o manz !!! cant i just hav a tiny miny inch of megan fox pretti pls ?????? (o*__*o)
she's bloody sxc aaarghz.
im damn sure ppl watch jennifer's body just 2 gorge @ her lor.
ha ha ha ha ha.
e guys in e theatre were oooohin n aaaaahin @ her smexy scenes lol. i wuldnt b surprized if i had 2 waddle my way outta e theatre in e pool of saliva. he he.

anyway. the show's ok, nothin grand about e story line but 4 those who need a role model 2 work 2wards 2,
this show shuld b watched. no need 2 r8 e movie. just look at megan. n wish. n wish , n wish still . . .
ha ha ha.

anywayz ! my sleepin pattern's been goin haywire againz. i've been sleepin @ 4 in e mornin cos i'll b BZ playin snakes on mi fone !!
aaaghz.
havent played 4 quite awhile n im still stuck at lvl 22, e stupid circuit lvl -.-
bloody snake just refuse 2 stop banging on e wall n the stupid timer keeps explodin on me -.-
tho im proud 2 b the numero uno on e high score list. ha ha ha. isnt it funny. im competing w myself -.-
but to those who play Nokia Snakes thats's developed by IOMO studio, my highest score is 580,945 leh !!!!
ha ha ha ha, n this high score was ahieved only since 2 measly nights ago ok. ^__^

speakin of games, ive been dyin 2 play SIMS. i read jas's games megazine n just by lookin at ah. HAIZZZZZZ.

anyway. ive been thinkin. i think m gna get a gamin laptop next. i wanted 1 w good memory space, sound system n wide screen last time cos i'd be up bloggin more than half e day but now its different.
i dont blog s often s i used 2.
im goin 2 be up playin games instead.
ive quit playin RC in facebk cos this comp is 2 laggy. guardian said he got this desktop thats not too quick in motion to capture games or wotsoev e right technical term it is. point is, he siad he didnt wna get a 2 fab comp 4 gamin cos then jas'd b up all night n day gamin away . .

anyway. ive been survivin in e 5th world country recently. everything is dyin on mi.
my fone's spoilt 2 e xtend of neglectance.
my camera's battery is acting crazy.
KK's MP4 cant function properly ( she's loaned it 2 me since last yr.) overall, i need a technical replenish. errr. whatev tt means -.-
but sounds quite cool i must admit.
HA HA HA HA !!
TECHNICAL REPLENISHO ~!

ok.
i need a new fone. but i dont kno which. 2 many ppl r usin ifone n the E-Nseries fones. i want a sidekick but i need to go all the way to america 2 get it -.-
which is rather impossible -.-
then there's this fone that came out like when i was in p5-6 ?? the business-style fone by nokia. the goldie slide. slim slim one. also metallic. cold cold one.
back then it was 1k plus but now i dnno how much it costs.
but the flipside is :
i dont think it has a gd camera n sound quality. arghz. i dont kno how 2 choose. KK said e latest N97 mini is pretty cool. it's sort of like e sidekick i want but i feel the " push factor " is 2 hardcore. like a fake fone like that. the sliding-pushing thingamajig isnt v smooth like how i want mine 2 be . . .
i know i kno.
my technical terms are so profound u need 2 consult ur
" Crazy-Dumb-Tweet Teachician Dicktionary. "
-.-

sign. . . . if only i knew Mr Nokia. he'd design a fone 4 me . . now how cool wuld that be hmm ?
*__*
wishful thinkings aside, yipee yoop yoop !!!
O's ending soon ~!!!!!!!
weeeeeeeee ~~~~~

dear Jesus, thank you.
my mother is well now :o)
her health check-ups including a brain scan prove positive. she's well now even her voice sounded chirpy ^_^
she's so well now tt in fact, she was climbing a moutain last night when she called me -.-
HA HA HA HA.



i think my mom is like me when she was younger. doesnt bother 2 do anything including talkin when we're sick but once we're well,
zoooooooooom ~! we can b so xtreme -.-

oki. im happy cos she's happy. my family's like so dispersed. like the pollen n flower thingamajig. o !! i remember jason readin 2 me his science notes.
" flaura and fauna. "
ha ha ha, watev tt means.
sounds flowerish. so.

mom bringin granny 2 tai wan 4 a hol.
jaw bro in myanmar preparin 4 his future.
jas fag in thailand mustering e courage 2 ask ploy out 4 a movie.
me in singapore smilin at herself foolishly thinkin abt her family. arghz.

ok. i wnat go alr lah. e longer i stay, e more rubbish i tend 2 spurt out zzzz.

PS,
jaw, if u r readin my blog, KK asks u 2 add her up in facebook !!! she can't seem 2 find ur profile.
donno why. but u r in my friend list. but e amazing thing is, u r like invisible 2 her. donno why :-O
anyway. she said 2 tell u ur pictures r nice :o)
n she misses hanging out tgt like e last time when we all went 2 penin 2 eat n e " draw tattoo " day ^^
hope 2 c u soon ~!!!

anyway. ive been reminded of u these few days. i might not even have noticed it until KK told me.
all along i was blinded 2 e brotherly-love u shower me w.
i thot it was just an action that doenst mean much . .
but now i think of it n i regret not cherishing e moments.

i remember u were always there 2 call me n ask me how ive been doin when we were seperated.
there u were in newton n here i was in toh yi. but u never failed 2 turn up everyday at 6.30pm 2 have dinner w me.
back then i was reluctant to go out but if time could rewine n give me another chance, i promose i wuld never have done something like that again. you were always there bringing chips and snacks for me everytime u met me. u even gave me money when u were tight w it urself.
thank you, gor. for being there endlessly without me knowing.
love u !!!! hope every thing will go well 4 u.

u may not kno it but mom loves u just e same as she loves me n jas.
in fact i think she dotes on u except u arent aware of it.
e last time i was in thailand w her,
she called u n scolded u without knowin e truth abt ur tuiton fee ?
ya, u didnt spend e tuition fee but she thot u spent it so she was angry . . . . . but she did e mistake of not askin u first if u did.

so u 2 quarelled over it over e fone.
i was there bside her all along.
after u 2 hung up, her face was filled w so much pain i had 2 go 2 e toilet or else she'd kno ive been crying.
but e thing u didnt c was, she was havin this xpression i ave never seen her have b4 in my life.
she then stuttered. " ha .. . ha. ge ge mei you na na ge qian. "
i culd only mutter an " Orh. "
cos what else culd i say . .. i didnt kno where 2 think.

she then called u back n passed me e fone,
askin me 2 ask u if u wanted anythin from thailand cos u were there all alone in myanmar. but e thing is, u didnt know mom was so regretful of her outburst she thot she culd aplogize by buying u things that u liked so you n her could end e cold war n wished that bad confrontation had nvr occured . . . but u were furious w her 4 not findin out e truth first. so u didnt want anything that's from her. u shouted those hurtful words about her so i had 2 once again, leave her room and walk out 2 e balcony tryin 2 shift my attention on e sky outside. e thing u didnt kno was, while i was still in her room talkin 2 u, she was looking at my expressions so intently, as tho she wants 2 make out what you were sayin.

when i came back 2 her, she looked up at me hopefully, w an uncertain smile on her face, asking me " na me. . ge ge yao shen me mah ? "
i culd only say " orh, ta shuo bu yao shen me le. "
she then asked " ta you jiang shen me mah ? mama yi wei shi ta na na ge qian qu yong . . qi shi ta mei you na. "
i said " orh. zhen de ah. ta mei jiang shen me. ta zhi shuo ta dong xi dou gou le. "

if she knew u were still mad at her, im sure she wuldnt even b able 2 go 2 bed, let alone face herself in e mirror before she goes 2 bed.

everytime she's mad at u, im certain she's aching at the back of her, cryin and blamin herself for havin 2 scold u but all she wants is for u 2 go on e right path. all she wants is not 4 us 2 end up like dad.
n thats why she has 2 be strict when it comes 2 bad habits like smoking and drinking. she'd just collapse when she sees you, jason and i turn into crazy alcoholics n 24\7-drunkards.

she doesnt want me to be too pressurized in my work but i cant help feeling so lost and hopeless. it's like theres a part of me thats insufficient 2 reciprocate her love for us. i know ive been sayin i love her n i love her but i dont believe i LOVE her without some " proof. "

so here i am, wanting u 2 know that mother loves us.
it's just that e way she loves us is different from others.
she doesn't say " i love u my sweet children ! "
or kiss us on e foreheads 2 show her love.
the love she showers on us abundantly is hidden. it's like . .. it's like secret messages that have to be decoded by no one but ourselves.
if not, we're just gonna go on thinkin she's never loved us like how we hope she had.

i agree she's moody at times n she gets irritated by us at a single touch but those are her moments of anxiety when her business are goin downspiral. i myself also feel dejected eveytime shes like that but i told myself she's worried sick for one reason n one reason only.

she culdave just stopped all these mundane chores of guarding over her lands and let dad take em over but if she did,
we won't be where we are now . . gettin what we want easily with a snap of our fingers. she's doing all these extra worryings, adding wrinkles and age that does so much 2 her face just for US. she doesnt want us to be abandoned by people that are always waiting for her to fail and collapse . . she doesnt want us to be alone when none of our kins are left in this world . . . when we are old and she is gone . . if she stopped workin, we won't get e cahnce to study abroad. we'd end up like ah-san-jiu, leadin life aimlessly. without any respect from people.

the thing is, she wants us to succeed and be looked up and admired by dad's people. esp his loser-family. even when dad is acting like a complete bastard, she doesnt want us to stop loving him because she doesnt want us to lack e father-figure in our lives. she doesnt want us to feel we are fatherless. she's even asked us to support him when he's old and penniless. which try as i might, will never be done sincerely becos i will never 4give u win han n that mother-fucking whore and their bunch of cunt-faced children that's robbed us off of our family-ties.

when i first told her about my prom night this year, the first thing that escaped her mouth was,
" hhhhhhheegh ( e sign mama always uses :o) ) kan mah. ru guo gorgor hai zai singapore du shu ne hua, ta ye shi kor yi ke chang jia ne ah... "

anyway. i guess this is all for my emotional rantings.
i hope you are well and dont forget to be reminded that behind all the beautiful sceneries, there's a little butterfly thats always hovering above at the distant,
guarding over the flowers, the grasses and you.
the butterfly is us, gor.
we love you.
ok, that might be an odd example but still . . . :o)
i hope u r well. please update your journal becos i always read ur entries :o) i never fail to. :o)

taken off frm bro's facebk.

HI.

dang. itz becumin a habbit 2 surf e internet (-.-)''

m gna jot down my feelin 4 math 2day.

IT SUCKKED.

not e paper.
paper wuz pretti EZ but i just dint how 2 do em -.-
i donnno haw 2 solve :o(

im wierd. i slept at 4am on sun doin math papers but e day right b4 math ? i became a goodie 2 shoe n slept @ 12am. got up @ 11am but i wuz still feelin groggy so i went 2 bed n thot of stuff till 1pm b4 gettin ready 4 schl. ive been feelin really down aft mom's call last night.

it's left me w an emotion so raw i cunt ged over it. here i m wastin my time, my youth n my mom's $$$. there she is worryin over us, wastin her youth, earnin $$$. instead of makin use of my time in SG 2 gain some knowledge, i m here playin my days away.

she asked me how my english paper was. i told her it was tough. she then told me this without a minit of hesitation or a second of a chance 2 xplain myself on why i thot it wuz tough. she simply said :

" It is ok, Joyce. You don't have to worry about it too much, ok ? As long as you have tried to do it, it is all right. Don't assert too much pressure on yourself. Mommy doesn't care if you get high marks, don't be too pressurized. "

it always pains me 2 tok 2 her cos im filled w so much remorse.

dearest mommy, i love u w all my life n if anythin happens 2 u, anythin at all, i swear w my life i will be ur pride and never fail. it always leaves me in tears knowing you arent feeling well. i can handle e truth, pls mom, just take care of ur health. ur health is more important 2 me than anything in e world. i love you with all my heart, my soul, my fibre n my life. i love you.
so pls. forgive me 4 e wrong i ave done. i love you sooo much !!! :ó(

anywayz. im gna go i guess. no use wastin my time on e net. so by.

o manz !!

i ave got internet access !!!

im alone w maid @ home e hse is eerily silent 4 once jas has alr flown off 2 thailand this noon guardian's outta e country leavin mi n anna @ home boo hoo hoo i ave 2 walk 2 school under e hot sun till next week



anywayz i m feelin so . . . .. . .. . i donno e word 4 it.



i m friggin positive i can kizz my eng paper bye bye.

i think its friggin tough :o(

it all started out w a bloody drama of my own.

i refused 2 check my stuff 4 any slips of paper early in e mornin s i was caught up in my own lil worl. so when the xaminer announced tt we culd officially lauch our test-of-knowledge @ 13.30, i realized tt i didnt kno my schl code. i grabbed my entry proof which was clipped between my passprt when lo n behol, i felt something inside !!!!!

it felt hard and b4 i knew it, i was alr feelin jittery w anxiety n e stupid fear tt came frm no where. i was scared stiff e xaminers'd think i was peepin @ some sort of answers. i cussed myself 4 not packin my stuff well . . i didnt even kno what that thingamajig tt was stukk inside the passport it culd b some stupid folded worksheet 4 all i kno !!! i didnt dare even peep at it any further in case i get caught for " trying to cheat. "

so i raised my hand high up in e air k mayb nt so high lah maybe just mid air, tryin 2 capture their attentions w all my silent might but alas !! all of e examiners were 2 bz tickin on their attendence board thingamajig by then i was feelin bloody damn scared wtf. i didnt go on doin my eng paper cos u kno, e more u delay, e more u r on the scale of tryna cheat n shit so. i waited n waited n waited n ooooo, 15 min passed by when finally, one xaminer came 2 my rescue.

Examiner Finally :
Yes ??

Distressed Myint :
There's . . there's something stuck in my paper !! -pointin 2 my PP. -

EF :
aaah ? - head bends down 2 table. -

DM :
i think there's something stuck there, - point point. - but i dont know wat cos i don dare 2 check.

EF :
Oh ! ok, here ? - pointed. -

DM :
Ya, i think i think, i dont kno what it is.


so he lifted my passport.

i embraced myself w all my hope not 2 get forfeited frm this paper when
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MY EZ LINK CARD !!!
UGH !!!!!!!!!!
UGHHH ! UGHHHHHH !!!

there i was hypervantilatin w fear wen all it was was an innocnt object which was in fact my identification card mofo mofo mofo mofo !!!!!! i dont ave 2 elabor8 on e look on my face, least of all, his -.-

aft tt, i no longer had e zest 2 continue writin cos my heart wuz like on fire n shit. culd no longer jam out creative juices bloody hell i stared n stared at e paper, gettin more n more uptight by e whole time so 2 summarize ?????



bye bye english my only hope ~!



ok i goin 2 do math now DID I TELL U I GOT 51 4 MATH !!!!!??????

HA HA H AHA !!!! FIRST TIME PASS MAN BLOODY HELL !!!!!!

er. tho tt was w e help of referin 2 e answer sheet 4 questions i was stukk at :oP

nini. bye ~!!



JASON UNDIE ~!!!!!

attention attention !!!!!

if u r readin Her Royal Highness's journal,
CALL MI !!!!
i 4got 2 jot down ur ugly no -.-
ave u seen proy n pod n pi Oct ??????



PS, thank u jan bimbo. u saved my life :o)

yoo hoo hoo ~!

m @ KK's restin our ovr-loaded tummies we r so bloody full zzz
jst had steamboat 4 dinnr n didnt notice tt e color of my class jersey is e same as e workers there until KK pointd it out 2 mi -.-

n now i m bein teased as e maid she brought home frm bugis -.-
ha ha ha ha ha.

niwayzzz !!!!

I M FULL.
he he he he he he ~



O's is only a few days away woo-hoo !

2 those readin ,
HERERE A FEW JOKES I GOT OFF YAHOO 4 U 2 RELEAZE UR STREZZZZ !!!

HA HA HA HA HA !!!
READ READ !
A: Hey, man! Please call me a taxi.
B: Yes, sir. You are a taxi.

TOO BAD I AVE NO MORE CHANCE 2 TRY THIS :ó(

PUPIL: " Would you punish me for something I didn`t do? "
TEACHER:" Of course not."
PUPIL: " Good, because I haven`t done my homework. "

HA HA HA, DIS IS F-KIN SMART !
A: Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger?
B: Yes I am,
I married the wrong man.

In e 3 yrs of marriages . . .

In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens.
In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens.
In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen.

pray this aint tru ^^
Love is one long sweet dream,
and marriage is the alarm clock.

How do men exercise on the beach?
By sucking in their stomachs every time they see a bikini !!!!
HA HA HA !!!!!

TRU BLU !!!
What do men and mascara have in common?
They both run at the first sign of emotion.

Why is it difficult to find men who are sensitive, caring and good looking?
They all already have boyfriends. ^^

last 1 b4 i leav.

which is further away ????
the sun or canada ???
ans is,





the sun !!
cos u can c e sun but not canada xoD


PS, IF I HAVET SAID DIS B4, LEMME SAY IT AGAIN !!!!
i don feel like goin 2 prom any more. i donno where e zest has ran off 2. seein that jas's leavin SG on mon 2 c mom and all leaves me feelin v lonely n then im thinkin . . . it takes 10 more bloody days of waitin AFTA O's b4 prom begins. if i don go prom, i can str8 away g back 2 thailand n o man e more i think abt it, e more i 1 2 abandon it aaaaaargh help mi KK is forcin me 2 eat her new inventions of drinkin milk w sour prunes in ma mouth !!! ha ha ha ha ha ha, sounds real odd but like she said, it tastes sweet surprsing go n try !! thank her 4 e result wotev e result is. ok i goin now alr bye by bye by byb yby by by by by.

AAAAAAGHZ GUEZZ WOT Bro Jaw met up w Jacky D while he wuz in TW aaaghz I'm so sad boo hoo hoo cuz herez da deal I used 2 ave a krush on him but but but ! no mo alr cuz he attached boo hoo hoo hoo hoo ho hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo Ok. datz enuf Hoos there. KK's avin a nap while m up on da fone bloggin n FB-ing I'M BLOODY HAPPY CUZ Os IZ ONLI A FEW DAYZ AWAY !!!!!!! YIPPEE YOO YOO !!!! aft tt ima gna go bak 2 Thailand 2 MIT proy n hpfuly " BUMP " in2 jky he he he he he. WICKED ~ hpefly he ain't out . . . .. ... k. I slpy gna slp nw BRB. •••PS I m abslutly dizguztedzzz -.-••• pls do nt cme bak s n when u like, s-wipe. I cunt bliv I allwd tt 2 happn. itz sik. ANW. dnt evr tok 2 mi tk u. believe it or not I'm actually disgusted by you so don't ever. may seem ok on the outside but trust me•

500 daysa summa.

YOZ !!!! KK JAS N I R WAITIN 4 E MOVIE 2 START SO HERE I M !!! HERE R THE FUNNI PICZ WE GOT OFF KK'S PC'S WC. DONT FALL IN LOVE W THE BEAUTIES !!!! ^^

whoa like hi and welcome mi back !!!!!?

i tested my luck to c if the internet's on and guess i got my luck w mi !

only thing is, i have got nothin much intrstin to UPD8 on xcpt ive got 4 math tutors ~!!!! -.- bye.

PS, ive got a rockstar bag from KK ( ha ha ha, hello beauty ~ c u soon ! ) for lantern festival present !!!!
u can check the shop out. rather unique. it's located in cine. 3rd or 4th lvl i forgot. the old nike place. shop's called rockstar.

ANW. i goin eat alr. u c. i diet until so pro. eat in school eat outside then come back still must eat. stomach say dont blame her tho.
-.-

GOODBYE ~!!! PS, this is such a lousy yr. my entries all so limited -.-

these r the pics ive took last. mbzillion yrs ago . .
jas and i on our way to tuition.

insisted on gettin a gd pic of his new jeans -.-.-.-

ive been lookin like an ogre recently so cnt bare to show my face. will scare u off one.

to KK's place aft tuition.

the reason why i love mopping KK's grounds. ha ha ha ha this thingamajig is so fun i tell u !!!! the most genius and practical invention i have ever laid my silky hands upon. i was still acting smart when jas told me how to function it cos i realli havent seen anythin like this. i thot it was just ol ordinary mop w a special design . . so when i was straining the mop's hair to dry it, KK scolded me for scoldin jas when he tried to teach mi to use it cos the fact is, he knows how. AND I DONT. ANW, no squeezing and straining of ur arm muscles r required fot this. just step on this pedal-like thingy and off u go !!!! the water gets sucked right out of the mop's hair. i'll probly do a vid on this next time. ha ha ha.

swissssh and swoooosh ~~
before sleepin. i cnt smile w teeth alr. if not face will xplode undr pressre.

ta daah. the thingamajig we got. we dont evn kno if wine's its name -.-

c the perfect spot i get to sleep in KK's place. i feel like im floating on air. all the city lights and buildings below mi n all . .

my face looks bloody distorted here but herez the bag !!!!! the style's abit like my red bag but still, isnt it soo intrstn cos ive nerver tried ths color before !!!?? KK the pinky got baby pink for hers. i had to pose like this cos its the only way i can c myself w the bag -.- er ya. i was in my schl u. ha ha ha ha ha.

TA DLING DLING ~
camera effect.

loust cell phone effect.

not too bad looking aint ??CANT WAIT TO USE IT ^^

days whn i felt like a health guru. this used to b my dinner. soup, coffe, digestives and goat milk tablets.

now i eat like er . . .. . . . .. speakin of food, my tummy's buggin mi to hurry so ciaozzzie !