Chinese Chan.

i didn't know people actually bother to look good and change for tution cos i don't lol ^^ i love tutions oh shit. i'll blog further later. IN is in crisis and i don't know what to say.

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hi. well i'm at home on a wednesday not schooling so ima gonna update this. anyways, as i was saying, i don't bother to bathe and change to tuition. i just wear my uniform straight for class ( and let tutor spell my armpits HA ! HA ! DUH NO. ) and i wouldn't even be asked why i haven't bathed. they'll take it as i am so ser-too-diuz. they'll " oh my ! lisa you're one busy school girl ! " ha ha ! wearing school unform will appear like you whole world revolves around texts. anyway, why i'm blogging about this is becos during chinese chan, WHICH WAS SURPOSED TO BE TOMORROW, i went at the wrong day and wron g time that belonged to this little emo style guy. ha ha ! omgoodness, today i was so blur when i left the room, i actually banged on the chair !!!!! not only that, my mind was so preorccupied with some random thoughts i actually said this to the driver.
" no not here. walk straight. "
HA HA ! WALK MAN. anyway, this morning, i was in 61 on the way to school and i learnt that i appreciate big sized guys who put in the effort to smell good. not good as in spray the whole of nivea ( lousy smell for guys, really. so strong !!!! i think i stand at the end of the east and you stand at the end of west big wind come i can still smell. ) but just a simple sweet smell. ye. but anyway, issac nathan is in crisis is just, well, i'd rather not blog about it so ciao !

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wait, after some considerations, i have decided to blog about it cos even though i've wrote on my journal, i realized that inks can fade one day but typed letters can't. so anyway, read if only you're keen or if you really have got nothing else better to do cos this may be pretty long i sirpoze. but anyway, i went on msn last night, and IN talked to me, well we do but this is accordingly. so then he went on webcam, and he was drinking again so i asked, " are you drinking ? :o) " the reason behind my question has something to do with what we talked about the day before. it's long so i shall skip it. so then he apologized and said he's depressed and really needed it cos that's the only thing that can keep him calm and that he's tryna drown his sorrows in alcohol yadeedeedah so i asked him wots wrong and he said,
its mi mate ae he got killed last nite ae :(
car crash ae
he was one ov mi est mates ae
but i rather not talk about it
so then well, dun i didn't take him for real, cos it's probly just some sick april fool joke. but then as i looked at him further, shit. it truly was real. i really didn't know what to say. i mean, i can't possibly say " oh am so sorry about it, really. but trust me, everything's gonna be all right i promise. " COS EVERYTHING WILL NOT BE FINE ! so really i was just looking at him and hearing his words but not making a response. i just can't lah. i can't console guys i've sadly learnt about myself. so more than half of my time was spent looking and listening but never typing.

please don't scold me for being sucha block head but i said,
" dont drink too much, replace it with something else remember ?
i think you should go get some rest. "

i cant ae he was one ov the bros ae i cant gettha feeling outa mi head ae im bout to do some thing stupid aadn do somthing im gonnna reget ae i have to drink its the only thing keeping me carm so enough about meeeee im just fine

dont do anything stupid ok ? just remember, y'know life has to go on and yeh maybe it hurts now but you'll just have to deal with it.
nothing i say's gonna calm you or anythin but yeh.

i cant proomess any thing ae but if i do make sure it not on acm ae
cam
ha ha sorry but i just have to laugh :D ( i deserve a slap yes ? but really it's funny right !! )

qwell im sorry i didnt crash that car mi mate was in ae thats ok u probly got more boys on list to talk to ae its ok imnot drunk look i can still send a u a fucking pig see

3/31/2008 9:54:50 PM Bub's69er sent the wink "Pig"

see a drunk person cold nt do tht you still ther >
?
thats ook u dnt hve t0 talk tp me eae to
i only wanna talk to you. but nothin's gonna go in with you feelin like this
yes im complet soba talk to me
some one talk to me
plzzzz
im feeling loanly at the mo ae
inndddd smon 1 to talk to
need
im soory but i dont see what i done rong
can oi tel me plllzxxxxxxxxxxxxzzzzzzzzzzzzz
plzzzzzzzzz
wait rite ther ima bout to punch thiss cunts head in

mi lfe is falling a part i no wot can i do about that ?>
so wht yu dong
doing
killing my brain cells, thinking about what to say to make you feel better ?
awwww dont bother but fanks any way im ok realy
well then quit drinking. it's not gonna clear yor mind or anythin
yea i will try just 4 yu
promise ?
yea i will try
look istat now tht was my last bottle k
ok i prmess u wont b let down ae
okay im counting you on that
yea ok
wait brb
hay i think i need help
sorry i was away anyway, i'll help you with all that i can
ru sure ?
ye
i dono mi lif is fuked
look at the brighter
side um that mi mate didnt die from suwicied thats probly the best i go t
wait, is he dead or he's just seriously injured ??
nah man hes gone from my life man i miss ya bro
he was like mi brother ae u wold nver see us apart a
well i beter go you dony want to here this shit ae
well
just go get some rest, you need it. we'll talk about this tomorrow when you're calmer
yea i hope
i hope im still alive tomoro i got to drive home were i live at the moae ae
well tack care
shit can you still drive ?
um its eze ae put your foot dowm nd ur oof ae
be careful ye
well this drive way looking bit triky aeeeeee
'i dont no ae i mite fuking crash onthhe way ae but y dont no unless ya try ae ya
be safe.
yea i try if i dont talk to u tomoro im probly dead at lest i get to see mi mate ae '
but then i wont be able to talk to you anymore and i cant try out your dishes in future ( self centred. and well, it's someting we talked about before and i fucking suck at consoling so stfu. )
well im sorry thats just a sacrifice i have to macke ae i dont lik to drink and drive but as smashed as i am i probly end up at the pig staion ae
or dead ether one u pick ?
i'll pick you alive definitely no matter what you feel
well at least some one care about me
fuck
fuck
fuck
i cant do this man i know im gona crash ae i can just fell it ae
let's talk so you dont have to drive
um that probly the best idea you evver have
were would i be if i didnot meetyou
you r cute smart fun you like mi mate ae but more bete mate e
we will meet, tomorrow night time here so you better drive safe and keep in mind that i will be talkin to you tomorro
um ok i will just stay here i fink ae
yeh good im bit too smashed ae shouldnt ov skulled those bottles ae im prittywasted man
well i guse i see you later
tack care xoxoxoxo
you take care :)
chat with you soon thank you for evry thing man
i cant thank you enoughman
i'll be there when you need a listening ear, have a good night sleep. ( i really meant my words. )
thank you ,you r a tru mate ae wel see ya
see you *loves.
see y xoxoxoxo

okay somehow as i type on, i don't feel the sadness i felt when i was chatting wit him. it just seem like as though everything is all right y'know ? though frankly, i was feeling jolly i was making a joke and foolin around laughing with jasone when i was TTHim. ahh well. it's just, y'know. i really don't know how to explain cos my feelings can't be written or painted. but if you'd really want to know, i care more about IN, not his bez friend just because. a parag from my diary.

" i feel his friend is a real lucky lad. may he rest well in heaven. becos if he can hear me, i want to tell him that issac nathan really do love you as a friend and losing you is the fucking worst thing that can happen to him. IN treasures and adores you so much he doesn't mind death so long as he can see you. that's how he treats oyu as a bro. i'm not good with words neither am i good with art but nathan was really, devastated. i hope IN is well. "

The new me.

shiet. this morning was really suey slash daw-mey slash unlucky. i was like bobbing my head up and down cheerfully to the tong-tong-chang outside the house thinking some neighbors must be having a jolly late lunar new year celebration when i looked out of the window to be greeted by a funeral ceremony .

went to meet jaw at orchard and i took the bus today !!! ha ha, i overshot the stop. last time always take taxi so i depended to much on it. i had to walk from California gym house to wheelocks with my peep toes that was squeezing the life out of my toes. my sandals was missing when i was hunting for it 360 degrees in the shoe cabinet. i was already darn pissed with my missing sandals but the maid still was being ignorant. throughout her months here, i've begun to learn that she has no sense of urgency. or at least she can't tell that i'm in a rush when i'm in a rush.

" where's my sandals ah ? "
" wa joys. you look very pretty. "
" mm. where's my slippers ? i need go out. "
" wa your face very pretty ! you do what ? what slipper ? "
" the bronze color one. i late already. "
" wa you wear nice today. you look already ? "

oh gosh. if you can see air, you'd've seen my ears fuming. turned out val wore it out thinking it was my guardian's which is her mom. so i had to wear my PT.

i bought the baby pink polish already hehehe ! i wanna paint them on but stupid school. zzz why can't schools allow nail polish ah ? i went the the optician who said i needed glasses. i'm 1092 degrees. no wonder i cannot see clearly these few years. i bought other accessories. the only thing left in my to get list is, Escada ( Sunset Heat. ) you know i've been loving this scent since the first time i breathed it ? and the first time i smelt it was like, 2007 !? i was hunting for the smell but i finally found it hiding behind the shelves. it's 70 odd pretty reasonable for a smell like heaven. reasonable not with my money of course :oD other than that, a few more dresses and cosmetics for the brows and i will be a happy girl until it's time i need other things.

it's 1.05 in the morning and oh yeh, kevin sent us home in his car and we were talking about setting a day aside every week for sports day. he's gonna take us swimming and badminton-ing. he was tellin us about poly life and it sounds pretty fun i don't actually mind taking poly here. but the thang is, it's three bloody long years. but if you go overseas, it's simply, one short year. his girlfriend studies in NUS something so if i need help, he'll arrange WHICH I BADLY DO THANKS SO MUCH. and my ! this is what you call fated ah. his gf's excellent in physics chemistry and math. HA HA ! cool shit i need all three bardlee.

i feel energetic. i feel a little gloomy though cos of IN. i didn't chat with him just now while i was on. after i was on, he was like, signed in again or appeared online for a few times. but stupid me didn't say anything oh well. i shall tomorrow.

okies. dieting ( still. ) in process.

" eh you taking me already or not. "
i think i heard my toes screaming for thier lives but i just didn't give no shiet and continued takin pictures and now, my toes are all angry cos they're tomatoe red.

lisa jaw.

no more curls.
ah-nee lisa.
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AND NO WORRIES !

AN EAGLE STILL EXISTS IN ME.

i shall go hunt for some fishes to eat. bye. *eee-earh-eaa-earh.

Why is it that when you piss out yellow piss, the water in the toilet bowl will still turn white after awhile ?

yozzie mozzie ! it's 1.30 in the morning and i just showered awhile ago. today was rrreally fun ! ha ha ! i shall just be blogging accordingly. well so in the morning, janene texted to say she can't make it ( but let's go out some time yeh ! :o) ) so in the end, we still went out ( farah hwee koon and yours wholly. ) after shitting, i went straight out under the scorching sun and awhile later, whoa i was in jurong point. ha ha the mall is pretty good. shall go there more often in future. first off we went over to sasa's. had a complementary make up session each. we trimmed our brows !!! f and hweekoon's are nice while mine's just, similar to an eagle. i really look like an eagle lor ! too light and thin. but whatever. ha ha i was tellin' myself this is the route to 17. no more bushes for brows. did make up too whoa my skin looked flawless ! ha ha, i'm inspired to have healthy skin. but anyway, we then went over to long john's for late lunch ( cos of the three of us's make up thingo. ) had chicken potato salad coz i wan't feeling very de hungry. but anyway, jaw called and told me momsie and jia xing's family and afar was gonna have dinner together and he told me to bring fa and hwee koon along if i wanted to so blah blah blah. hwee koon went off to meet her boyfriend while farah and i went over to bukit panjang to meet our husband. our husband the books ah. ha ! ha ! fa changed and we went over to BP's kentucky's to have a little meal after which we went over to take the tube to clementi. the bus took too bloody long so we took the taxi to the place. it's a hawker centre ._. but anyway, ate yadeedee dah and we took what we took backwards home. since farah's parents are away in Malaya, we decided to hang out a little longer and so we did and finally we went back home and damn. this sounds so boring but it was so fun ! ha ha ! today is a really active day. we can be found walking or taking the public transports. i thought i could lose at least half a kg but shit. i increased one whole fat juicy kilo leh !! anyways, we went to have this lambs' marrow also known as toe-gong ( malayu. ) and 骨髓 ( mandarin. ) we can be found sucking the blood out of the bone. ha ! ha ! we were little pretty red flowers which you'll see later. hwee koon didn't eat cos she didn't wanna dirty her fairest-of-them-all hands :oD but anyway, walking back, i was snapping pictures when hwee koon and far told me not to cos it's late night and they might be AHEM ! DHEN-DHEN-DHEN. so they started brisk walking till the bus stop. but anyway, today is really great ^_^ let's go out soon !!

meanwhile, i'm finally on good terms, well somehow, with an old friend i lost for a long while. it's great to hear from her, really. might be meeting up soon and shit. i hope everything'd be how it used to be. haiz. if there's anything i can say at all, sorry wouldn't be enough. oh well. HERE'RE THE MANY PICTURES AND VIDEEEEZ ! enjoy.

yesterday.







TODAY.

eagle in process.

hwee koon and lisa.

almost there !!

there you go !

long jon's.

gobble the leaves to slimgeous.

define the expressions with my new brows !

zangry look.

happy look.

guess what my expression says !? bored.

prettiful !

news flash : ashli admits she bites !

when she's in arah's arms,i knowi'm safe.

toileto.

rah's housie.

joining forces to hunt for west coat.

in the tube on the way to clementi to meet hweekoon once again !

flash lights.

adverting something i don't like - ice mountain. it tastes weird. clementi covered !

adverting farah's handbag.

showing my faux flawless skin that's porcelain like.

the marrow toe-l

fairest of 'em all !

i should be able to quaify for the role of a vampire.

ha ha, inside joke :oD

on route home.

if they aint muscles, then theyre fats vice versa.

*_* lucky hair.

nose and mouth.

pretty frowning.

as you can see, the eagle was very happy becos its brows are just like her, they soar high up the sky.

farah !
hwee koon !
lisa !

the audio system for this cam is messed up so pardon us.

vlogging in the bus.

this is for my future kids.

" farah, say something to my kids. "

in 970 singing. hilary's bomh.

lisa sining ronin's omm.

us singing everywhere while waiting for 173.

us singing everywhere while waiting for 173.

us singing everywhere while waiting for 173.

bomh tgt.

ultimate MV.

more vidz to come ! still uploading.