and we can fade into darkness

we talked, we walked
we drunk, we swayed
we hugged, we spoke


tonight i truly understood the meaning of " our bodies clicked. " not in the sensual way but ugh. im still a virgin FYI HA HA HA


you held me tight and we just walked
you held me tight we just clicked
you held me tight and i felt safe ( kinda. )
you held me close and i finally let loose. ( a little. )


hand in hand we simply stayed


if i were still young, tonight would have been almost perfect. but i ain't the foolish teenager that worships love and believes it with all her might no more.


i am now the different me. 


you forcing me to look into your eyes, i, being afraid just turned away
you saying how you like me hugging you from the back, i, just shying away eventually
you, looking right into me and singing out
you whispering god knows what into my ears


and all the while i just felt strangely calm


we walked out hand in hand, and into a condo that were unknown to us and just chilled at the pool. there we just laid. it was all great...


but somehow i'm just sorry..


i'm just too darn afraid to love.

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okay hi guys !!!! i just got back from an amazing night out ! pictures later, i need to think thru a lot of stuff man.

 i left my smashbox foundation in BKK so i had to borrow my aunt's l'oreal lol. fuck it's good !!! ima go buy it when i can !!!

 was contemplating on if i shuld let my hair loose..

 but decided against it.

 i've got this lovely top for almost half a year with the tag still intact but yesterday was the first time i showed it off LOL. nice !????

 end product.

 close up of make up. i was just spamming all the colors on my face lol.

 with jolin !

 with them guyzzzz.

 i just realized mr whitie's quite a hottie fuck !!!

 them faggots.

 the game i still cant master zzz.

 out on the dance floor where i pretty much just stood. HA HA HA HA. i lousy @ dancing lah fuck.

the view of the early mornin..

 mr jase was waiting for me to get back lol, not as sweetas it sounds he just didnt have the keys to enter the house LOL.

 good bye !!!