in the end, you're just the same as every other guy.

abcd

i know it's time i admit i have to let go but here i am holding on so tight hoping, no matter how slight, for it to turn out the way the movies do. always ending happily.

but who the fuck am i kidding. we don't have any shared interests, i want it but i dont wanna work for it.

i honestly don't understand myself sometimes. im only interested when the other loses interest. and when they are still wrapped in the interest, i get so sick of their attention i just throw them away. and when they are gone finally, i start seeing their good and start wishing things would go back the way they were.

ugh. now that im so near him, im literally losing interest. how i hope things would go back to the way it was when we were miles apart.

simple and sweet.

now it's just angry and boring.

sometimes i just wish my mind would stfu

central flood n sukishi n pepper lunch n kinect

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forgot the date. thai food, karaoke, pool and home to poor plants in the rain.

 my food shots are really bad evidently -..-

i was too hungry i didn't bother finding the angles n whatnots. gotta be patient and learn to snap them with the love u chew them honey !!!!

x

another self entry.

oh look here's another entry from me !

i've just got back from a dinner out with le familia, brought momsie to watch Ted. a little awkward ha ha ha but there wasn't anything else !!!! ha ha, and le mother didn't wanna infect her eyes with any horrors ha ha.

so it's 145am here in darling little BKK now. i'm gonna go back to Singapura this coming friday, which is really sad. try as i might, i still do get sad when it's time to leave le familia. i won't have breakfast waiting for me or them adults nagging at me to eat and bathe and sleep. times like these i gotta be strong and independent. sometimes in life we gotta force ourselves to be strong and stand up on our own two feet until that person becomes a part of us. gotta train myself for my marriage. when i divorce i don't wanna be weak and just crumble. i wanna be strong and stand tall and still be the strong girl that loves to have fun. and pretty much just be me, be joys. be joycy hon. hehe.

this entry is gettin' a lil emotional. first day of disconnection with le D. not too tough cos we don't have any emotional attachments. see ? when you don't invest too much of your heart, you don't lose nothin. true i do miss him. but the sense of missing him doesn't come from the heart. more like a habit. you know a certain time comes up and that's when u'll receive his text that kinda thing.

o well. life goes on like it or not.

 just keep your feelings to yourself honey. nothing is ever permanent. live free, live carefree. just live. don't love. but flirt. HA HA HA HA. ok.


lemme go upload pics. byeeeeee.

actually wait. maybe my heart does miss him. not like the guy kinda thing. like a mere get-to-know-u-just kinda thing. like...... 2% ??????

i had to do my laundry the old school way today under my mama's supervision :-( my poor wrist that felt better when i woke up is now back to the poor original state. i think i twisted it while i fell :-(

le uncle n jase and my coffee pudding !!! love love !

 abrupt end hehe. was too hungry i didn't bother takin pics of other food LOL >.<

xx