Caught in the Middle . . .

. .. . .. . .. .. . . .. . ... . . ... busy nursing a broken heart . . . .... . .. . .

bangcockie has left me with a feeling i will never get over with.
tearing over some affection that's never meant to be is as raw as a wounded heart.
keep bleedin, keep keep bleedin. keep tearin, keep keep tearin . ... .. .

BEAUTIFOOL !!!!

bangcock has been treating me well -.- i dread goin back to SG. so much.
someone save me !!!!!
lemme stay here and study here instead PLS !!!!!!!!!?

just like what KK said, it'll be super unwise to make such a childish decision simply becos of one's joy. we should be thinkin of our future. and right now, our future'll be determined by SG.

i'm in the lan shop now, KK is having her thai tuition. tonight might be goin to a pub w/ a few of her friends but Sun is busy nuring his wounded heart so i donno. i feel glum. i feel so broken. i donno why everytime i close my eyes, im greeted w/ the impossibilities. yet im dreaming of the face. ever since the first day. am i crazy ?????! it's fuckin' crazy !!!!! this is never goin to end. bye.

P.S / im feelin the bloody pressure !!!!! all the oldies are praising me !!!! ha ! ha ! ha ! yesterday, i had to go over to grandmommy's friends and enjoy pieces of art -.- how they're sewn thread by thread, how this piece is better than the other in terms of colors and skills, how this wood carving is so detailed, the beaks, the flowers, the wings, how this poece of wood smells so good. how earthly, how COOOOOOOL !!!!!! i had to bloody pretend to be interested !!! i was ooooooooooooo and aaaaaaaaaah-ing, nodding my head here and there when necessary -.- lemme tell u im not made for this kinda stuff -.-.-.- which is another reason im alone now and the ancients are meeting thier other half of the ancients. he he he he he he he .. .. ..


THIS IS HOW OLD I LOOK !!!!!!!!! I AM AGING RAPIDLY, DAMMIT !!!!

while waiting for the bill.

@ KK's aunt's hse.

now my SG monkey has a thai friend !! ha ha ha.

Sun peace.

Day 2:
on our way to central world.

Sun and KK.

coconut by the road.

OJ by the road.

the healthy dweebs !!! ha ha ha.

lil K and i.

the monster VS alien. ha ha ! what a cute show. watchin up today !!!

KK climbin the gate of her aunt's.

ta-daaah. i donnno why it looks so short here but it was pretty high up live.

wait for more pics from K's camera !

GB.

kiss GB to my current hair, hooray !

i am planning to do something about it once i reach bangcock. may the hair stylists save my hair, amen. goin to kaplan w/ KK now. BYE !!!

P.S !!!!　JANELLE POK IS A BIMBO !!!!!!!

PINK.

U KNO WOT ?????????????????? I THINK KK AND I R THE KOOLEZT PPL ON EARTH. ha ! ha ! ha ! the swimming plan at 5.30am ?
i woke up at 7pm -.-

anyway ! today was a realli hectic day -.-
supposed to be up at 7am but got up at 9.30am instead. got ready and left house w/ KK. first, we went to have breakfast @ wisma atria and got her sony stuff. then we went over to funan to collect her tv but she forgot to bring her passport so not wanting to waste our precious time goin home to collect it, we went over to mac's and ate a meal each. right aft our BF -.-
next stop, we went over to clementi's kbox and sung till 18 oclock. i tried all of pink's and i really love who knew. i think im gettin the hang of it -.-
now, we're back at K's. i still have to make my way back to bedok again l8r on -.-

anyway ! i have been pretti damn moodi these few days -.- i donno wots got into me -.- i need new school shoes. bye. and u kno wot ? i really miss home -.-

rough mane is startin to curl -.-
my hair is really damn bad now. i was only tryin to be this mega-money-saving-saint by buying these cheap ass organic shampoo which costs 2＄ each. i happy used it for a few days, self-praising on my bargaining gift, saving earth, not using chemical shits when i noticed my once rather smooth hair turning to a blob of rough strands -.- damn stupid.
-.-

Neck ache -.-

the man of my dreams,
according to KK,
is the most
horrid looking
man on earth :o\


this is not a short term thing cos he has delivered KK and i's KFC meal for 3 times already, dammit !!





it will go away soon. he looks like benjamin button -.- the young version. not the pitt version.
-.-
i have the oddest taste.

i will be sleeping soon. thatz K's fave terminator - the yellow bumblebee. im not sure if i got the spelling right -.-

swimming tmr at 5.30am.
G'NIGHT !!!!!


dear Father, with all my heart and soul, i pray for your loving soul to control my appetite and i pray to you to give me courage to overcome the barriers i face when i see food in front of me. lastly, dear father, may i slim down soon. amen.

urs sincerely,
lisa.
tryin' to look sinisterly white up there -.-

urgh. TRIGO -.-

in case u go assuming my affection for dear ol library is temporary, my credit in the account went blank which xplains the pause -.-

brother jaw called me last night after reading my entry and no worries bro. i dont take momsie's absence seriously. oh my, i was dumb for words last night cos my singlish is TOO EMBARRASSING !!!!! ha ha ha. hope u are fine !! P.S : i really miss charlie boy :o\

yesterday, i went over to KK's old house to clear the truckload of rubbish, no less !

so i smugly walked out of the lift, inwardly pleased with the bashful muscles that actually exist in my body but are sadly blocked out by those bloody damn selfish fats -.-
i managed to carry out the luggages and boxes and millions of bags on my own outta the lift.
i lifted my handbag off the ground and ferried it to this taxi waiting area.

i think i was taking the whole ima-supa-genius thing too far cos instead of carrying the bag by its handle, i decided to be kickazz and carried it by its bottom when i felt something . . . . S L I M Y .. . . . . !!!!!!!

not sure if it was best to place it under shampoo or something i would thoroughly h8 to think of, the dweebest thing any dweebs on earth could ever, ever, ever, ever do . . .. . .

i smelled it.


yes, lo and behold i said I SMELLED IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FRIGGING SMELLED THAT LITTLE FUCKING SLIMY SHITAZZ SMILE !!!!!!! IT WAS FUGGING DIZGUZTINGZZZZ !!
-.- _l_ _l_ _l_

_l_( -.-)_l_

i've never yearned for anything in my life ( other than to be slim -.- ) than dettol raining on me -.- i seriously don't kno wots wrong wit me !!!!! i keep meeting phlegm ! i cant believe i not only fugging touched some bloody asshole's phlegm , BUT I ALSO SMELT IT !!!!!!!!!!1 EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

ok. i dont wanna be promoted to the next stage of The Dweeb's Life Cycle so i will stop flaunting my luck -.- .-.- -.-.-.-.-

ON A BRIGHTER NOTE, I WILL BE FLYING TO BANGCOCK ON 20TH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE HE HE HE HE HE HE. see. hard work pay off fine if u believe, dammit -.-
sad news is, i will only be there for a measly week -.-
never been there for such a short time -.-.-.-

now, all i need to do is convince momsie darling tiger air is as safe as silky silky air -.-.-.-.-
i will be going w/ jia xin aunt's family and i SO wouldnt want to miss out with company by sitting in a different aircraft alone -.- i think the france air thingy is frighteningly scary tho.

ok !

" help us keep the library clean by . .. . "


hell, i will !!!! library is my muse, it's my dear ol soul mate, dammit !
gotsa go. i didnt kno my future husband closes at 21 oclock -.-

DWEEBIE DWEEBX !

ha ! ha ! ha !

doesn't it seem like dear ol friendly library and i have some amazin blazin chemistry ??!

hehehehe. let's just see how long i can keep this relationship.

today was hella tiring. went curtain and lights shopping w/ KK and the interior designer who happens to be named Edmund. ha ha ! inside joke.
the dweeb blood is growing in me. i went to the popular and got some stationeries. KK then sent me off to tuition which is where i finally managed to finish a worksheet !!!!!! took me 2.5 hours -.-

hear this, mathie.
i hate u.
just wanted u to know that -.-

PS : sick and tired. im taking whatever comes first :o\

who do u kno !

well well well ! i am back a happy girl. ha ha ha, today's my first time going to expo and i must say, i really liked it !! ( oh gosh. convince me i don't sound like a total dweeb -.- ) if u spotted a girl with a silly grin looking around as tho first time on earth, that's me !! i could literally taste the excitement in there. even tho i wasn't feelin up for a walk, i certainly enjoyed myself there. in fact, i even felt like mother theresa. this toddler was resting agaist my butt and tighs and guess what ! i didnt even budge. i was all smiles, pretending to be his pillar of support -.- i'd usually just tsk at the boy but today, like i said, i was Mom Ther.
guess what ! i didn't even get bothered with the massive crowd ! ha ha. right after i set foot there, i knew this is THE place. i love the way it feels robotic. i felt like a brainy in charge of the mall. ha ha ! best is, it felt like i was in the airport &_&
here's the totally self comfessed dweeb for u, dammit !

anyway ! here's another reason to brand me a dweeb.

im aktually in the library using the computer -.-
ha ! ha ! i certainly amaze myself sometimes -.-

momsie finally called me last night. i thot for a minit there they had totally forgotten about dear ol me's pitiful existence. to be frank, i did shed a bucket of tears over there. but i was telling myself they were juzt being busy with sandi and kev's wedding and well, smart asses are always right ! they were INDEED busy with the wedding. but all's good now -.-
i'm getting used to -.- face now. i dont kno -.- it just feels good.
-.-
ha ha ha !
-.-
pls laugh, asshole.


im here to borrow some books. or else i'll rot of boredom and the news will read :
Day 1.

" A Body of a Pitiful ol Girl Found Rotting Under Bedsheet. "

Day 7.

" The whole truth - Girl died of boredom. News Flash : teens are being negleted lately. parents pls provide xtra comfort at home. "

hehehehe ! i feel rather happy now.
which is amazing, considering the fact that the buttons of my jeans popped out just after i peeled if off my body -.- how lucky -.- my first time wearing a pair of jeans and that darn it thing simply refused to cooperate with me -.-
things like these should die an eternal death -.-
my tighs were suffocating under the pressure which is a cry for help -

TIME TO HIT THE PARK !!!!

Losing.

sometimes i'm like the dumbest person ever o[''__'']o

i've learnt that dwelling on the past is a really lame excuse to feel pitiful.

a wondrous holiday of a month is on goin but the sad news is, i can't even go back to myanmar to enjoy myself -.- i was supposed to be sitting in the plane cruising around the sky yesterday but guardian ol mine told momsie i'd need XTRA help with my math so she suggested i dont go back this time round.

days here iz gona be zo dead boring. i have 4 days of MATH tuition a week for goodness's sake !!!! that'd make 16 for the whole month a67c35677@#$%#@ ew.
i dont kno what can be worse than being tortured with the cruel lethal MATH. just the thot alone is enough to make me wish i was hit with a mild H1N1 flu. ha ha, ok. maye not. let me suck them back. i hope i was not hit with a mild H1N1 flu but i hope i was hit with chicken pox but it wouldn't be cos i alr had mine -.-

anyway ! KK is still sleeping so it's only me and the neckache. my legs are sore. my back bone feels broken. my stomach's in a whirlwind. my teeth feel loose. my tongue feels fat. my hair feels frail. my eyes feel heavy. my nose feels suffocated. my heart feels broken. do all these suffice as a temporary-life-threatening-kinda-thing that can make me skip my tuition for the whole damn june ????????????????????????

Inverted MW.

oh snap, i'm outrageously pulled in.

every speech, every thought, every actions, all gyrated around the impossibilities that're dying to be. knowing the brutal truth is gonna hurt me so bad but here's me surprisingly hanging on the line wishing for the reverse to befall . . it's crazy !

a wise woman once said
" fantasy is a lie where only the weak visit. "

. . . . . . i was that wise woman . . . . . . .. . .

was.

ha ha ha, now i'm childlike ! what a stupid head.


must really be this way huh?????!