Whatever.

I've given it all I could to make up for the pain and rejection that you've gone through in the past but now, you're doing it all over to me again. If it's this that you want then you know what ? I give up. I've already been suppressing the hurt you've inflicted when we went out with #1. You only bothered to care about her, whole day stressing about her and you even dissed our meeting just because she wanted to meet you. I refused to contact you but it only worked out for 1 week cos I felt that I'd be more childish that way - holding a grudge that's so minor it's almost invisible. But now, you're repeating it all over again and you kno what ?


My good friend once told me :
" Once bitten, Twice shy. Twice bitten, GO AND DIE ! "

If this is the way you want it to be, then guess what ?
I'm fine with it. Just make sure we don't ever contact again.
Good Bye.
May you flourish your friendship with her.

PS, I aint holding no grudges. I'm just admitting defeat.
Peace out.

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ANYWAY !!

im still stuck here, is there any medical clinics near orchard or novena ??? i've searched it online but i cant find it !!!! ?_?

PS : i'm lovin my hair baby !!!!!!




ha ha ha, this time it's for real. well . . . so long as there is the curlin iron :oP

ok i gotta go i guess. i'm shopping alone today cos my friends cant make it last minit but o well . . . . im afraid of answering Private Number calls cos mom has been callin me since mornin to ask if i've visited the doc's :oP

so i gotta go. i cant go on this way aye !

PS LOOK @ KK N HER MOM !!!!!!!!!


ha ha ha her mom's freakin gawjuz if only i could look like her when i'm old too *__*
PS, i'm callin u in 10, KK ! sry i culdnt reply u last night cos i was asleep.
missing you much ! :o)
PS did u straighten yr hair !!!? looks younger now my dear ! :oD

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UPD8.
in the end farah culdnt make it last minit so i left myself. i didnt kno where on earth the clinic was in this area so i took a cab all the way back to toh yi's dr chong. mom called n told me to take a cab cos she said im sick n i shuldnt walk. she told me to stay warm so tts the new cardi that im wearin in e pic !!! cost me 50$ -..- but tt was the only one i culd find tts pretty n useful so ye . .

dr chong's was closed so the kind driver U turned back to this clinic called silver cross. my first time there. n the doc is young. ha ha ha. i sick until memry fail. i 4got my queue number the mo i sat down. n i even forgot my bag of popular stuff at the cardigan shop !!! i was queueing 4 a cab when i noticed my hands felt empty. ANW !! ttz all. i cant RMB wat happened tt day. c. the bad thing about late updates -..-

aft shoppin alone n back from e doc's.



bought a watermelon home.


next time cannot be chef. donno aim centre ended up like this -..-

HIHIZ.

i just got up. wa lau, damn s2pid. i slept at 11.30pm cos mom said i need 2 rest in order to recover. but guess wot !!!!

i got awoken by nature's call @ 1.30am _l_

momsie was tellin me to drink plenty of water so i drank one big bottle ( 1500ml ) and i've been visiting the toilet since -..-

i was tryin my best to fall back asleep but guess it aint werkin by e look ofit !!

mom was in the hospital gettin her jab when i called. she said tt if i dont like the prom dress tt was chosen by JX aunt n the staffs, i shuld go back n get the one i like. which obviously i aint doin. i may be a spendthrift but i aint thaaaat bad ;o)
i still have some sense in me no worries.

i think my influenza is subsiding. the throat still hurts of coz but there's less blocked nose compared 2 yst. only cough and phlegm. mom was angry at me ha ha ha. she said i shuld have woken up early 2day to visit the doc's n the mo she heard my flu voice, she 4got all about prom n started gushin on n on about drinkin plenty of warm water n havin plenty of rests. she hung up the fone, tellin me to rest early. 1 minit later, she called back n aske i i was havin a fever. ha ha. she's fierce when it comes to health problems n i never fail to listen cos she's usually momly but once my bros n i r sick, she'll get so worried she'll use her angry tone n ask why we didnt take our meds. i guess she has to be this way cos imagain yr kids living so far away alone n they have 2 deal w their illness n torture all by themselves . .

i still rmb the other time when i was in BKK out in the lan shop.
i was still updatin my blog but thawat was already in the shop fetchin us home cuz lunch was ready. i rlly h8 to be interrupted whn i m doin smth so i refused to go home. jas left w him and 30 min later, they came back to ask me go home cos mom said i still needed 2 take my meds but i only left after 1 hr. i just wanted to show em tt i was pissed.

when i got home, she said i was crazy n why culdnt i come home first to take my meds n lunch b4 goin out 2 play again ? no, she didnt say it nicely. she scolded me :oP

n that is the one day i will never live down cos i did someth i shuldnt n i will regret 4 eternity. even mom was shocked when she saw my expression . . . i was so hurt at my own behaviour i didnt even have the face to c her and only wallowed in sorrow n tears in my bedroom. every time i think of it, it embarrasses me n if theres one thing i wish to 4get,
it's that.

ANW i dont kno how i even got here . . . . i was talkin about my sickness just now :oP
so yep yep tts all 4 now. i want go sleep again if not i will regret.

pls dont let the worst befall on me. i refuse to admit to the facts. i want her to get well. i want to be there to take her to the hospital, not anyone else. it fuckin pains me to know she's in this fucking condition but get this, sickness. u fuckin leave my mom or i swear yr generations will nvr live it down _l_