warning : wordy !!!!

YOWZAHHHHHHH !!!

TOO LONG.

too long since i last did an entry..... WHAZZUP !!

i think i've already lost 85KG with all the walkings i've been doing these days.

i kid u not. 

ever since i got here i been shopping\walking like a mad fuck and my legs feel really really sore now. i think i will get hit with early bone deficiencies if i continue this stupid walking-in-lousy-shoes thing. ugh. so here i am, dedicating my quiet 30th friday to a home-day and just blog it out. sadly i didn't bring my camera out ( sigh when u r alone, u pretty much have to carry all the shitz urself. jason faster come back lah. ) so i was only using my phone to take lousy shots but not so much either cos no one to help the poor helpless needy girl take 'em !!!! le sigh........

ANW !!! school's starting, which is something im really really absofuckinglutely looking forward to i even went stationery shopping TWICE ugh fuck me -..-

i've spent a little over the budget so hanzy has gotta control !!!!!! but then again, i need good pen to actually set myself in2 the world of........... knowledge. eh !???? kekekekeke.

i feel different. IDK, i've went out on my own for two and a half day ( second time i was out but QY the fucker came to meet me so. HA HA HA since she's calling me bitch, i will fucker her. the world revolves around the word " fair. " biatch. ) and IDK man. when i was out alone i just felt really peaceful.

 ha ha ha ha aint it odd. the girl who was hands down afraid of being alone now winds up enjoying the solitude -..-

first time i was out was the other time i was here in SG ( who knew shopping alone culd be so dang therapeutic !?? i ended up with maxi dresses and a tiffany ! ) second time i was out, i 4got why. the third time i was out ( yesterday. ) was...... guess what !!!!!

i was craving for KFC's cheese fries.

but school's workshop just ended and i hate hanging in the area i once, literally, grew up in ( H8 bumping into people when im ugly. there. ) so i took the tube all the way down to...... cityfuckinhall.

HA HA HA HA ! funny the place KK always brought me ( but i disliked. ) would also wind up being the place i find peace in.

-..- life.

so then i went to the KFC and had my fries fucking hell. ha ha ha, feels really good man. im learning to be indie again.

being too dependent on people = bad bad bad.

IDK. when im alone, i feel so fuckin spiritual it's almost amazing :O it's @ times when u r solo do u start contacting the spiritual side of u.

the feeling of enlightenment is rather......enlightening to be blunt -..-

kekekeke. enough talkin bout em. i will UPD8, spiritually, when i am spiritual enough to be typing spiritually. XD XD XD

hokays ! let's c...... what have i got to UPD8 on !?? aaaaaah yes !!!! my plans !!!!

so. my initial plan was to go back to BKK uhm, dec 10. but i was too carried away in yangon i decided to extend it a little to 17th but due to some last minit issues ( aka SCHOOL. ) i decided to only go back to the land of happiness on the 25th, the night of xmas but alas !!!!! due to some last minit issues ( aka SCHOOL. ) i decided to postpone it to 28th but uhm, well, there goes my plans again cos due to another last minit isssues ( aka NOT SCHOOL. kekekeke. ) i decided to go back on the 30th but ugh. too tired to think back what happened and now, officially, i will only go back during CNY !

ha ha ha, what a chunk of shit. made me type and think so much -..-

i was so desper8 to go back to BKK cos all my stuff are in there !!!!! fuck me my make ups my bags my bed sheets my shoes my perfumes my fucking everything !!! see ! one time i decided to pack light ends up the one time i fucking regret packing light _l_

which is why i miss the old me's packing. just throw everything into my luggage cos u never know when u r gonna need them !!! i may be going to a stupid place but i will most def bring everything ( aka most random things. ) there cos u never know when u need them !!!! it may be a kampong place u r goin to but who knows u might meet a charming farmer there and u will need that gorgeous dress u got !?? not to mention that necklace shoved somewhere.........somewhere !??? and and and the nail polishes !!! how the fuch wuld u know which color would suit u that day !?

hence, concluded in the story, BRING EVERYTHING.

 i've also been scolded by KK and my mom for my packing style XD XD the junk packer is what i'd like to confess here. ugh. layZ 2 type.

anyway ! ending off with 2 of my latest life motto !

a) everything happens for a reason.

living by this has made me less harsh on my expectations\emotions. now if something doesn't turn out the way i hoped, i shift my thoughts on the good side aka nothing HA HA HA HA nah im just teasing. like Mr Shoes is not in my class but it's meant to be maybe becos........................... hmm. IDK i havent really thot of it. HA HA HA. nah, maybe becos if he were to be in my class, i wont be myself then. u know. everything is something. shit. what does that even mean !?????

b) fuck me i 4got what's b.

pictures !!!!!!!!!!

in the sea of beautiful people......how do u know he\she is yours ??? :O !!

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continue tmr. internet speed too dang slow.

pa......

i wish i had a dad too.

i wish i had a picture with my dad too.

i wish my dad'd've still been here... but truth is, he is long long long gone.

a figure in my life i never knew, never hugged, never said " i love you. " to.

also the figure i yearn to see and just be with........

to the dad i never had.

sorry for the emo outburst. just saw carms' pictures of her finally reuniting w her daddykins. sigh, life is such a lime. of all the things i can have, i don't embrace. of all the things i can never in my lifetime have, i yearn with all the fibres im made of.

to my father, i am just a daughter. to the daughter, he is the hero.

less than three ~

holy shot i was so close to thinking i'd lost my rise-andshine blog for good -..-
ugh, these computer stuffs really are a bitch. gotta do what it takes ASAP !!


ANW !!! had my orientation yesterday and it left me so bloody tired i fuckin' slept @ 8 bloody hell.
here's what i typed last night in another blogger account. copy and paste is really shiok.

HOLY CRAP MEAT ORIENTATION WUZ FUNNNNNNNNN

ha ha ha i never imagined myself saying it would be fun but there goes !!! thats loser jois to ya.

anyway ! i think i luv SIM !! IDK if it's too early to proclaim my love to a building i know nothing about but IDK man, once i feel like i like it, i will like it. same goes to human beings. i fall in luv really fast ( like there's this one im constantly checking out during orientation. let's call him Mr Shoes for remembrance's sake. ) but i fall out of love thrice as quick. which is whats really sad. when i love, i love big, i love deep, i love with all the love i can give. but once i don't like it anymore, that's it. bye bye. sayo-nara. zai jian. i wouldn't even know u existed. the bad bad thing about madam me. hence, another summary about me : 

when i fall, i fall hard.

 but when i don't, i get out fast.

SIGHHHHHH.

speaking of le monsieur shoes, IDK man. the first thing that attracted me to him were, duh, like the name imlies, his shoes. we were wearing the same kinds except different color and ha ha ha i feel like a mofo infatuated little kid typing this fuck me.

let's change sub.

SIGH. sad thing is we r from different classes so i won't get 2 c him anymore le cryyyyyyy

ok. so ! guess what !!!! im sosososososo disappointed w my timetable !!!!!

my classes start at 12 ( yes !!!! a mofo 12 !!!!!! ugh. ) and ends at bloody 3.

it's so bloody short !!!! the make up i'd be applying impeccably can only be used for 3 freaking hours !!!!  ugh !!!!

im so sad. and 12 is such a bad time to start.... basically everything.

 who could imagine walking out into the scorching sun that is at its best burning state !??

 ur newly shampooed manes will inevitably get greasy, the powder you lovingly patted on to your face will no doubt get blotchy and the eye-liner you carefully stroked on will most definitely smudge !!! ugh ugh ugh !!! why is is so unfair !??

le sigh..................

but since classes start so late, i already have an agenda to fill up. since it starts at 12, i can leave the place at 11. i will wake up at 8, finish swimming at 9 ( meaning not just swimming ahem ahem. meaning bathe, relax, laze around... oh, the goods. ) and i will start applying my make up while letting my hair dry. by the time i finish, it'll prob be 10ish, i can go double check if what i wore made sense and then finally head out. such such pleasures of the time.

ok. i need to shit. sorry for the abrupt end :|

and it just gets better..

FUCK ME TODAY JUZ COULDN'T GET ANY BETTER !!!!!!!!!

from late last night singing the crap outta karaoke to finally eating a burger in yangon @ 365 to walking back home ( yes. w-a-l-k. ) to havin breakfast at this myanmar restaurant to coming back home but to a locked gate to first time climbing a gate to stepping on wet grass to the greatest view ( more on this. ) to bathing to sending moms off the airport to lunch to finally, home, now, tying, blogging and fucking listening to my new favourite track fuck me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really love it love it love it when i discover a new track that i love. yummmmmmmz !!!!!

will put it in to my playlist later.

ciao.

later.

MM's seriously openin up..

HOLY CRAP BLOGGER IS NO LONGER BANNED IN THE GOLDEN LAND OF BURMESES !!!!! :O !

ha ha ha hooray to advancements ! soon we'll see all the fast food chains rushing in like tsunami XD

anyway, le fattie is havin her usual honey star while listening to darling micheal jackson ( fave track now : keep your head up. his album is le fantastikkkko !! )

i've been here in burma for almost .......... um.... i was here on the....... wait. lemme go check my calender. fuck i've been here since the 3rd this month !!!!! which makes it.. officially the 15th day here ! shit ha ha ha ha i was only planning for a week tops but nothin's ever permanent with joycy aint ? XP

latest news is i've been accepted in SIM ( management course. ) and i was supposed to be all happy about it but victor recommended me some international unis in thailand and i was planning on enrolling in them incase i get rejected by SIM but tralalala ~~~ i got accepted. so. ugh. never mind.

i was again, planning for my life in a hostel ( check in2 a hostel for the first yr, look for potential rommies to rent an apartment wiv. ) but guess what !!! lastest news is, moms already rented an apartment in singapore so there goes my dreams again. which... y'know what ? is making me more devoted to the saying " expectations are just planned disappointment. " so all i'm doing now is taking a day as it is, eating one honey star as it is, drinking milk as it is,  and shitting my smelly poop as it is ( jase insisted on adding it that sik fuk. ) kekek. jase is also all about good news too. which is why im a happy bird basically. both of my bros ( and myself. ) are once again on the future instead of wasting our time.. jawwie bro's already happily in australia, joycy me is already ( almost. ) a uni student ( ahem !!!! maturity calls !!! ) and jase's already accepted in australian international ( without sittin for the entrance exam fuck me !!!!!!!! ) so so so so so so so happy mexxxxx !

i have got no mood to type anymore AKA creative juices just ran out ( jase's idea. again. ) his english is better than mine now so fuck me.

PS/ ive gotten rid of my Cbox the chat box so leave comments instead shukran !

PICTURES !!!!!! jase & PPD ~

loves !

the other day my momsie dear surprised me with a bag of goodies.

and inside held the secret way to my........ make-up-hood. ahem.

 but my absolute favorite inevitably goes to......

tra
la
la
la
la
laaaaaaaa !!

 le alexandre zouari brush !!!!!!!!!!!
 ok, if u know me well, u'd know that im a die hard AZ fan but it's just i've never got the $$$ to buy any of their god-amazing-gawjuz hair pieces :''''o(((((

ending off with a really pretty powder case ~~

KK.

hooya !!!!

i am finally back after a month of disappearance ahem ! ha ha ha honestly i dont remember much of my trip except the past week when i was with my darling girl KK ! it's been half a year ( i think !? ) since we last saw each other and honestly we been planning to go places but nothin ever really works out... until now !

ha ha, IDK man, i just feel really peaceful when im with her. like i can be the crazy person that i am and also spill my complicated heart out without having to say too much and she'd be there summarizing and understanding. honestly tho i was kinda pissed the last few days cos i had to leave so quick ! nana's visa was expiring and i had to accompany her back to BKK which of cos means i had to leave KK, leave bei jing. somewhere which i was startin to get used to. anyway. shant say much. im really tired ~~~~

even my heart's tired. im debating on if i shld get my hair extensions out now. it's all rolled into a disgusting heap of mess it's fkin disgusting.

im not the kinda person to say " i love you. " but really, KK, i absofuckinglutely love you :'o)

oh. and im like shaelessly saying that cos blogger is like banned in china so she wouldn't be able to see it anyway HA HA HA HA. im such a failure.   -..-