HA HA HA HA !
I AM SO HAPPY NOW !
OK first thing first.
this stupid MSN guy challenged me to bloody chess !!!! obviously i would lose right. but he still had to poke fun of my noob-at-chess fact by going " ha ha you're dead. " and when i said " oh no im dead. " , instead of saying it's ok try harder, he had the chess-ish cheeks to say " u knw that ure dead. "
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never mind. so the 2nd time he challenged me, i tried harder - - - - - by blocking his every move !!!! ha ha ha, but of coz i still died in the end lah. i really am not a chess person lor. i only know how to play it from jasone. ha ha ! that pope taught me how to play board games. so anyway. i told mr ches to invite me to bejeweled instead and that little chess head didnt kno how to play !!!! haaaa ! chess wanna act so big now dont know how to play . ha ha ha ! so i tried hexic and fuck !!! i am such a naturel tru born precious one-and-only gifted genius @ hexic ! ha ha ha ! i kept winning him and guess what !!!!? that little fucker quit the game on me (-.-')
but anyway !!!! please call me queen of hexic now, i don't really mind. at all. HA ! HA ! HA ! this is zang lisa's new found talent. so i hav to keep werkin on it who knows when the ability to hexic wuld be useful in future, right ? like hexic-ing to earn big bucks or somethin right. hmmm .. i wont be givin up so soon on my new found talent no ! hexic here i come everyday !!! ha ha ! chess head versus THE latest hexic queen. mm-hmm, sounds very fun right. and hehe, i am not against lester the molester. he's still a net friend to me. but when challenges come, we get a little carried away y'kno . . so.
my first defeat !!!!
second thing i am damn happy about !!!!!!
( it's too late to. ) Apologize plays in the background.
Hi Joyce,
I am writing to say I am sorry. I did not know you were thinking of me as the way you were. I am so sorry about everything. Since I was from a different background, I could not understand you earlier. But now I feel I have been to harsh on you given the way you have been brought up.
I guess we should not have gone to this stage. I was expecting too much of you. But do believe that I was so because I see the potential in you I want you to live up to it so much. After talking to Ms Queenie, I had a better understanding of you and I feel that I must apologize to you.
Please do know that I am acting the way I am because I really care for you so much. I have no obligation to care for you at all, yet I still do. I do not want to see you go astray. I just want to see you moving on the right track.
Since this is the first time standing on your own feet, there are still so many things you need to learn. You take your time to learn things slowly. I shall not push you hard from now on. I shall just be a guide if you need me, will just stand by you.
Since I have heavy workload in school, I might not have been as patient. I hope you would understand that.
Please approach me anytime you need any help. I will be more than happy to help you out if I can.
One more thing, your mother loves you all a lot, please try to study harder for her.
Best wishes,
Sandi
truth is, i didnt really feel the " ye imma champion ! " kinda feelin when i first received the letter. i felt kinda touched to be brutally honest. well a little history lesson about sandi. she's actually my cousin's girlfriend whom i used to like. like as in like as a person lah, not as a special person.we used to hang out once together, the air show day, and she was a real angel to buy me a tee from there as i dont know what but she bought me one anyway. i liked her and we talked a few times and i even dreamt shamelessly the day they wed and we shall be cousins till the end and have endless fun but all dreams were shattered ever since she became my guardian. she changed. somehow. and yadee deedah, i no longer felt like she was the one i wanna be friends with anymore. actually i forgot what i was trying to say. i think is that she's a nice person actually but it's like, everything turned bad ever since she was made a guardian and not just a friend. i still feel friends are the best. you treat each other as and how u like. but when you're promoted to a bigger position like say, a best friend, it gets a lil tough cos u might go unhappy when your best friend spends more time on others instead of u. like this case, since sandi became my guardian, she has to hav that adultish behaviour to rule me which i disliked so. so yep. i am photo copying a few copies of the sacred letter. ha ha ha ! i m not teasing. i just want to keep a few copies cos sincere letters come once in a yellow moon. the last time i got a really nice and sincere letter was from a myanmar girl i used to be in the same school with but seldom talked with. she knew i went back to myanamr and she wrote me an awfully nice letter. the only sentence i remember is
" you are so smart i admire you. you're the girl that has it all, you get to go to singapore to study. i respect you and i hope i will always be a friend to you. i will always look up to you as the sister. come visit me when you're back the next time ! "
i liked that letter so much i carried it around. but one fucking day, when we were eating outside, i was reading the letter again but i didnt put it back in my pocket. i just left that letter on the table and left the shop. i asked my uncle to get it back for me but it waz too late. but anyway, the point is, i keep meaningful letters and read them to remind myself of my life. after reading the myanmar girl's letter, it felt weird tho cos the way they think of me is so different from the real me. they think im that smart intelligent girl staying in singapore who gets like what, distinctions for every papers she sits ? but actually, im jut the girl who studies in singapore. thats that. im not smart and i play too much. ok nevr mind. i am still happy all the same! :oD
and i waz joking about the apologize thingy playin in the background. i m not that mean. ha ha ! oki doki. i shall be hexicing now ! goodbye chesshead !!! :o)
