習慣就好。。

i've been rejected so many times but guess what ???

rejection is still not one of my fortes.. both ways.

the tears i try so hard to hold back just keep surging forward,

crashing on to the emotions i already cannot flee away from,,,

i don't knows..

these few days my emotions have been runnin so wild i might be diagnosed with life-threatening mood swings or somethin..

i want to cry till my tears dry,,

but i still insist on puttin a brave front and shrug em off w everyone gets rejected but nope..

i keep gettin rejected merciless.

over and over.

no, not guys-related stuff, duh.

i don't quite give a shit about things like guys.

( unless they r gods like enrique or ming dao lah,, )

but these officials.

like what do they think ???

that rejecting people is their full time hobby ????

i don't lay my hands on ANY THING much less get my burmese arse rejected,,,

but when i do, i cry like a baby full of tears and snots lol.

i don't cry like a burmese arse just cuz i got rejected.

i cry my burmese arse out cuz im not used to rejection and the feeling sure as hell,,,,,

sucks.

and im so pissed when that happens cuz the feelin is so goddamn raw it hurts..

when my hardwork all but pay off.

where wakin up early in the goddamn hour just proves to fail,,,

over and over.

i shuld juz go bang the wall, no kiddin zzz.

ugh. the more i think of it, the more i just hope someone would just take it over..

on a brighter note,

( yes now tt my pimples r beginnin 2 subside,

i juz noticed i have 3 moles on my cheeks lol -..- the other 2 r 2 faint 2 c. )

!!!!!!!!!!!

IM NOOB UPGR8ED YO !!!!!!

HA ! HA ! HA ! HA !!!!

ok.

if ur i-sights r the size of pea, i've got my noob piercings done p-sights !!! :oP

hope this time these puny holes dont die on me merciless lor.

if not next time my ears sure full of puny holes one..

ANW, i got these puny holes not to act cool hor. ( HA ! HA !!! )

i was feelin real moody when i got em BOTH done on the same night lo..

i was experincing one of the darkest moments in joys's life

hence i needed 2 feel the pain ( not said in the emo way of cuz zzz. )

the 2 puny holes stands 4 new life.

these 2 puny metal balls :

( red ass. after it juz got pierced. )

remind me to stand tall when all the odds r fuckin against me.

these 2 puny metal balls :

( i look like i was tearin but trust me,

i was brave like hercules ok.

my eyes swollen cuz these days my sleepin habbit bloody the haywire. )

remind me that i have my to remember when all the pain keeps crashin on me.

these 2 puny metal balls :

( taken in jase's room. forced tt selfish tard 2 take. )

forces me to be strong and brave every single day.

in short, these 2 puny metal balls are,,,,

a new joys's life..

ok, puny metal balls aside, here r some of the puny metal balls pictas.

dont laugh @ my noobie piercings hor.

if not my 2 puny metal balls will come haunt u in ur sleep one ok.

they come crawlin inside ur nose then u know ah.

yes, im tryna b kind. i didnt say ur V or A ok.

ha ha ha ! just teasin i gotsa go !!!!

pimples r popping freely again zzz -..-

went back 2 kismis 4 the last time last night...

2 collect some of my pictures left behind of daddy kins.

white boix juz got back home, playin GTA in his school u.

pls bathe hor boy.

if not sure armpit odor damn strong.

( guys w B.O is a major n instant turn off for me. ew.... ~_~ )

( learnt this flyin face from KK lol. it's quite cute hor !!! )

and o yea. another thing impt about guys' grooming tt i take v seriosuly is their toes\legs.

dirty and long nails are major ew enuf said.

he has nice toes i RMB !!!

HA HA HA !!!

joyz not the time 2 turn back, no no no !

he n u r worlds apart darlin ~

er yes. i talk 2 myself HE HE HE HE !!!!!!

jase bending his abnormally tall stature 2 fit

my normal perfect moto height ! he he !!!

see. my height is perfect lo... not short ok !!!! ( xcuses anyone ?? )

dear jase is growing pimples on his face !!!

this is when i kno my little white boi bro is evolving in2 a man.

hope he wont sprout like a bean sprout.

if not next time take pics w him 4 sure difficult..

he he. sorry i cant get enuf, no i cant get enuf. its a song duh,

act cute smile abit..

dling dling !!!

im like takin a pic of my 2 puny metal balls every where i go. this is in e kitchen.

i have pics of it in the cab n lifts but im savin u from

sleepless nights of my beauty roamin in ur dreams t he hes. ~

ending off w me edited ( duh. )

GOOD NIGHT !!!!!!

UPD8 SOON ~

幹嘛這麼久還沒接受我啊,,,,,,,

本來還想裝酷可是現在酷我奶啊,,,,

求求你別再讓我等啦拜託拜託 ～!!! (>__<)'''

Comment ça va y'all ???? ( how's it goin y'all ???? )

YOZZIE MOZZIE !!!!!!!

LOL def long time no say tt n long time no write yo !!!

ok so i've been BZ again, v sadly.. can u believe i only got back home last night at motherforking 23.30 BZily doin all those damned docs. ???????

gosh i wonder how i still stay so " buff. " from all these tiresome work lo.. i still have these lards in my body even after running from this destination to the other lo.. but o wells. let's c. quick short UPD8s in joys's life April 2010.

5) i've lost my phone so the only way u can contact me is thru emailing.. i read my yahoo mails most but only 2 people know tt add so no point, really, to mention it lol foolish :oP i will inform u when i get my 9822 back. i love my number so im applyin the same number. twice.

12) im currently lodging in KK's place till i have decided my next step. im currently on the verge of a major break down ( only jokin duh. every one knows i like 2 ssstttrrreeetttccchhh ( e-yak e-yak. ) my words HA HA HA HA ! no not drama queen thankiu. ) which pretty much amounts 2 about 2-3 months b4 movin on 2 TW or BKK. it's so messy i swear im not gonna UPD8 on ANAYTHING until it's all confirmed.

34) IM REALLY XCITED CUZ I WILL BE SCHOOLING AGAIN !!!!!! u cant believe im already bored outta my dumb wits ok !!! i dont work i dont school im basically just livin my days on boredom !!!!! and freedom ! but this is def not one of the freedoms i enjoy grr.. i like havin my hands on somethin.. i miss writing 習字。。

對，我在學習寫繁體所以若有甚麼錯字就多多放過哀家咯！！！！

ok so my point is, im dead xcited 'll be goin 2 school again ( even when they are teaching me the basic of the basics suchas ni hao wo hao da jia hao. )

34.5) dont mind me when i complain of lethargy when i start school lol ^^

1001) i miss home.

thats all. BB.

o yea. kiss goodbye 2 all my pictures now that the phone is gone.

the picts to goin back to BV, the pics to bringing jase out, the picts to meeting KW and most imptly, the pics 2 beautiful me and my beautiful cousins in MM !!!!!!!!

AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG FML, REALLI !!!!!!!!!

Im a fatigué so BB all. dont mind me. im a noob in french. slowly but surely i will learn to say in sentences. im such a noob brrr :oP

au revoir ~!!!

Bonjour ~!!!!

FUCK A DUCK JOYZ HAN IZ FINALLY FREE 2 UPD8 HER POOR LIL NEGLECTED SITE AGHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's been really long since i last did a proper entry !! well, aside from the previous H8 entry of cuzz... but let's not talkabout it cuz i've already deleted those 2 ex " best friends. " off joys han's life so shoo they go far far away ~.

anyway im in such an amazin blazin mood cuz im finally free yáll ~!!!!!

gone will b the days i only had 3 mere hours of sleep ! gone will be the days i had to drag my aching feet to these unknown buildings to apply for docs !

gone ~~ gone ~~~!!!!! all gone !


so im really relieved and happy. ( honestly tho, im tyrin 2 4get the fact that i still have like a quarter of work to complete. my scheduled flight was supposed to be tmr at 15.55 but i just received a call from momsie n TW aunt this A.M sayin i have to remain in SG to complete more official documents brrrrr. )

but aside from tt, IM GR8 ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. shant talk longer so pictures gonna be up !!!!! pardon my site. i havent been uploading pictures for god knows how long.. mainly cuz im just self-declared ' lazy. ' he he he :oP

ok. gotta go ~!!!!!!! ciao !!!!!!

speakin of ciao n bonjour, im gonna be learning french how cool is that !!!!!

i love the way the language flows. how beautiful ~~~~~~

ok lah. really gotta go so BB !!

MEET MY NEW BABIES !!!!!
( my 19th BD gifts 2010. PS my BD is on jan 23. no one wish me lor so sad... :o''( )


and the 4 most important cards in my life !
chanel n prada are classic w\o being 2 OTT messy.
startbucks card my bro jaw bought me so i wouldnt have 2 carry my big fat wallet out the next time we chill out. not sure if SG has come up this method tho..
and lastly, my thai airways card !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for a girl who loves travelling, this is an absolute must !!!!!!!! hope i get gold card soon... can get free 20kg baggage weight leh !!!!!!!!

that day's make up was a lil thick i admit but i was carried away :o\ !!!




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us n our fave pose. we do this 2 each other when we wake up lor how sad. ha ha !




we r cannibalz !! rahrrr !!!! ew. so act cute the rahrrrr.



forcin bro 2 bend lower.. tt unusually tall creature zz -..-

me takin last pic of the place i grew up in SG !!! er these pics must edit abt stronger if not u will surely scrutinize my lovely figure lol WTF HA HA HA !!!!! u know. " lovely figure. " HA ! HA! HA !




ma bro w his new toys !!!! guilty of encouragin him 2 buy these GTA games cuz..... er.. i want 2 play also when he goes sku lol. ya i dont have a PSP ha ha ha !!!!!!



selfish jase dun wanna take pic of me 4 me so i had 2 self service lo..
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yes yes tt is major sunken eyes u c !!!! thx 2 no sleep bloody hell :o\



selfish tard -..-




yes my bro is that casual.. thats one thing i love abt him ha ha ha ^^
said the table 4 2 was 2 small n asked me 2 request 4 table for 4 the next time we eat lol,,

my bro takes care of my $ - and sadly, tt includes no taking of taxis aaaaaaagh !!!!!!!!!!

so here i am, stuck in the tube w people of all walks of lives,,,,

" FRIENDS. "

u r such a fucking copy cat i hope u die after reading this _l_


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and " xxxx. " and so much more im observing u. so watch out cunt.

im here 2 esp warn u sucker. what a cunt face. " friends. " my bloody burmese arse. u can kiss a " friend. " like me GB coz u so arent my " friend. " sucker _l_

tsk.

go rot in ur lil pathetic world of fats. _l_

..

.. .. 'cos life in singapore is only that..
..

-

to my brother, Jaw.

YO BROTHER ~!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR JAW ~~..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!!!!

wishing you the best year ahead w everything goin your way ! even when times are bad, just knock on my door n i will be there ( always. ) w clean ears, ready to listen ! don't stress too much about things that cant be altered. we will live and fight for the glory yep !!

HAPPY 20TH, BIG MAN !!!!!!!!!!


PS, im only a few hours early :oP
u know here. i don't have a laptop there for me 24\7 :oP
and further more, i cant be sure if i can use the comp tmr to wish u a HB so here's me being early, excited, and a little too big mouth ^^ sigh....

HAPPI L8 APRIL FOOLZ !

Defense Attorney:
Will you please state your age?

Little Old Lady:
I am 94 years old.

Defense Attorney:
Will you tell us, in your own words, what happened the night of April 1st?

Little Old Lady:
There I was, sitting there in my swing on my front porch on a warm spring evening, when a young man comes creeping up on the porch and sat down beside me.

Defense Attorney:
Did you know him?

Little Old Lady:
No, but he sure was friendly.

Defense Attorney:
What happened after he sat down?

Little Old Lady:
He started to rub my thigh.

Defense Attorney:
Did you stop him?

Little Old Lady:
No, I didn't stop him.

Defense Attorney:
Why not?

Little Old Lady:
It felt good. Nobody had done that since my Albert died some 30 years ago.

Defense Attorney:
What happened next?

Little Old Lady:
He began to rub my breasts.

Defense Attorney:
Did you stop him then?

Little Old Lady:
No, I did not stop him.

Defense Attorney:
Why not?

Little Old Lady:
His rubbing made me feel all alive and excited. I haven't felt that good in years!

Defense Attorney:
What happened next?

Little Old Lady:
Well, by then, I was feeling so 'spicy' that I just laid down and told him
'Take me, young man. Take me now!'

Defense Attorney:
Did he take you?

Little Old Lady:
Hell, no! He just yelled, ' April Fool!' And that's when I shot him, the little bastard

HA ! HA ! HA ! HA ! HA !!!!!!!

hope u have a GR8 week ahead !!!!

PS I WILL B BACK 2 SG TMR YES WHAT A SURPRISE I DIDNT PLAN IT EITHER !! promising u a long UPD8 when i m free. it's time 2 go 2 bed.

or else a repeat of cathay pacific is gonna befall on me where i ditched them merciless.

TWICE.

.

yoz waddubpbpbpbp !????

ok. first of all u gotta 4give me for the lack of UPD8s ive been hell BZ these few days goin out w momsie n the taiwanese troop i have absolutely no time 2 visit my sweet old v old bloggie :o(

but ANW ! im back n thats wot !!! like i said, i WILL blog more frequently even if it's just a line or a word... even if it's just a hi also HA HA HA HA !!!!

so erm. let's c. the latest happenings in joys's life . . . ???

i cant think of anything except that the bloody big cat tt scratched me last year is back again n i have been feeding it secretly :oP apparently he\she belongs 2 pod's family -..-

my neighbour -..-

other than doin charitable works ( BIG HA-HA. ) we finally have a part time maid !!!!!!! now i dont even have 2 wash the dishes HE HE HE HE HE ^^ she n i get along pretti well n thats the most impt thing i can tell u about it. if u H8 ur maid, change. if not neither of u is gonna be happy. u hating everything she does, picking on every little thing she touches and she in turn gettin pissed n reluctant n blah blah blah u ged e floe ;o)

i seem 2 b quite the xpert in maid relationships no . . . ???? coz i m. n i aint flattering myself. i know maids too well -..-

ok. maid sub done. next ????

next. next. lets c wats next....

oh yes !!!! ive been takin care of my skin meticulously. is tt how u use the word tho ??? hehehe. 4give me i havent touched english for heavens kno how long -..-

so anyways, im currently using shiseido's products n s far s the results r showing, IM PLEASED DAMMIT IM DARN PLEASED !!!!!

let's wait a lil longer tho shall we b4 i introduce these magical products ??? i have been using it for about 3 weeks now. lets c...

and one bloody hell. i am damn pissed but i gotta go. u only know the reason 2 welll ~~~!!!

LUNCH AWAITS 4 ME YO !!!!!

BRB.

-

oki doki im back it's 14 now but i ave 2 hurry BIG TIME cuz bro n i r gonna b out 4 ice skatin n watchin this titans something show in 3D..

i dno... ive been crazy abt 3Dimetionals lately.
the only show tt i havent watched in 3D is when in rome. the rest r all in 3D, in imax studio. now i finally know the diff btwn imax n non-imax -..- _l_

so yes !!!! about mi about mi.

i have been abstaining from consuming pork,,,,,, hmm for about 3 weeks now :O

ha ha ha dont laugh. i was such a meat-eater in the past i know !!!! but due to some priv8 matters, i have finally kicked the stench of pork ( ew. major ew. ) off my system. i think pork is disgusting. just the smell ewwwwwwwwww can put me off my meal for a week i swear !!!!! ok maybe not a week tt was def a lil over xaggerated :oP maybe 2 days tops :o)

in fact im quite proud no damn it. im not QUITE proud. im BLOODY proud 2 announce tt i have been staying off meats these days.
i replace pork w chicken.
i replace chicken with prawns.
and i eat a hell lot of beef...
everywhere we dine out, i choose beef. be it T-bone or sirlion, i choose it medium n eat the hell out of it. ye T-bone er im quite embarrased to admit but i can actually finish the whole damn pl8 on my own hehehehe :oP
quit ewwing bullheads !!!!! :oP

ok. quiting pork OBVIOUSLY didnt come outta ' self-willing. '

like i said it was due to priv8 matters :o) serioiusly im way over pork. momsie was drinking this pork soup last night i almost vomitted. xcept of coz i dont kno how 2 vomit.

is tt weird or wat ?????

i havent vomitted for 9 years now come to think of it :O
ever since i got in SG to study when i was 9, i haven't been vomitting. back when i was a kid i remember the most i vomitted was 2 times. 1 at the dentist n the other at the clinic. but of coz there r times when i feel this strange odour creeping up my oesophagus ( TY food science for teachin me this term u rokkkk !!!! even tho u flunked me merciless ITE bitch tard _l_ ) but no matter how hard i try, i cant freaking vomit -..-

so anyways, enuf about sick stuff im way over it hooray ! anti pork man !!!!!

ok. to pork lovers, go enjoy ur meal.

so last sub of my entry is of coz back to the more imp0rtant things revolving my life right now @ age 18-19 ( my family insists i was born in year '92 AAARGH !!!! i SWEAR i was born in '91 !!!!! even my passport says so but im confused. when ppl ask me my age, i say 18. to some i say 19. to some my fam even say 17 -..- ARRRGH I DONT WANNA BE A SEVENTEEN !!!!! OR AN EIGHTENN !!! IM A NINETEEN HELLO ! A MATURED 19 !!!!!! heavens. ) but anyway !!!

back to the more important matter, i am officially goin to be studying in tai wan.. like it or not.

to be frighteningly honest, i m dead xcited !!!!!!!!! ^^^^^

老娘要去做一个中国婆了耶！！！！！

HA HA HA HA HAO KAI XIN O !!!!

the only downside is of coz i wont be using much of english in future but i promise i will NOT 4get english !!!!!! and of cos i will miss KK :o'''( and funnily enuf, mr fake president u stupid BAKA !!!!!! i will miss ur mushroom life i swear! :'o(

but it's no time 2 be emotional. life is a bitch. my life anyway. i dont ever get PERMANENT. my life is quite sad come to think of it..

i dont have things tt belong 2 me PERMANENTLY. like in MM, the house n rooms n toys that i have grown up w doesnt blong 2 me PERMANENTLY ! like in BKK, the room i live doesnt blong 2 me PERMANENTLY !! isnt it ironic ??????? these are all my properties hello !?? but none of them n i belong to each other. i stay here like a guest. i pack up my belongings after 2 months, i move to SG. i stay there like a guest till school breaks out, i pack my belongings, i get back to either MM or BKK and the cycle just goes on. this is my life. my sad life. thats something many doesnt kno.. it sounds simple and fun but trust me. IT'S NOT. it hurts. it bloody well does..

i want to belong. PERMANENTLY. i want to stay in my room. PERMANENTLY. i want to sleep on my bed. PERMANENTLY. i want to use my wardrobes. PERMANENTLY. i just want to be HERE. not there ! or there ! or even way off there !!

anyway, my life is like a ball. it rolls off. it has no specific directions. it goes where the winds blow. it doesnt belong anywhere...

which is why in summary, i made a quote about my life tt really spells me.

wait. lemme think coz it was way long ago like 2-3 years back ???? idno when. it was when i went to vietnam. when i had short hair. short hair i had in sec 2 so about 3.5 years back..

hmmm.... what was tt ?? lemme think.

i have v v v v v v v v v short term memory no thank you.

shit i really cant rememebr. the more i try to rememebr the more it doesnt come 2 me so i'll leave it at that. will post it when it comes knocking on my memory lane aight !

oki ave 2 go so bye bye !!!!!

ive been dead lazy too BTW. tts impt. i AM lay-z !!!!

like always !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mua ha ha ha ha....

pictures are cluttering mother's laptop and i havent even resized em. is anyone willing to resize them for me ??? i will pay !!!!!!! HA HA HA HA HA !!!! what a goon. obviously the only person that is gonna volunteer is me myself n i -..-

ugh FML.

herez a bigazz pic of me edited w my new specs !

same night i took the pic for my blog header.. BB !