october 28th 2008. ( long entry ahead ! )

today's the day i got my first bible :o)
now, i have a mission to complete.


right. i have realized that i am beginning to update my blog very vaguely so here's a super detailed one coming up about me life me life me life ( supposed to read it in a sean kingston way. ) right so . .

i am currently reading much more about Jesus and i think i've made some mistakes in the past so here's when i am really gonna change and know much more about Him. i am beginning to realize that He is The One and im not makin much sense here now am i ? okay thing is, this time, I Myself am interested and is on my own to find out more about Him instead of people tellin me to know more about Him without me really wanting to. see. i type Him instead of just him becos now i know but anyway ! i am gonna set myself into a mini mission for my own and my family's good. ha ha, goodness. sorry if i ask too much questions janelle and koh wei. i hope u 2 will not be pissed :o)

next thing is of cos about the promotion thingy. i failed my exams pretty damn badly. no no, scratch that. i failed it M I S E R A B L Y and after moms met mrs tan, she told her ( mrs tan told mom. ) that i will be d) transferred down to the normal stream. g) retaining in the same sec 3express. to confirm she has already made up her mind, she even suggested i start buying the normal acad books to get ready. that was hoooow sure she was of me droppin. but of cos, i wasnt affected cos like i said, i need the time in the world to clear all the foundations.

so anyway. i only passed my english and chinese. the rest were among the 10-30ish range. but for combined humans, i got a 49 so that's like what, 1 more mark to passing ? so after moderation, i got a 50 for combined humans so that pretty much " helped. " me get promoted up to secondary 4. but then the thing is, it is not yet confirmed cos i have to attend the foundation prog and stay on after school to get some remedial sessions from the teachers and have some combined humans test before confirming if i can REALLY be promoted up . . . or not. well anyway. there's this another guy in class who was amongst the bunches of guys that have a possibility of being either dropped or retained and he's retainin fosho after the parents-meeting-session and it's just, i think he deserves it more than i do cos if you think about it, wait. let us do some comparisons here.

both my math and science were 10-20ish. and as we all know, these 2 are some hella important subz. this guy scored, both the subz, among the 40-48ish range. so if you really think about it, who really deserves to go up to express ? def him ! i mean, who needs combined humans in the workin industry. just name me one who does !! ( excpet being historians which u think i will be meh ? ) right ? i told mr t about it but all they say is the result is all dependant on the number of subz we pass. which is ? really l-a-m-e. they shuld open up their eyes and see which subjects we pass before makin any decisions. well anyway. his identity is protected. im not tryin to be some good momma here by sayin he deserves it more than i do cos hey, i can be the sell-fish bitch yo ! if i dont go up to express, damn ! i have alllllllllll the time to get ready for O level and i have alllllll the time in the world to friggin diet for prom night !! there are many things to look forward to if i am either retained or transferred down ! the only thing is, if i retain, i will be like hitting on the ' replay. ' button.

- the same old subjects,
- the same old words,
- the same old teachings,
- the same old sec 3 camp,
- the same old time-table,
- the same old recipe for food science,
- the same old formulas to remember by,
- the same old programmes.

every thing will be on repeat but the only thing i cant change ? it's that i will never be seventeen again. yep. so . . .

anyway. my hair being straight thing. i decided to have it straightened mainly becos of mrs tan. or rather, becos of her complaints. she complained to my mom that my hair was way too messy so we decided ( mom and i. ) to straighten it cos it will look wayyy neater. plus, the whole new hair cut was supposed to be on the neat side so i wont be caught in unnecessary appearance-offence.

next thing is, about jaw. i have decided to type it down cos after some considerations, this is where i note down the little things happening to me in my life so i thot, why not just write it down cos it's not like what he did was a human-harming kinda thang ? so well. jaw has officially terminated his studies in Singapore and actually, he is already goin back to myanmar tomorro to be specific. ha ha, what a short notice i kno but yep. today's his last day in sunny island singapore. thing is, how is he gonna contact his girlfriend ? ha ha ! i kno i kno. not my friggin biznezz here but he and the girl with him now seem pretty close and stuff so i was just thinkin, y'kno. since this is their last time seeing each other, will they like y'know. do something to remind themselves that they are or were or whichever, together. like y'kno. they kno they will not see each other anymore and since they know they are true to each other, will they like give their every thing to each other ? you kno, EVER-REE-THANG.okay lah. i will shut up. but anyway. he is terminating his studies cos just like me, he flunked his exams. so he will go back to myanmar and after some thorough thinking, he will then decide if he is still interested in studying. if he is, momsie will send him to school again. but destination is yet to be known. also, i will werk hard. i kno i hav been sayin i will i will but then i always endup sayin " next time lah ! " i have to have to have to excel and go over to UK if not i will live my life with regret. so so so. let's see . . . what else do we have to UPD8 about . . .

ooooo yes ! my hair !!! ha ha, okay so. for this year, i am not gonna be dye'ing my hair anymore cos i only have a tiny month to enjoy the holiday ! so if i dye it to some exotic color, i will be dye'ing it back to black for school after 30 days and to think of all the pain and damage my hair is gonna go thru, MY HEART TRULY BLEEDS FOR IT ! P.S : no exaggerations intended. and one more thing ! i will be flyin back alone this time round !!!! ha ha, i donno if this is supposed to be a good thing or wot cos for one, there's no faggie to help me take pictures. i dont even kno if i remember how to find the boardin gate since i havent been in the plane for let's see . . . 7 friggin' months !!!!! remember the june holidays ? i had to be stuck in singapore thinkin i could find some jobs. that is the One Big Mistake i will never get over with man. one whole month wasted here !!!! my my. i shuld get goin. it's well past 00.30 o'clock. good bye. have a good sleep.

braws.

Day
Out
with
Momsie.

met mom over @ bedok for ban mien cos jurong east's is currently closed ( i hav no idea why. )
this is actually my second time goin all the way over to bedok to have that delicious bowl of ban mien down my tummy. jasfag decided to stay home since he wanted to play some online game with jaw together so mom and i went over to wheelock's to get our brows done. my borws have got totally no hope if u've noticed thanks alot to to my ithcy hands. but today, it is saved and i love it very much tho i have to draw on it cos it looks way too bald now. didn't have time to buy my clothes since my curfew today was 20 o'clock. i'm hittin on esprit zara and mango. have seen esprit's but yet to try them on. went for dinner over at sun with moon again ( picture. ) i can proudly declare that i had 2 slices of salmon sashimi. ha ha ! today's was darn fresh and it surprisingly didnt make me feel the urge to throw up. well anyway.

jaw's goin back on the 28ish and momsie and jaze are goin back on the 30th so that pretty much goes to say i will be all alone here in sunny island singapore.

foundation prog is gonna start tomorrow. bimbi's school is long over. i dont even kno if i can be released at 12 sharp since i gotta stay on to have mrs tan's detention and shit. well, forget them gloomy thangs aside yo ! i will be shoppin tomorro ! thatz if of cos i can be released at 12 :o)

thing is . . . .

am i supposed to be over the moon that i can still remain in the express stream ?


im not so sure about that.


next you'll see me sing already ok.

PURE BLISS. special treat !

so once, there was a girl named Lucy who got caught for doin counterfeit notes with her face printed on instead of someone much more significant. she was merely bored and had no intentions of using them excpet for the sake of fun and art but laws are laws.

and when the rule of faking the notes is violated,


she pitifully got sent behind bars.

but instead of being caged for 2.5 years, considering the fact that what she did was serious, she was let out early for she possessed a special aura that drew people into her, making them wonder if she ever have any flaws, at all. the prison soldiers thot she looked too much like an angel to be playin the devil. the media eyed her and welcomed her into the family with big open arms like
()------big arms-------- o.o -------big arms------------()

she was invited to many shows and modeling agencies.

she posed for the Christmas Times,


and even got into the show during christmas which was nominated for the best acting award !


she was a very accomplished young celebrity, appearing in world-wide mags, takin over many of the older and more recognized faces.


after just 3 weeks of being recognized by the public, her picture was already makin its way to the Gallaria of Women-in-the-Fast-Lane.


she appeared every where - - the window displays, the walls, basically any and every where she could possibly be.



she was invited to all the endless of glamor parties, never failed to attend any of them without havin her pictures taken.



got the main roles as easy as hey-hi-bye.


some crazy filthy wealthy people even idolized her to the extent of hanging her on their front gates !!!


world-top designers were awed by her they were inspired by lucy their designs were based on lucy.


her posters hit world wide.


she was even on the wall of the most-important houses across the country ! literally listenin to each and every words exchanged.


but alas !! she was ready to go on a battle. a battle that will completely twist her life 360, givin her no friggin chance to turn over ever again, leavin her no mercy in her past wotsoever. but of cos and expected, she didn't see any of those mentioned coming so she put on a bright face and marched on.

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she has met the man of her dreams - the man she thot was everything she ever wanted, and every thing she had ever needed.


Mr Romeo. Mr Hero. Mr Super. Mr Wonderful. Mr Perfect. Mr Everything.

The Stuperman.
- notes to reader. -
Mr S was on a play when Lucy took this picture in case you go thinkin Mr S is a Mr Weird wearin that costume that was never meant to be in the real life.


she wasted no time, afraid the quote of " you never know what u got until it's gone. " so she wasted no time and got hitched. Mr S obviously agreed like a hungry puppy cos remember lucy carried a luring aura around her ???



millions and millions of her fans supported her even tho she was considered the married one. see that ring there ? thats the 100kg rock she was pampered with by Mr S.


tons and tons of her male fans she once had were on the verge of a complete breakdown, no, they were well past that stage. they were utterly miserable. this man here was so completely hopelessly in love with lucy he maniacally printed thousands of the same picture of lucy, starin at her in the frame and crying with heart-ache. PS, Mr A for admirer was 32 years older than Lucy but he loved her from afar despite the different age groups.


but of cos, lucy had no clues she had such crazy fans in fact she was so in love with Mr S she spent her day and night snuggling in bed with him without meeting the world and leading the life she once used to.


and of cos, as expected. unLucky Lucy was cursed with the birth of a baby girl who looked just like her. i'm sayin she was doomed with a kid becos as expected from celebrity hubbies, they dump you the mo you have a kid. lucy thought she could go back to her old golden days to earn some blings for her family but who knew people would reject her so harshly ? gone were the time people thought of her as the diva, the goddess, gone were the days were she lived off her wages, gone were her money and her fame, all she was left with was a bloody child and a few sarongs she found in her neighbor's bins.
may i add that Mr S had a middle name ?
he was actually Mr T S. the full name of his was Mr Thief Stealer but obviously it sounded uncool so he had the thiefy cheeks to change it to Mr Tea Stuperman but obviously, Lucy was too love struck to bother about his name or any shit like that. so ! Mr Thief obviously married Lu for her beauty and her fortune. this cunning little fucker here managed to persuade Lucy into sharing the same bank account with him but like i said, lucy was way to in love to care a shit so after Lucy had Loosy ( it was a loose-child. if that makes sense. ) Mr Thief that cunning fucker grabbed every cents of Lucy's and changed the password for their shared account which was of cos very typical of thieves. Lucy no longer had the status and the money needed for survival. she crashed down as immediately as she rose up.

big companies dropped on her,


her posters no longer saw the light of the day


for they were replaced with new models.


her portraits were tossed around like a Flat Frisbee.


she was left with nothing, but Loosy.

from a celebrity to a beggarity,


lucy felt her heart filled with anger and betrayal but remember. she was a Lucy Strong indie woman. she hit the pubs daily and drowned her sorrows in alcohol but she did not turn into an alcoholic cos well, she is not one. in case you cant make out what the title says, it says
" Drinking signs from Fatal position. "
well if you dont understand what it means, it was just one of the slangs they used back then so dont bother.

the media got hold of Mr A for admirer, remember him ? well he was Lucy's oldest admirer and Mr A said he wished upon his last working tooth that Lucy would not crumble down like an apple crumple. he longed to see the ol lucy more than savin his last strand of black hair.
" Dearest Lucy, if you can hear me, please, get back. you were never different before or after you were wedded to that bloody bastard. you will always remain as the queen of my heart, remember, there are many of us out here who still care about you. please lucy, think lucky and lucid. "
as quoted from Mr A himself.


well magically, lucy got hold of the newspaper clipping and she thot to herself :
why the fuck and i brooding over the past ? why do i fall so badly ? why do i give so much of a shit to people who don't love me for who i really am ? why do i care if they love or do not love me ? i am only botherin about them, pleasing them when i am not born to do it, i will get a grip of my life and start afresh. i am gonna live my life to the fucken fullest you nincompoops !!! "

so here she goes marching again, but take note : this time, with determination and re-stored independence. with every steps she marches, she tells herself no one is gonna get in her way, with every steps she took, she tells herself she is not here to please others. with that, she marched off to a place no on knew of.



her best friend Mdm Loonsie found out that Lucy was a fisherwoman now, living the life like the fish - free and carefree.
" Loosy is here carrying the fish, living her life with Lucy happily so . . . "
quoted from Mdm Loonsy herself.


and,
THE END !

ha ha ha !! holy shit. that was one hella lame story but i had fun typing and imagining.

the pictures are edited from photofunia. i decided to check this site out after visitng KK's friendster. this guy gave her a comment thru photofunia and it seemed pretty interesting so itchy hands me went to check it out and so check it out when you get the chance to too cos it pretty damn rock !
well anyway !! i had lunch over at pu-tien restaurant and then met lawrence over at orchard to watch a movie but there weren't any that fitted in to our time slots so we settled with max payne ( read pain. ) it isn't say very good or very bad i guess. actions are fine but story line is pretty off my knowledge of understanding. well anyway, jason and momsie watched with us too. after watching, law and i went to westmall cos it was still kinda early by the time we reached bukit batok and then we decided t take 173 home cos it takes like 30 odd minits to reach his and an hour to reach mine but anyway ! here're the pictures.












they are all either a little shaky or unclear cos we were the bus that kept jerkin. BTW, if u referred to L's blog, i am really a big eater like he mentioned. ha ! ha ! i had the fuckin fullest lunch ever but after that we still ate like there was no tomorrow. i wanna go escape theme park real badly ! either that or snow city. as long as i can have the wind blow my hair and make me scream, im fine with it all. im sick and tired of sittin in the air-packed room just watching and talkin. i need the life of an adventure. it's a pity singapore doesnt offer much of an adventure-based theme park or esle, i will be their most frequent visitor of all time ! ok i sirpoze this is all my big fat mouth gotsa say so ciaozzzie !!


i was given the crab to attack. ha ha ! jannie pokie bimbi ! remember coconuts ??? ha ha ! i feel like eatin 'em again dammit !


as the caption says it all, as the caption says it all . . .


more fun with photofunia. the xtras.






jaze. ha ha ! that fag !!! see ! i am rewardin him with a hottie mootie.