer gave which stated the formats for submission and I fuckin didn't do it that way. know what... I'm prepared to retake this sem fuck me.

pictures !!!!

went to the zoo with sunny shafiqa and nurul. met up with aloysius after that and sunny me and A watched the girl w the dragon tattoo like finally !!!! the original was way better tho.

and we can fade into darkness

we talked, we walked
we drunk, we swayed
we hugged, we spoke


tonight i truly understood the meaning of " our bodies clicked. " not in the sensual way but ugh. im still a virgin FYI HA HA HA


you held me tight and we just walked
you held me tight we just clicked
you held me tight and i felt safe ( kinda. )
you held me close and i finally let loose. ( a little. )


hand in hand we simply stayed


if i were still young, tonight would have been almost perfect. but i ain't the foolish teenager that worships love and believes it with all her might no more.


i am now the different me. 


you forcing me to look into your eyes, i, being afraid just turned away
you saying how you like me hugging you from the back, i, just shying away eventually
you, looking right into me and singing out
you whispering god knows what into my ears


and all the while i just felt strangely calm


we walked out hand in hand, and into a condo that were unknown to us and just chilled at the pool. there we just laid. it was all great...


but somehow i'm just sorry..


i'm just too darn afraid to love.

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okay hi guys !!!! i just got back from an amazing night out ! pictures later, i need to think thru a lot of stuff man.

 i left my smashbox foundation in BKK so i had to borrow my aunt's l'oreal lol. fuck it's good !!! ima go buy it when i can !!!

 was contemplating on if i shuld let my hair loose..

 but decided against it.

 i've got this lovely top for almost half a year with the tag still intact but yesterday was the first time i showed it off LOL. nice !????

 end product.

 close up of make up. i was just spamming all the colors on my face lol.

 with jolin !

 with them guyzzzz.

 i just realized mr whitie's quite a hottie fuck !!!

 them faggots.

 the game i still cant master zzz.

 out on the dance floor where i pretty much just stood. HA HA HA HA. i lousy @ dancing lah fuck.

the view of the early mornin..

 mr jase was waiting for me to get back lol, not as sweetas it sounds he just didnt have the keys to enter the house LOL.

 good bye !!!

mobile uploads !

well u guessed right I have absolute no life im here in macdonald's stealing their wifi LOL :X

ha ha ha the internet @ home was pretty amazing juz now ( pics from the previous entry were all taken w my cam. ) but it juz deteriorated man. so here's me doin mobile uploads chiao !

almost 21.

YOOOOO !!!

ok, happy new year's eve ! met up with all of my old friends last night albeit for a short time. brought jase to my school ( cus we were heading out later. ) and when i entered the class shafiqa handed me a little parcel and i was like, " why for CNY ah !!! " cos they're all malays and im the only chinese lol.. ha ha ha but then they were all like, " eh, not today ah ?? " so then they went to check my FB and then i knew it was for my birthday LOL :X

ha ha ha, i was honestly shocked and touched man. it's been ages since i last celebrated my birthday, hence, needless to say, received any birthday gifts ( aside from moms and KK. ) from others so i was juz goddamn flabbergasted XD and utterly touched -sniff sniff-

ANW ! after school shafiqa and i headed to town for lunch\dinner where i met aloysius & his friend, farah and lawrence & jerome HA HA HA yes it's in chronological order fuck me -..-

ANW !!!! shant type too much i needa help jase get ready for his school.

EXCITED 4 TMR NIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a strong sense of nostalgia

one taken in bei jing ( somewhere in nov last year. ) B4 heading out to shisha, the other taken a week ago in singapore, after heavy drinking and finally goin' to bed ~~

me mish eu sobz