I Decide Lyrics.
Don't think that you can tell me what to think
I'm the one who knows what's good for me
And I'm stating my independence
Gonna take the road I'm gonna take
And I'm gonna make my own mistakes
It's my life.
I decide
I decide how I live
I decide who I love
The choice is mine.
And no one gets to make my mind up.
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need, who I know
I'm the one who's running my life.
I decide
I decide
ave been living life real messed up with the term " friendship. " recently and it's difficult to fuckin' please everyone and so im finally gonna be heeding the advice of changin myself for the ones i treasure only. i realized don't make good friends. they are really petty. and i have bin called obnoxious by my fellow ex friend whom im dumping for life vice versa. i havent talked about this cos it seemed pointless to mention something about me that you 2 cant stand but lemme point this out. you dont have to reply it back to me in your blogs shietsoever. since you guys are so petty, and whereas im always havin sucha big heart, then i guess it's best we seper8 ways. i pretty am damn sure it's your choice too aint ? funny you 2 are, really. i mean, it's my person to alwyas be l8. and just becos of that tiny shot we end our friendship ? holy, what kinda " friendship. " is that ? what is friendship to you ? like, take this for instance. you always pick at my favo food and simply becos of that, i call it an end to our friendship that is made up of so many other things. dont you see it's so damn " fake." ? i dont kno any other words to describe but hey. simply becos you always pick @ my food, i end everything. what do i give you an impression of our friendship ? just based on the food ? dont i resemble someone who dont treausre our frienship that is built up all along the years ?im not doing any comparisons here but what about KK ? ive been l8 for over an hour everytime i meet her but she doesn't just fuck me off ? she doesn't go " fuck you bitch. you're always late for everything. you're wasting a friggin quatre of my life waiting for you. i think we shuld go seperate ways since you're never early. "
it's bloody damn . . . . . . . . . . . ..... . . . ( i dont ever use this but here it is for this case. ) y'kno ?
farah too. she's spent her precious time waiting for me for more than how many hours ? she doesn't just fuck me off either ? she doesn't go " fuck you bitch. you're always late. dont think im born to wait for you, you stinky shit. fuck off. we shall end our friendship since u r A-L-W-A-Y-S wasting my time. " ?
and so what about so many other people that waited for me ? my mom ? my brothers ? my teachers ? huh ?
so please. if you wanna call it an end, realize the reason why you're doing before deciding and announcin them to me cos it doesnt make me feel sad but really odd that you are so petty. ending what we hav for a single thing. i won't ever break with you even if i SPEND not WASTE 8 hours of my day waiting for you cos everythime i meet ? i dont go counting the times i SPENT not WASTED on you but how much fun we had and the memories we left. but we 3 are so different. i dont judge on punctuality but u 2 do. it's just like we're hanging out wit the wrong crowds. but it's been long and let's just forget about it. this is gonna go no where but that's for having you 2 as friends for quite sum time. becos just 6 days ago, i lost 2 of the people i used to treasure and i have no intention of gettin them back. and you will never understand the pain and anger you 2 left me with when you 2 walked away. just like how it goes, memories will fade one day, but the hurt you left will always be permanant. do not call me when you 2 need help cos i wont be there. instead, i will drag you 2's precious time so. have fun.
and this thing i will n-e-v-e-r forget. you dont and will never kno how it feels when i looked out to you all the while when i was in the bus on the way home but of all the seconds i looked, you fuckin only looked at your friend. and as the bus drove away, i still looked at you to say good bye but you only waved goodbye to her. and culd you believe i still looked at you thinkin you'd turn back at me to wave goodbye ? ha, i must have been the biggest fool. but did i give you any shit ? i fucking believe i don't. and do i end our friendship simply becos of that ? oh yes i did i did ???? ha. please. when i treasure somethin, i dont take into consideration one tiny shit and allow that to affect our relationships.
i thot the day would end so happily and i was so over the planets when i knew we could all make it and finally have the funny miss swan moments we used to have but it had to end tragically in tears. i dont wish to mention this case anymore but 1 thing's fo sho. you 2 enjoy your life. wthout me. good bye to the people whom i treasured.
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i've been pretty damn stressed up these few days. friends who dont understand really suck. sometime ive been so angry and hurt to the extent of just banging my head on the wall and end all my friendships i have with everybody ( no joke. ) it is really damn annoying. a tells me ever since K came in here, i have neglected her and him and it and shit to be with K. 2 tells me i have done this fuck shit whatever !!!!!!! oh fuck it. if you're not happy then simply fuck off !!! damn. this shit is killing me lemme tell you this. KK is someone i have treasured and been friends with since i was in myanmar when we both were 2 little girls. so if you think i am gonna neglect her for any of your wasted trips, then you are proved wrong. doesn't this sound like you and your friends of 5 years are great friends and when i come into the light, you're gonna spend more time with me simply becos we're new friends ?? no, no. thats not how it works. i am someone who dont live to pleasure people that come into my life fresh. i treasue my old friends. KK understands my time limits. she forces me to go home so i wuldnt be punished. becos she's understanding, i dont wish to say about you.
have a great life 2 peepos. you 2 will rock the world. go get some fun with friends who dont waste your time. peasout.
