AAAAHHHHH I made it I made it I made it !!!!!!!!!!

first time hittin' the 800 range !! ha ha ha see I must complain a bit then will work muahahahahahahahahahahahaha

The Chase.

it's the chase that I chase after. some people they fall all over but the only one who didn't is makin' me very, very, very interbloodyrested. ha ha ha sucks to be me now. my mind's just doing the flashbacks and clawing its way to my memory bank that has no deposits -,,- ok. lousy metaphor. very, very lousy joys ! metaphor or example I can't even be bothered. I'm thaaaaat lazy. I thot I culd do a few hours of studying here in the school's library but I've been here for ------ lo and behold ----- a bloody one and a half hour -,,- so far I've won and lost Scramble. how do they do it !!!!? I'm always getting 200points while them guys are soaring to a bloody 700-900. I shall blame it on my............. hmm. well.

anyway !!!!!! nothin much to update on. just feel like typing shit. I'm hungry as fuck now dammit. shuldave gotten a sandwich ugh.

I miss clubbing with my own friends :'-( all these while I've been going with not-so-close friends and ok. so I still have fun. but not the naturel high I get when I'm with my own peeps. funny how im always bumping into old friends I rarely talked to in school trolololol.

so far I've reconnected with ariffin and afi ( Zirca/sec sch ) Jerome ( bus/helipad/PRIMARY sch. ) and ok. so others are new friends lah fine. ha ha ha ha ha for a mo there I thot we were all old friends :-P I'm glad I met nadhirah ( sec sch. ) again cos she's a ball of fun !!!!! ha ha ha ! clubbing with her and shariff is just pure ecstasy I tell u. and then there r ppl I thot I wuld never meet\talk to again but turns out not which is a greaaaat thing. ha ha ha, I've only went to the club once with kai ting and I think she had fun !!! fuk. why does this feel like a report man.
thing is. new new ( im repeating a semester fuck me. ) SIM friends I thot wuldnt club are now my clubbing mates aka nam, cynth and eunice :-D

I'm fuckin proud of myself man. I managed to bring eunice in to helipad. she's a few months short of 18. ok I wasn't me who brought her in lah. I just am a little proud of myself cos I played a tiny role kekekeke. like asking damn noob ass questions to distract the people from lookin too much into her birthdate LOL. questions r sofa king noob I can't even -,,- that was the first time I fuckin fuckin got the natural high. cos we tried to bring her in once but failed terribly LOL.

ANW !!!! I've always been saying how I wanna get so wasted but I fucking take that crap back. on the embarrassing night of may the 18th two thousand and twelve, I fuckin' got wasted.


NOT fun.


up till today I can't even remember what happened. memory is still lost for the club period. and jerome hasn't elaborated much on what went on except for embarrassing facts like I fucking puked. ewww bloody ew. I thot I culdnt puke again ever but guess not :'-(

the thing about it not being fun to get so wasted is simply because u dressed and dolled urself up to have fun but end up not even staying fresh and awake for an hour and the next thing u remember, u r locked in the handicap toilet trying to stand up but failing terribly and losing balance like a mofo baby -..- so lesson learnt, joycy hon ! the high state is just fine. nothing past that ;-)

the bad thing about gettin' so addicted to clubbing ( I'm sadly at this stage now trolololol. aloysius keeps telling me ima lose interest in it soon but I will NOT. I promise to club AT LEAST once a week no matter how when who why why. ) is when u ain't clubbing, everything just becomes so bloody boring. I haven't done stuff like watching a movie and hanging out aimlessly like how I did before I was officially in luv with clubbing for like well............. ever -,,-

need to adjust back to the pre-club-joys mode cos I feel kinda lost on days when I don't hit the club. I'll just be lying on the bed staring at the ceiling and just staring and staring and staring till hunger strikes and I'll go out for a meal -..- boring little fucker.

last week and the week before was me at my strongest LOL. I went on wednesday wiv OB cynth sean eunice and can't rmb, thurs w nav, fri with ro and sat with shariff nad kai ting arifin & co. took a break till last week wed with sean and John, thurs with sean and John again, fri ( the fuckin day I got drunk. ) with jerome&co and sat with gabriel&co. I'm not so tired this time round compared to the first. I'll be taking a break now. maybe only Saturday then club. maybe. no no. not maybe. joycy hannie, u can NOT club until Saturday ! okok. it's boring to read this ha ha ha it's like a post entitled to myself lol.

aside from club shits, my life is ok. doin' the same ol shit. feelin' nothin' much. no boyfriend. no pressure. no lose weight. no long hair. fuckkkk speaking of hair I don't know when the fuck it will grow sia !!!!!! it's taking centuries just to sprout a tiny centimeter -..- I'm waiting for u hair !!!! don't stop growing on me !!!!! I need u !! imagine clubbing with hair all bunned up. ha ha ha I'm like attending a funeral pls. but I still do it cos sometimes it's quite unique lah. all the rest of the girls are with their hair down looking really smexy ( and i mean SMEXY. waaaaa damn pretty pls. zirca n rebels girls r ok. helipad like goddess I tell u !!!!!! I always feel like a farmer when I go there lor !!!! ) while I lookin so prim and serious with my tiny bun -..- but lately I've been braiding it sideways to look a little less serious lah. useless shit. dunno if I shuld go for a perm or wot. my length is shit. the back is a century times longer than the front which results in the whole hair lookin' really short. so if I perm, at least I can let it down. ugh IDK man. maybe I shuld just wait for it to grow.

crap. this entry is going on for ever. don't know why I ain't stopping trolololol. I thot I was gonna do an intellectual entry with The Chase but look where I'm getting at -..-

life life life. ok. I need to shit bye.