no im not gonna.

i am having an emotional attack now... i dont know why i am feeling so moody now... maybe it's becos my tummy is really spicy right now grr...

anyway, this is an entry that i will be typing out to remind myself to use this site more often in future so that i will still have my basic english standard alive somewhere within me.. somehow..

i have finally decided to terminate my studies in singapore. my next destination will be tai wan. the next semester starts in july so i have these few months to catch up on my 繁体中文。。( traditional chinese. )

so why tai wan u may ask ??? i've always been a fan of the west. i've always wanted to go UK or canada but surprise surprise. it's tai wan i've finally decided to set a venture on. ok. not really. ha ha it wasnt me whom dedcided that venue. it was my taiwanese relatives lol :oP

anyway, long story short, they kept going around the lines of chinese being the next states n that to continue mother's businesses, i NEED chinese foundations. it's a need. not a want. i initially considered goin 2 china lol yes china. cuz im like since china's gonza rule in future, i might s well GO there. u know... get to know the place well. get to mingle w the chinese there n kno how they live. just BEING there n UNDERSTANDING the whole chinese tribe u kno.. but now, they convinced me TW is a much more livelier place compared to SG blah blah blah n honestly ????? i wanna sleep alr.

i need to catch up on my beauty sleep. i now truly understand the meaning of beauty sleep. bye. most importantly, i want to drown out my blue mood. i h8 times like these when i think too much about those useless people who only copy peoples' footsteps n not be their own true selves. _l_
bye.

!!!

YES YES WELCOME JOYS 2 THE 4 EYES CLUB YO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i used 2 have perfect eye sights but thanks 2 24 hours of non stop studying
E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y,
IT HAS SURFACED 2 ME HAVIN 50DEGREE OFF THE TRACK SIGHTS !!!!!!!!! BOOHOOOOO ~~~~.

i've always hated bad eye sights which xplains y i always take a great deal of care for my eyes... i eat lots of carrots cuz mommy says it's good 4 eye sights. i make sure i look at the greeneries every once in a while but c c c c !!!!!! now my eyes spoil alr.........

n juz so u kno, my studying = reading romance novels thru e night ^^^^

i cant help it.... i m a hopeless romantic :oP

PS, yes, i m quite tt weird. i still havent sleep. im takin pictures thru momsie's webcam cuz i havent mentioned my camera got stolen ??? there're so much more 2 my life tt i have yet 2 UPD8 on sigh.... stay tuned ! GOO NIGH ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o n yes.

blame it on the stupid girl 4 trimming my brows 2 short _l_

mofo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i went thru months of torture by juz watchin my brow hairs grow sSlLoOwWlLyY ( i wanted 2 change the shape.. i h8 skinny brows now BTW. ) n finally after i have grown thick manly bushy brows, i happily visit the beauty parlour w momsie 2 get the brow shapes i currently love ( thick n long. ) but they turn out like . . . . . . . !????????????????????

SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES. DAT IS XACTLY WOT IT IS.

SHIT.

( _l_. )

HI.

i quite the happy..

yay me yay u itz a yayyyyyy world ~!!!!!

( B4 leavin home. yes tts my new room - - - the TV room lol -..- )

i'm here 2 ask 4 forgivenss from my skin..

that despite the l8 timing, im still hanging on, struggling 2 type these letters down n 2 hell w blog. ima gna sleep. ciao. juz got back from huay kwang w jo ma bro.

peace out ma peepz !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps, no i dont.

i'm startin 2 like u back dammit.

Mid-night Entry . . .

" OFF WITH THE HEADS !!!!!! "

red queen is damn cute can !!!!!!!!!

BOOHOOOOOO !!!!!

I'VE ALWAYS THOT I WAS FOES W WEIGHING MACHINES N WELL, GUESS WOT !????

I AM !!!!!!!!!

i was innocently walkin 2 the washroom, talkin 2 mom, w my head held high in the air when all of a sudden, i was sent ricocheting across the room !!!! i looked back to see that i have innocently tripped\kicked the bloody metallic weighing machine that i have been weighing myself with for the past. . . . god knows how long -..-

i didnt bother to check my toe, to c if it hurt. i merely laughed n continued walkin 2 the bathroom. while in the bathroom, somehow or rather as if by laws of attraction my dear toe sent me, i looked down n fuck !!!!!!!

mi tiny toe is injureds norhxxxx !!! :@

( dont freak dont freak ! itz only my toe . . not some banana toes !! ^^ )

mom was even more freaked out than me she insisted i go 2 the clinic immediately ( after freaking over where the antiseptic was, after applying the freaking sting-y ATSPTC ( god knows how i survived the torture -..- ) , after using cotton balls to wrap my injury. ) . . . thawat n i finally got 2 the clinic. it was already 21oclock so we had trouble finding clinics that were still open -..-

ANYWAY !!!! long grandmother grandfather great grandmafather story short,

HEREZ MI CUTE TOE !!!!!!!

( all warm n cozy ^^ )

HA ! HA ! HA ! HA ! HA !!!

i was insanely giggling 2 myself when i stepped outta the clinic w my cute new injury ha ha ha ha I HAVE NEVER HAD A BANDAGE B4 LEH !!!! now is such a good time to have a cute injury cuz every time i look down at my feet, i always have such a good laugh -..0

i rejected the doctor's kind sweet offer 2 give me . . . . . . . . . .

A JAB !!!!!!

can u imagine that stupid needle poking ur precious innocent cute but already hurt toe !???

I CANT !!!!

hence ! i refused her offer . . . n only got myself some meds ^___^

ok. toe story done.

now, as i was cleaning up the dishes just now ( thanks 2 no maid here in BKK -..- ) , i thot about my life, how it came to where i am, how many intriguing stuff i have seen, how many interesting people i have known, i concluded that my life . . . . . .

ok wait. this one is v nice ok. i summarized it n it turned out so beautiful i need 2 give my creation special space n beauty.


Life is about beautiful memories . . .

You either Make it,

Or you Lose it.

NICE HOR !!!!!!!!!!!

thunderos applause pls !!

hehe ! ok. i shant go on about my lil sweet quote there. but if u r 2 genius to not understand what it means, it says :

life is beautiful ( as we all know -..- ). things happen along this beautiful journey .. both good n bad . . n er......... i donno how to say alr hehe ! but anyway ! life is all about reminiscing ( in my case. i love to look back n replay scenes in my head for i donno . . a mbzillion times !? ) however, u need clips to reminisce on. u dont just play the scene where u had constipation in ur head over n over again do u !? maybe i do sometimes HA HA HA !!!

i always wonder how angelina jolie looks when she is having a badass diarrhoea ^__^ i mean i myself look like a freak show w my face all scrunched up so how about those mega beautiful celebrities hmm ??? ok out of point again. so to summarize this long sweet grandmother grandfather great grandmafather story,

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. thats all. ha ha !

bye ~!!!!!!!!

PS, no more mr R. it's funny. it went as fast as it came ^____^
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HAVE A SWEET DREAM HE HE HE HE !!!!!

oh ya !!!! if i die of metallic infection ( whatev it means -..- ) know that . . .

LIFE IS ALL ABOUT BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u either make it or lose it !!!

BB !!!

Hi Again ~!

i figured out as much that by now, readers of my blog would have fallen to zilch,,, which explians why i am here. i get privacy. i thought of opening a new blog but something kept holding me back . . . i just dreaded working with new templates, i just dreaded having to recompile all of my future memories, i just dreaded leaving this site alone . . . . so the bottom line ???

I M BACK FUCKAZ !!!

HA ! HA ! HA !!!!!

pardon the very first F word there (^__^) but it sounded more cool mah !!!!
ha ha ha ! anyway !! the reason for relaunching this site of mine is fairly simple -- i needed someplace to jot down the steps of my life. i dread writing alot now cos my handwriting a bit ugly now. abit only ah HA HA HA. school's been out for so long i don't even get the chance to practice my writings so the next best thing available is of cuzzzzz, blogging it all down lol !

so yes.

as i was saying, i have been absent from here for god knows how long. my life has kinda flipped AHHHHHHHH !!!!! MY MOM IS CALLIN ME DOWN 4 LUNCH !!!!!! C C C C C C !!! ALWAYS !!!!! ALWAYS WHEN I HAVE SOMETHING 2 DO, I NEEDA GO UGH !!!!! NVM, im gna continue stayin here. i need to climb stairs leh i h8 climbing stairs. my non existant muscles bloody throbbing juz now lor. be careful o. future weight lifter n ok. im goin outta point.

so yes. like i said, my life has flipped. a third maybe.

i have lost the person whom loves me most on earth to unfathomable matters.
i dare not even accept the truth of it all becos somewhere deep beneath me, i am just grasping on to the fact that if i admitted it all, i'd have REALLY lost him.

i keep myself BZ with whatever i can get my hands on to, i coax myself in2 sleep every day, persuading my conscious mind that he is alive somewhere but deep underneath the dense layer of pretence, i know, i know that he is already gone from earth, already long gone from my grasp . . . .

i often yearn for his arrival, to make up for the times he have been absent in our lives, to make up for the times he did not spend with us... mostly, to tell us he loves us, to hear it from his mouth but when the truth hits me, it hits me hard and all i can do is crumble down in tears and battle on with the surging emotions that creep all over me to the fact that . . . . . . . . . .

he is already gone...

the fact still remains that i will never be able to hear it from himself that he loves me. that i have never been absent from his life. that i am truly his pride. the fact remains that i will remain all my life.

when i realize this, of course, i already have to admit defeat but u know wot !?????? aint gonna blog about this matter any more.
i need happier matters to cheer me up dude !!!!!!

so yes !!

i am back in BKK already !!!!

this holiday has been one of a kind. things happen without me realizing. i may be in here this minit but the next ??? i am away from here, already on my way to the next destination -..-

i was first in 29degree, then i had to fly to a 30 odd degree, then i had to fly to 20 degree and back again to 30 odd degree. now, i m back in a breezy 30 degree -..-

and the suckiest thing !????
i always get sore throat when i reach BKK god knows y -..0

anyway !!!!!!!! i have so many thing to rumble on n on but i go eat first. hungry mah hehez !!!!
-
so i m back ! apparently they didnt cook 2day -..- had 2 eat some chinese take outs..

so yes yes yes, hmm where shuld i start !!??? o yes !!! up until now i dont even kno how 2 check which poly im enlisted 2 lol !!!!!!! :oP

ANW, i m officially goin for MDIS. shcool starts in april. i have 2 sit for 4 months of bridging first tho cuz my math n accounts is suckass :oP

i finally persuaded momsie 2 allow me 2 take T & H ( tourism. )
^^^^^^^

she wanted me to take business management but pls !!! everyone knows my math n accounts is downright sucky !!! i would only be sending myself 2 da pit of bullshit digits-filled hell if i go for biz course :oP

i hope my course ends fast cuz i m !DYING! 2 strart working !!!!
i m gonna be launghing an apparel cum accessories shop in MM cuz i am inspired by my friend !!!! he's only 20 but he's already making a living outta himself !!!!!
i m truly amazed :O

he quite handsome also HA HA HA HA HA !!!!!

so irrelevant :oP

anyway !!!!! he came 2 yangon to get some stocks. he's my mom's friend's son so. ya, so i kinda know how this line of business works now ^__^

visit my shop soon !!!!!!

it's gonna be called " ma li ba wang. " MUA HA HA HA !!
location unknown.
time of first opening unknown.
big dreams ????

KNOWN !

lol !!

ok. this shall be all 4 2day !
i need resize my loadsa pictures taken. my FsBk looks fugly right now. all albums wo pic :oP
so BB !!!!